Saturday, March 12, 2005
b.l.o.g.
well, i just noticed that my past few posts were nonsense...
my crush and everything. I don't know if i could consider that as an evolution or worse an improvement. It just feels so different to reread what I've written when I gain my normal senses... Or maybe i don't know which is normal anymore... hahahaha ^_^
Oh well again... Geez, i love that expression. It just so happen that i write them several times in a post without bothering about their subsequent reiterations... hahaha again... Oh well and oh well ^_^
and well, i guess i have to share more of my crush (in the belief that i may get tired of talking about him and turn my attention to something else other than thinking about what he thinks about me... hahaha)... He is remarkable, and apparently, he's different from most male Singaporeans; other than the improved accent, he got this respectable aura, someone with great authority and yet gentle. He respects other people's beliefs and shares his own. A good thinker, i guess he's one of those who can communicate in infrasonic levels (in other words, beyond human threshold) although i might be exaggerating a bit. No he's not a typical pretty boy, and no i don't like pretty boys who think and brag that they are pretty boys; i doubt that i'm compelled to like pretty boys (hahaha..pathetic... but really... i just find them arrogant sometimes..)... I don't even know if he is a pretty boy, for me he looks cool, somebody whose looks are just right. He may discuss about people talking kok or tokok or whatever, he doesn't. Or maybe in my ears everything he says make sense or he's just one in a million who makes sense even in joke times...=)(am i too biased on my compliments?). and yah, I'm even starting to think that he is just too good to be true... So I guess I do admire him eh? Hehe... guilty as charged!
I was thinking, if I approach him and use all the dignity I've saved up just to tell him that i like him (I'm a typical Pinay ok?) I strongly believe that I would stop liking him afterwards. More like weighing the opportunity cost between the time to wait until I get over him or my "dignity" that i have to spend and I really don't care much about. I mean I was never rejected by a guy before, because I never approached a guy before! Maybe it's the secrecy that reinforces admiration... maybe... but most probably for my case.
OKAY TO A MORE SENSIBLE ONE...
I am battered academically, but no, i'm not yet defeated and i will never will. I got confidence that the Lord have good plans for me. Although you may question me about my certainty that such a thing is not His plan for me... I just know, because well, i think i can't explain it in plain words... but i guess sometimes you just know, because he gives this peace in you, that you don't have to worry. Everything would turn out alright even though the frontcover isn't ok.
ahhh.. okay i just ran out of more sensible thoughts...
gts (got to sleep), maybe tomorrow i'd be more sensible... I guess i talked too much about my crush. Lucky him to occupy more than half of my entry for today... haha... as if he's aware about it!
AND TO WAYNE, BELATED HAPPY BIRTHDAY!
God bless you and hope you enjoyed your day!
Carpe Diem! ¶ 1:00 AM
my crush and everything. I don't know if i could consider that as an evolution or worse an improvement. It just feels so different to reread what I've written when I gain my normal senses... Or maybe i don't know which is normal anymore... hahahaha ^_^
Oh well again... Geez, i love that expression. It just so happen that i write them several times in a post without bothering about their subsequent reiterations... hahaha again... Oh well and oh well ^_^
and well, i guess i have to share more of my crush (in the belief that i may get tired of talking about him and turn my attention to something else other than thinking about what he thinks about me... hahaha)... He is remarkable, and apparently, he's different from most male Singaporeans; other than the improved accent, he got this respectable aura, someone with great authority and yet gentle. He respects other people's beliefs and shares his own. A good thinker, i guess he's one of those who can communicate in infrasonic levels (in other words, beyond human threshold) although i might be exaggerating a bit. No he's not a typical pretty boy, and no i don't like pretty boys who think and brag that they are pretty boys; i doubt that i'm compelled to like pretty boys (hahaha..pathetic... but really... i just find them arrogant sometimes..)... I don't even know if he is a pretty boy, for me he looks cool, somebody whose looks are just right. He may discuss about people talking kok or tokok or whatever, he doesn't. Or maybe in my ears everything he says make sense or he's just one in a million who makes sense even in joke times...=)(am i too biased on my compliments?). and yah, I'm even starting to think that he is just too good to be true... So I guess I do admire him eh? Hehe... guilty as charged!
I was thinking, if I approach him and use all the dignity I've saved up just to tell him that i like him (I'm a typical Pinay ok?) I strongly believe that I would stop liking him afterwards. More like weighing the opportunity cost between the time to wait until I get over him or my "dignity" that i have to spend and I really don't care much about. I mean I was never rejected by a guy before, because I never approached a guy before! Maybe it's the secrecy that reinforces admiration... maybe... but most probably for my case.
OKAY TO A MORE SENSIBLE ONE...
I am battered academically, but no, i'm not yet defeated and i will never will. I got confidence that the Lord have good plans for me. Although you may question me about my certainty that such a thing is not His plan for me... I just know, because well, i think i can't explain it in plain words... but i guess sometimes you just know, because he gives this peace in you, that you don't have to worry. Everything would turn out alright even though the frontcover isn't ok.
ahhh.. okay i just ran out of more sensible thoughts...
gts (got to sleep), maybe tomorrow i'd be more sensible... I guess i talked too much about my crush. Lucky him to occupy more than half of my entry for today... haha... as if he's aware about it!
AND TO WAYNE, BELATED HAPPY BIRTHDAY!
God bless you and hope you enjoyed your day!
Carpe Diem! ¶ 1:00 AM
