found guilty Okay, like what Kirth shared in her GASHONG e-mail, i shouldn't punish myself for failing to do a task... Avoiding food indulgence...

I'm mortifyingly guilty in over-indulgence of any edible thing on planet earth... and worse, guilty of helpless over-eating of nuts... I might as well go nuts... I love nuts, name it I like it! even coconuts! But geez, speaking of almonds, macadamia, cashew, wallnuts, peanuts, all nuts, I really go gaga eating them!They're like the best stuff this earth could offer! dang! They even overtook my passion for chocolates! but i better make some resolution about this...

I shall therefore declare to the world, aside from not buying peanut butter to be stored in my room, i shall not buy nuts from vendo machines, and even nuts from grocery stores for storage in my room. In the first place, they never get stored. Overwhelming 100 grams of nuts is nothing.. 200 grams is the same thing, my tummy sees them all the same, goodie nuts, and the more the merrier... But my health-conscious or at least health meter warns me to stop, i've been overweight and it was bad, although the process was delightful. I also cannot rely on physical exercise because most likely i shall have no time for them.. Neways... I shouldn't punish myself that much... I shall let go of my past 4 days of utter food indulgence, such days will never happen again as long as I'm not yet a DL (hahahahahahahahahahahahahahahaha... is that an eternal wait?)... Neways! Ivy says no to food indulgence! So help me God ^_^.

-lazy bloke  ¶ 9:29 PM 0 comments

  just emotional, and unfriendly random thoughts i want to vent all my emotions/complains in this entry...hehe...

okay at this moment i felt like, how i wish i was home
i don't want to study, no point working hard
why are they like that?
why am i like this?
could i stop eating? geez, food is a powerful temptation to the restless tummy
could they just leave me alone? when i needed them they weren't here, now i don't want them but they're bugging me!
can they just go away?
i'm stressed!
why is it tough to do the commission?
can Jesus come now? I want to go home
will my soul be restless always?
will people be forever not open-minded?
when will God break into them?
when will my self-control grow stronger?
when will i be more inspired to push further?
i don't dream that big anymore, i find it impractical
but since that dream is gone, im not motivated to excel
can somebody challenge me? the "push" is gone...
i find academics boring
NUS is stretching my nerves the wrong way
They want loads of info to be taught in one sem
One topic, i.e. partial derivatives, meant for a sem, was studied for 2 weeks!
how are we supposed to understand that?
I hate memorizing! all those formulas just @$$Q@3
arrr... and now hall
I want to go to PGP!
I'm not fond of my crush anymore...
He used to appear big...now he's just another dot...
How i long to bring back the industrious me
who finds studying a pleasure
and doesn't want to lose out
who hates mediocre performances
a perfectionist
I am all opposite of those mentioned
but spiritually well off, i hope...
i don't know whether im better or worse
i feel like i'm ever unsatisfied
but this world will never satisfy
and i don't like the way this world puts this pressure on me
i don't even find millionaires happy
why do people want to be rich and place priority of getting there over knowing God?
isn't it said, seek ye first the kingdom of God and all these things will be given unto you? lousy love for money!
what do people really search, if money and happiness are mutually exclusive?
big time house, big time car, big time career, yeah whatever big time
or maybe whatever good looking, im plain tired of all these stupid vanities
they're going nowhere... nowhere...
i find it "off" when i hear people wanting to be wealthy... I don't know, i just find it "off" even if i were the one who'd say it... it has this disappointing aura on me...
i belittle people who focus their lives plainly on getting rich... I find them hopeless... because when they'll get there, will they find what they're looking for? or will they remain unsatisfied? i doubt that they'll be ultimately contented...
getting rich isn't bad... but if you set your heart with the world... tsk tsk tsk...
you're actually fortunate when you were in the slums
argh...
i'm lazy....  ¶ 9:17 PM 0 comments

  i found some nice newsweek article about Jesus. It's not biased writing i guess because it presented stuff from different angles with a hanging end about faith (so it's actually left as a choice), anyhow it is friendly to all people, at least to inform them of facts about Jesus: http://www.msnbc.msn.com/id/7244999/site/newsweek/?GT1=6305  ¶ 8:30 PM 0 comments

  i just ate what i could find! wups! another temptation brought to you by me! hahahaha! =P

what do i have to tell? well, if i were to tell something substantial, i could say a lot. A lot has happened, too many revelations, and too many shocking ones to accept. Well, not Korsi's, I was actually expecting something like that to happen in the future since last sem, but i guess the future is now... So it wasn't after all shocking but I'm just surprised of the timing, i am just glad that now she's happier. =)

As for me, well, God laid choices in front of me. I'm currently on a crossroad, wondering what lies ahead. I could see obscure images, I just couldn't tell. I do not know which to believe and how to move on. There were some things that I somehow know what they are, my mind says accept but my heart says to vomit them out. I do not know who to believe, if i'd side with one, i might be unruly to the other. But either way, I somehow lose out. And this boils down to risk. But I'm not the type. God knows how I wanted to risk but I fear of losing out. I have lost many battles without a fight because I didn't know and didn't want to.

It's hard and its hurting. I can see possible truths and yes, they're happening in front of my face. The worse things can only be happening. I want to feel numb but I'm not. Nevertheless, I'm not freaking out. Thank God.

I believe that He has foreseen this and so has prepared me that's why I did not frantically tell the world what was going wrong or at least what appears to have gone wrong. I know not exactly what He plans for me, but I do trust Him and I'm coping well enough. I just wanted to blog this. At least in the future I won't forget that I have gone through this kind of phase in life when all the 'petty' realities you didn't want to know just went up to you, introducing themselves. As a civilized individual you accepted them, but they have no idea how much you wanted to burn them down or bury them alive. You are controlled and you know those things were wrong. A little more control will do, I guess... But if you were to make a pathetic decision, you would rather do otherwise. But then again, what can you really do? It is tough to just accept... Really tough...

I just came back from Dreams: Dance Uncensored... Well, I guess I expected so much, but over-all it was something not to miss, especially if you're the type who loves to dance. I did like some KR dances, Xiaoyuan was good as a dancer and choreographer! Geez, somehow I wanted to tell them that I wanted to dance with them next year. But what kind of face should I show them, now that I have shown uncommitment? Anyway, dance is passion. It is beautiful. I know somehow I'll find my way back there again, maybe not next year.

Wheeze! long stuff!

I'm glad Eunice and her friend (wups forgot the name) visited me... And yes, another reality slapped me to the face. But this reality was somehow required of me and is urgent. I also did not want to accept it, but it is more proper to do so and it must be done. It involves very high risk, but then again, risky is a relative term. When you speak of the Lord, and talk about real risk, the risk that I'm about to commit is nothing compared to the risk of suffering eternally. My risk is nothing but another fear that has to be subdued anyhow. I want to lie flattend. I want to be hammered coz I feel like I'm one but I cannot and must not be. The Lord will always be here for me. With His sevenfold intensified Spirit, He shall reveal to me what gazillions more to be revealed. And that means more slaps on my possibly nearly swollen face.

"But my Lord, I'm not sure if I'm prepared... In Your time, let them be!"


Carpe Diem!  ¶ 10:11 PM 4 comments

  God works in many wonderful ways just a story to share...

i heard this story from a Burmese sister in the Lord. It is pretty short but the message is purely strong.

the story goes like this.

Nowadays we know that Burma is facing instability and even before then. This friend of mine, got a friend who, in her work, shared the gospel to her fellow Burmese who doesn't know God. She specially shared Psalms 23 (the only full chapter that I can recall to have memorized...hehe). Even though that non-Christian friend didn't seem to care about the words, and didn't even listen at all; eventually after seeing that Christian officemate, he learned that Psalms 23 was about God's promise of protection. However, that non-believer wasn't changed (yeah, so what's with the words?--> i think i'm bent on thinking the same way if I wasn't born to a family who knows God), he just knew Psalms 23 by name. Then there came a time when that non-believer had to cross the boarder of Burma. There were rebels that time, indeed it was tumultous esp. in the boarders, and that non-believer had no choice but to push through. While on his way, he remembered Psalms 23, just the name, and tried talking to the God whom he does not even know. He just kept whispering Psalms 23 in his heart, believing in God's promise that in Psalms 23 there is this protection as what his officemate have many times dictated to his unlistening ears. Eventually, he was able to pass through the boarder, whole, unharmed! With just the power of protection even in the title (Psalms 23 alone and nothing more), and believing heart, he experienced God's protection. And yes, he became a believer afterwards.

Isn't it wonderful how even the things we don't really care about, for this case the mere number of the chapter and name of the book, make wonders when we really call unto God and claim the promises He has given through the Word? And isn't it amazing how God cause events to happen to bring back his lost children? Even at first that Christian officemate seemingly failed to convince the guy with God's reality, that officemate planted a seed, even just the name and idea of God's powerful protection. So for Christians, do not fear men! We may not see direct results, but it's the seed that we put into the nonbelievers mind that grows eventually in God's time. We are the vessels, God does His work ultimately =).

Proverbs 19:23
"The fear of the Lord leads to life; Then one rests content, untouched by trouble"  ¶ 11:54 PM 0 comments

  lalala cool! I feel definitely fine today! maybe because I currently don't mind about my crush...
As in not at all! It was just mere admiration meeting somebody with such an interesting character. He is a people person in fact. I wish everyone got that welcoming aura so that at least barriers would be broken down even in the first meeting. He is an amiable and emotionally intelligent person who simply got the words to hit off with a good conversation. He also knows how to properly react to situations. I definitely admire that! But that's not my point here, my point is, I'm glad today because I finally realized the difference between having a crush and just simple admiration. Maybe all I had for him was a momentary exuding admiration and mistook it as crush. You may say that admiration is having a crush on that guy, but it was just momentary, I think crush is more on a longer time basis...

The power of labeling got 100% effect on me (that explains why I nearly drooled over that guy because I wrongly labeled him as my crush, but he's not! hehe...). I use it to overcome some emotions, with the help of God of course. After labeling, I openly declare it to Him, and suddenly they all become futile, and small. Through Him, we can all see things clearly, just an open talk with no holding back. Besides, I think He knows us better than we know ourselves; He can see the bigger innate reasons in our actions that even we ourselves cannot identify. He's cool and very loving, despite knowing every bit of us, He still gives us His unconditional love.

Yey! I'm back to the usual me! I'm ABnormal! =) I am simply glad to be me again.
Nevertheless, I'm still super overwhelmed with things that are yet to be done. I think I heaped them up this week, because I was trying to catch up with my sleep. (now that rhymes a bit!). But anyway, school will be over in less than two months time! That means my countdown calendar is reaching half the page! Isn't that exciting? Exams are coming too! and by the end of next week, I'm done with most of my assignments! SS is an exception, I still got hundreds of pages to read!!! Marketing maybe about 50 plus... and for my core modules... errr... I think adding up them all up would equate to my SS readings! sigh.... okay... We are all going to make it ! Never ever give up ever! The Lord is with us and will always be =). We are His children. =)  ¶ 5:33 PM 1 comments

  ^_^ another me thing... hehe... i feel way better now, after trying to talk implicitly in my last post and some 5 hours of sleep. hehe... but i think what i felt while writing the previous post was another fleeting emotional surge. But anyway, i do feel okay right now.

I just had a dream, after the longest time. Generally, i was situated in a different environment from what I'm having now. And I saw myself acting the same way as before, like i was never changed for the Lord. I realize the need to keep watch, and now that I know I'm not the me when I was in high school, spiritually speaking, I should stand for it. I think it's kind of hard to get stuck in the same situation again, and react in the same way, like all I am is merely a change in S'pore, not really a change in me. Ivy in S'pore is different from Ivy in Phil, and most likely the real Ivy is the Ivy who tends to be complacent in the Phil... That sounds bad... Anyway, it is only a matter of less than two months when I get to that kind of situation again. But I daresay, it's nearly been a year! I shouldn't go acting like the same aging fella they were with, as if nothing really happened. The Lord cannot be glorified that way! Hopefully, when they see me again, i am trully a born again. And i don't speak of religion.

Kinda serious huh? ^_^. That was a pretty serious dream.

God bless ya all!

Carpe Diem!  ¶ 11:11 AM 0 comments

  I still got time to spare... To blog and tell the world that I'm stuck!

hehe.. Nay... Jesus is wonderful! That's all I can say...

For more nonsensical stuff, maybe you could read a lil later, when all else fall into place. I could get to talk some stuff when I'm in my league, but currently I'm delved into this venture, that only God knows what would really happen next. I got myself mixed up with lessons, emotions, paranoia, and urgency. Well, it's typically hard to explain. But anyway, as long as the stars are shining bright in the velvet midnight sky at least somewhere out there, although some midnights might be bloody, I shall not lose hope. What's mine will be mine, in God's time. I just have to learn the deeper meaning of waiting, somehow...

Sometimes, being cynic does me some good. At least I don't get easily deceived by happy hours, and lovely faces. ^_^. But optimism in the Lord keeps me breathing. I can't possibly slash my veins with a cutter!  ¶ 1:02 AM 0 comments

  and i was struck... no it's not what you think it is...

i'm just struck...

the symptoms of an imperfect human...

sigh...

i know the Lord wants to teach/tell me something...

im already getting dizzy...

is it because of my monthly thing?

maybe...

but i'm still struck down....


God speed!  ¶ 6:50 PM 0 comments

  some things to think about i just read my daily dosage of existence... ehhe... the one year bible reading thingy. ^_^ and i came across passages that are simply thought-provoking or just reinforcing some things i've learned from the past... they are:

NUMBERS 18:22
"From now on the Israelites must not go near the Tent of Meeting, or they will bear the consequences of their sins and will die..."

~okay... i was wondering how come the tent of meeting was so exclusive to the priests that only them are allowed to stand close in the presence of God. I even thought that was somehow unfair because only them can get to enjoy God in a closer relationship. this verse made me realize that God is utterly holy and pure, and He doesn't want to harm us, and if you go there tainted with sin's debt, you got to pay right away. Since sin is death, you'll get that when you are blemished in his presence... and it made me appreciate what Jesus did. Lucky are we that we live in this time when we can approach God without being struck by lighting because of our impurity. Because through Jesus we are made clean, our sins are paid. We can enjoy a loving relationship with the Father, and Jesus along with the Holy Spirit that lives in us... Isn't that a wonderful gift? Indeed! priceless and invaluable...


about offerings
NUMBERS 18:32
"By presenting the best part of it you will not be guilty in this matter; then you will not defile the holy offerings of the Israelites, and you will not die."

~ it just supports that fact that in everything we do, do our best like as if we are doing it for the Lord. This verse also strongly applies in serving God, when we offer ourselves to serve, we should offer it whole. We should be committed to it because when we fail to do so, we are not doing our best; and there's this "we could have done better" thingy. No im not referring to this dissonance when you really have tried your best and you feel like you could have done better. I'm referring to the type where you choose not to do your best because you are just plain lazy. (between options of giving your best and just do it for the sake of doing it)... No, you're not just plain lazy but selfish as well, you don't want to share to other people more of your time and effort. You may say that we barely have time and strength in this world, but that's the point! We barely have the time and even vigor that we have to give the best out of what we got. To make some parallelism between the verse i've mentioned and what i'm talking about; let's discuss some background about Israel. The Levites (the ones the verse refer to) get the offerings from the Israelites as their share (because the Lord is their inheritance). And these offerings were of the best quality; and in the verse you can see that for this share of the Levites, they should offer a tenth of what they received to the Lord and should be the best of the best. So we can see here that they get the best, and they must give the best of the best. In the same way for us, God gave us talents and gifts. God knows our capabilities well that He knows which blessings/gifts we are best at. He gives them to us (~Levite's share of the offerings by Israelites). And from what we receive, we should give Him the best (just like the Levites giving the best out of the best they were blessed with). We therefore "insult" (defile) our gifts/talents/blessings when we don't give the best out of them; and worse we reject God's gift when we don't use them at all. and I think that's really bad.

~and geez, im also affected!

Mark 16:16
"Whoever believes and is baptized will be saved, but whoever does not believe will be condemned"

~ this verse i think can be easily (and is easily) misinterpreted, especially by nonbelievers. and to be frank (i know many would react..but i shall not be blind about it), this stirs a commotion in a discussion between Catholics (RCs) and Christians. For some Christians, RCs are not yet saved. Maybe because of the usual thought of Mary, mother of Jesus, being worshipped, and being made an idol when you think of RCs. (yes you can approach and "kill" me with words after this but i just want to share what we just obliviously face almost everytime...be honest! we do face this struggle! well, at least i do...). I got no problem with intercessional prayers and stuff, but why are we relying on intercessional prayers through saints who are not in this world anymore when we can just go and approach Jesus right away? We got Jesus! Like as if Jesus wouldn't listen to us when we are not being referred to by the saints who are with Him right now... Why can't we just go personal with Him? I think it is more leisurely to talk to Him than to talk to the saints about Him. It's like talking to the friends of your crush about getting to know your crush and even relaying a message to your crush, when all the while your crush is just there right there sitting beside you, willing to be talked to (and even waiting for you to talk to him!). Sorry for the use of word, but I think that's ridiculous! No im not saying don't talk to saints (well actually i've never really talked to saints who have passed this world, i prefer talking to Jesus if i got the choice), I'm just saying that instead of spending more time with them, spend more time with Jesus. Didn't we ever realize that it is only through Jesus that we can come to the Father? Invest on that fact. I'm also not saying that RCs are not saved, I'm not saying at all! I strongly believe that salvation is God's grace given to those who believe;,not to those who are labeled as Christians and/or Catholics. And that grace is coupled with a loving relationship with God altogether, all in one great package!

And as for my next point, that verse, doesn't exclude people! (like what ate Cla shared..Christianity is not "exclusive"). It is not meant to draw a line between the saved and those to be condemned. It is a warning of a fact that may happen to those who were shared with the Gospel and after some long complicated story goes on wandering, denying the call that's emanating from within... But again, i find it too complicated that listing the possible explanations here may take a lifetime for me to figure out.

The verse is like, don't eat cyanide it is dangerous to your health (okay fine, i know it's exaggerated; just live with it =) ). But the people doesn't know what cyanide is. Uninformed of its dangers, they may blatantly eat it or any food that unknowingly creates cyanide in the tummy (improperly cooked cassava for example), thinking that there's nothing wrong with it. They need to be informed!

So basically, all i want to say is that the Gospel must be shared and also i suggest that we should view verses like Mark 16:16 as more like a warning and/or a call, rather than a definition that exclusively separates believers from those who don't. It is meant to welcome not to shoo people away...

It is a grim fact that not everyone will be saved, not everyone will believe in my Lord. But personally, I'm just trying to share Him to others; He is too much for me to keep. I know this may lead to further arguments and you may even say what I just said defeats the purpose of writing this entry; but hey, there are myriads of people in this world and you can never please everybody! Even Jesus can't, all the more me?Perhaps I can even declare that there are two types of people in this world, those who hates this entry and those who don't. You can even correct me if i made an utterly awful mistake (im open about it =) , but just make sure as well that you know what you are going to say. (just a friendly message 'coz i feel like this post is quite... erm... u know...)

God bless everyone!

Carpe Diem!  ¶ 10:55 AM 0 comments

  b.l.o.g. well, i just noticed that my past few posts were nonsense...

my crush and everything. I don't know if i could consider that as an evolution or worse an improvement. It just feels so different to reread what I've written when I gain my normal senses... Or maybe i don't know which is normal anymore... hahahaha ^_^

Oh well again... Geez, i love that expression. It just so happen that i write them several times in a post without bothering about their subsequent reiterations... hahaha again... Oh well and oh well ^_^

and well, i guess i have to share more of my crush (in the belief that i may get tired of talking about him and turn my attention to something else other than thinking about what he thinks about me... hahaha)... He is remarkable, and apparently, he's different from most male Singaporeans; other than the improved accent, he got this respectable aura, someone with great authority and yet gentle. He respects other people's beliefs and shares his own. A good thinker, i guess he's one of those who can communicate in infrasonic levels (in other words, beyond human threshold) although i might be exaggerating a bit. No he's not a typical pretty boy, and no i don't like pretty boys who think and brag that they are pretty boys; i doubt that i'm compelled to like pretty boys (hahaha..pathetic... but really... i just find them arrogant sometimes..)... I don't even know if he is a pretty boy, for me he looks cool, somebody whose looks are just right. He may discuss about people talking kok or tokok or whatever, he doesn't. Or maybe in my ears everything he says make sense or he's just one in a million who makes sense even in joke times...=)(am i too biased on my compliments?). and yah, I'm even starting to think that he is just too good to be true... So I guess I do admire him eh? Hehe... guilty as charged!

I was thinking, if I approach him and use all the dignity I've saved up just to tell him that i like him (I'm a typical Pinay ok?) I strongly believe that I would stop liking him afterwards. More like weighing the opportunity cost between the time to wait until I get over him or my "dignity" that i have to spend and I really don't care much about. I mean I was never rejected by a guy before, because I never approached a guy before! Maybe it's the secrecy that reinforces admiration... maybe... but most probably for my case.

OKAY TO A MORE SENSIBLE ONE...

I am battered academically, but no, i'm not yet defeated and i will never will. I got confidence that the Lord have good plans for me. Although you may question me about my certainty that such a thing is not His plan for me... I just know, because well, i think i can't explain it in plain words... but i guess sometimes you just know, because he gives this peace in you, that you don't have to worry. Everything would turn out alright even though the frontcover isn't ok.

ahhh.. okay i just ran out of more sensible thoughts...

gts (got to sleep), maybe tomorrow i'd be more sensible... I guess i talked too much about my crush. Lucky him to occupy more than half of my entry for today... haha... as if he's aware about it!

AND TO WAYNE, BELATED HAPPY BIRTHDAY!

God bless you and hope you enjoyed your day!

Carpe Diem!  ¶ 1:00 AM 0 comments

  He's officially my crush but... He scored 12/15 in physics midterms! that's like... HELLO???

hehehehe... shux... now i feel inferior and undeserving of his attention ... heheheh

but anyway... now i'm a normal kid, coz i got a crush! and guess what? I was in "heaven" kanina kasi one hour plus kami magkasama (as in kaming 2 lang ^_^)! weee! i was in all smiles! although well.. duh... dyahe.... the normal me loves to avoid and the like... but hey, don't think too deep, we were together kasi we were discussing stuff about the modules we're taking... 5 common modules! say ya? hehehe ^_^.

pero shux... i really think i admire him! ^_^ I never met somebody na may ganung appeal sa akin... He seems... different... basta...parang...ewan ^_^

basta crush ko siya and yun na yun! although somehow... i must prove my worth...hehe... i'm getting worldly now... sigh.. ang galing niya kasi, i feel like I'm not at par with him at all. The thing is, the only time I can get to talk to him is when we discuss about school stuff. If i'm one super bummer (like how i feel ryt now) and even if i go and ask him about something, i wouldn't even know what i'm asking about...sigh... it's just that so far my midterm results aren't that friendly... and they all conspire to make me think I'm dumber than what I think I am... Hehehe...

Engineering is fun though, kasi you get to know people who have the same wavelength as you are, and even people who communicate in extrasonic languages. Engineering is fun fun fun!!!!

pero love ko si Jesus =) and no matter what, kahit na ireject ako ng crush ko, bahala siya! hahahahaha. basta alam ko Jesus loves me for who I am, kahit na medjo cynic paminsan-minsan. He is always there to comfort me.

God bless!  ¶ 9:17 PM 0 comments

  chona's blog hehe... i was right in a way to doubt that chona mae's blog is not for real... i mean the stories. In fairness, the writer is good to make me have doubts. ^_^. The stories are really entertaining!

Check this site for insight:some chona fan  ¶ 7:49 PM 0 comments

  say yeah? wow!

at least i proved to myslef that blogging is not the only thing in life! hehe... long time no post and i didn't even bother... well, at least i was drowing myself with papers and more to come. A lot of pending work still.

I should be sleeping but apparently i got myself entertained with this blog: chona.blogspot.comand i'm still baffled whether she's for real or not... I mean, considering the dates of her posts, she could be telling the truth but seriously, is she serious about what she is writing? the entries to me, esp. the way they're written seemed tailored that they appear like that... And seriously again, i can't believe somebody intentionally mispells words and write grammatical errors like that without being aware that they're errors... or i don't know... in the first place she's blogging! and that mere fact in mind tells that she's literate, and that means again that she's educated and she must be intentionally writing all those stuff. BUT, the stories seem realistic somehow... so i'm still confused whether she's real... Moreover, back to the dates when she posted her entries, it's been a long time. Her last post was dated dec 2004, so... Possibly if she really is the helper, she left for a long vacation at home, she got fired, grounded, or "permanently" banned from accessing the computer (kewl... she's actually allowed to use the net!).... and if she's this cunning author, who deceptively builds up this character and creates all those names and stories; shway! she's good at it! ^_^... whatever the case maybe, i hope the chona persona is okay and doing well. I'd be utterly interested and looking forward maybe for her next post (it's already March!)... ^_^

Oh well...

WYLDFIRE rocks! hehe... my youth group, and i'm specially glad that everybody's growing =). Hope Ate Cla is enjoying England ^_^.

God bless and seize this day! ya?  ¶ 12:44 AM 0 comments

  sorry me... I'm not overly disappointed but any average person should be...

I just checked my physics midterm, and roughly, although unconfirmed yet, i know my score... And it's a total loser! hehe. The lowest midterm in my two school years here in NUS so far (way too low compared to the lowest i can recall)... i dunno, i don't feel like crying over it... But practically speaking, it is way too low and by right I should be sad about it...
I'm not! hehe... Dunno again... Maybe because academics is not the only thing in life, and maybe because God taught me not to worry about things i can never change and it is not yet the end ^_^. I don't have high standards specially in modules like this, trust me, I have lowered my standards since I came here, for physics, extra lower. Tests are just tough and my score for that midterm, i guess, is more than enough to make me totally reconsider departments other than bioengineering... Faculty-wise uhm... I don't know... I want to stick with the prospect of becoming an engineer ^_^.

I do believe miracles happen when things get impossible =). That's the time when we are left with no choice but to trust in Him all the more!

God bless!

Carpe Diem!  ¶ 6:56 PM 1 comments