tEa TiMe!!!
Thursday, September 29, 2005
waaaa....
I was stupefied when I heard that this guy named Vid had some semesters with 7 modules considering that his CAP is sadly(it could have been 5.0) 4.9 and he is taking Computer Engineering.I was really awed and stupefied. This guy is pretty amazing and very disciplined or at least enjoying studying!
Anyway, back to what I'm supposed to do. Well, remember the thing that hit me yesterday? Well I realized it was a lonely little meteorite that came down from the heavens to accompany me in my beloved prison cell [my room!]. We had a little chat introducing my friends to him and how glad I am that I have friends and that they can be his friends too... =)
I told him that...
Jeunesse. Sporty, nice and a responsible friend anyone could ever have. I think she changed compared to the impressions I've have had of her before. She's more approachable now, or so I think, and I can talk to her comfortably. =). Makulit din pala to ^_^ pero mabait naman =). Sa tingin ko maganda si Jeunesse.=) Maraming magaganda sa mundo, we just have to look around more often =). Open naman siya but she defends her ideals, which is I think good! Kasi like what was said before, it is good for Christians to be insulated in the world rather than isolated. May she continually grow in the Lord as she is right now.
Chin. Sarah =). Wow! My fellow fan! I guess I just love having this fellow fan than having just an idol alone =P; hehe, it's fun to do something when you aren't alone =). Chin is such a wonderful sister in the Lord. She is friendly, mabait and totally approachable. I always feel comfortable around her so I do love hanging out with her, and I also love it every time she sends me thoughtful messages =), actually she's the only one sending me those here [and sometimes Kuya Pheng too], and this other someone who I don't want to talk about-->personal =P... So in other words, I don't have any unique thoughtful messages to send back considering the fact that my old phone with all the messages in there got broken, but I want to take this opportunity to thank her again. Thanks a lot Chin! I do treasure them =). Maybe when I'll have a line, I'll follow Chin's example =). Chin has a wonderful voice, she's talented in the arts! She has wonderful parents as well. I also like it when she fixes her bangs, she looks cool! =). Keep the smile too! =) It's rejuvenating!
Missy. Oh the best hugger! =) I simply love her sort of innocent but lovely look. She's such a warm little sister in the Lord, although hehe, I'm the one who looks little nowadays...=D Genes.. But I'm not sad over it, the Lord wants me for who I am =). Anyway, back to dear Missy. She also got a good sense of style as in a pleasant style. She's also pretty talented. Her smile is also rejuvenating like her sister's, Chin. =). She is also a gentle lad and lately I noticed she's really for the Lord, just like her sister =). Wow, it's really pretty amazing how the Lord can change people. It is overwhelming!
Maybeline. I think she's sweet and she's gentle and loving and caring. =). She has this sincere smile that simply perks me up =). Her hugs are so lovingly tight, which I do love! =). She's humble, she's nice and she's friendly. She's remarkably different from many locals I know. She's also growing in the Lord. I'm glad to have met her, she made a good impression in character of Singaporeans to me =).
Erika. Erika Erika =). Missy's bestfriend. I think she's totally nice. She's just and she's pretty. =) She is open and friendly. She's nice to hang out with definitely. She's also considerate. I also admire Missy-Erika friendship, even though they're besties, they're not limiting themselves to themselves alone when they are with the youth. They mingle. =). Erika is also pretty helpful and she's gentle like Missy. Her hugs are snuggly that I simply love it. =)
Ate Cla. My older sister in Singapore. As in she's really a sister to me. I think she's wonderful! She is totally friendly and she is really really for the Lord. She's strong in the Lord too, although I know there are maybe some things that bring her down but eventually she finds her way back to the Lord drawing strength from Him. She might have some flaws, but I do look up to her because of her faith and her love for everyone, especially for the youth. She also give this specially tight hugs that I just adore. She even taught me how to pray with other people, she at least started it and now, even though I'm still learning, I can already pray with other people. She's such a warm fellow that she accepts us always with such a warm embrace. She never fails to smile even though she's crying. She is such a sister to all of us!
Hmmm.... This is it for today... Hope I didn't miss out anyone... So far my little meteorite friend enjoyed. He was interested so far and he too was amazed how Jesus is changing the people around me. He couldn't wait to hear for more. But I told him that he better rest first, we have enough for today and after that long journey he had, he needs to relax. Tomorrow I shall surely include the guys in my youth group. =) and others probably whom I unintentionally missed... =) ¶ 10:28 AM 0 comments
Anyway, back to what I'm supposed to do. Well, remember the thing that hit me yesterday? Well I realized it was a lonely little meteorite that came down from the heavens to accompany me in my beloved prison cell [my room!]. We had a little chat introducing my friends to him and how glad I am that I have friends and that they can be his friends too... =)
I told him that...
Jeunesse. Sporty, nice and a responsible friend anyone could ever have. I think she changed compared to the impressions I've have had of her before. She's more approachable now, or so I think, and I can talk to her comfortably. =). Makulit din pala to ^_^ pero mabait naman =). Sa tingin ko maganda si Jeunesse.=) Maraming magaganda sa mundo, we just have to look around more often =). Open naman siya but she defends her ideals, which is I think good! Kasi like what was said before, it is good for Christians to be insulated in the world rather than isolated. May she continually grow in the Lord as she is right now.
Chin. Sarah =). Wow! My fellow fan! I guess I just love having this fellow fan than having just an idol alone =P; hehe, it's fun to do something when you aren't alone =). Chin is such a wonderful sister in the Lord. She is friendly, mabait and totally approachable. I always feel comfortable around her so I do love hanging out with her, and I also love it every time she sends me thoughtful messages =), actually she's the only one sending me those here [and sometimes Kuya Pheng too], and this other someone who I don't want to talk about-->personal =P... So in other words, I don't have any unique thoughtful messages to send back considering the fact that my old phone with all the messages in there got broken, but I want to take this opportunity to thank her again. Thanks a lot Chin! I do treasure them =). Maybe when I'll have a line, I'll follow Chin's example =). Chin has a wonderful voice, she's talented in the arts! She has wonderful parents as well. I also like it when she fixes her bangs, she looks cool! =). Keep the smile too! =) It's rejuvenating!
Missy. Oh the best hugger! =) I simply love her sort of innocent but lovely look. She's such a warm little sister in the Lord, although hehe, I'm the one who looks little nowadays...=D Genes.. But I'm not sad over it, the Lord wants me for who I am =). Anyway, back to dear Missy. She also got a good sense of style as in a pleasant style. She's also pretty talented. Her smile is also rejuvenating like her sister's, Chin. =). She is also a gentle lad and lately I noticed she's really for the Lord, just like her sister =). Wow, it's really pretty amazing how the Lord can change people. It is overwhelming!
Maybeline. I think she's sweet and she's gentle and loving and caring. =). She has this sincere smile that simply perks me up =). Her hugs are so lovingly tight, which I do love! =). She's humble, she's nice and she's friendly. She's remarkably different from many locals I know. She's also growing in the Lord. I'm glad to have met her, she made a good impression in character of Singaporeans to me =).
Erika. Erika Erika =). Missy's bestfriend. I think she's totally nice. She's just and she's pretty. =) She is open and friendly. She's nice to hang out with definitely. She's also considerate. I also admire Missy-Erika friendship, even though they're besties, they're not limiting themselves to themselves alone when they are with the youth. They mingle. =). Erika is also pretty helpful and she's gentle like Missy. Her hugs are snuggly that I simply love it. =)
Ate Cla. My older sister in Singapore. As in she's really a sister to me. I think she's wonderful! She is totally friendly and she is really really for the Lord. She's strong in the Lord too, although I know there are maybe some things that bring her down but eventually she finds her way back to the Lord drawing strength from Him. She might have some flaws, but I do look up to her because of her faith and her love for everyone, especially for the youth. She also give this specially tight hugs that I just adore. She even taught me how to pray with other people, she at least started it and now, even though I'm still learning, I can already pray with other people. She's such a warm fellow that she accepts us always with such a warm embrace. She never fails to smile even though she's crying. She is such a sister to all of us!
Hmmm.... This is it for today... Hope I didn't miss out anyone... So far my little meteorite friend enjoyed. He was interested so far and he too was amazed how Jesus is changing the people around me. He couldn't wait to hear for more. But I told him that he better rest first, we have enough for today and after that long journey he had, he needs to relax. Tomorrow I shall surely include the guys in my youth group. =) and others probably whom I unintentionally missed... =) ¶ 10:28 AM 0 comments
Wednesday, September 28, 2005
look at the sky!
After printing my gladly crammed essay, i stared out of my window to the sky wanting to thank God. Suddenly, I spotted a small, red, fiery little round thing... Apparently it grew bigger and before I realized it, it was heading for me. Of course I am one of those prisoners trapped in the four corners of my room, aside from the bugs that happen to just drop by and the birds who leave their poos near my window pane, so I was hit...
When I woke up, I found myself here. Thankfully intact. So shall I continue?
Nestor, I have not really known him since it was only during the bridging year that I got to hang out with him. But from then, I could say that he is a fun person, he can sing and he is definitely smart, he loves to talk and he talks well =P, he is neat and loves nature =)--> I do salute people who loves the nature. He is friendly, and he is comfortable to be with! =)
Joline. I do not really know her as in know her totally. I find that she is neat, mahinhin, matulungin, mabait, driven, sweet, smart and conservatively pretty. She has this peaceful beauty, haha, but I cannot really explain... I also like the way she keeps her hair.
Shamoy. Cecilia. Certainly nice to hang out with. Nakakasundo ko rin sa red! ehhe... oh well at least i can remember that I liked red since grade 5 or 6 until even now... But red was a big thing to me from grade 5/6 until bridging. :D. Anyway, back to Shamoy. She has this pleasant and simple beauty that you feel like you are always welcome to approach her (at least for me). She loves food and to enjoy it the most she eats them real slow!=P She's smart, I believe, and also directed--> in a sense that she knows what she wants to do.I.e. She wants to do well in school and so she studies. She's open, and I think currently she is growing in the Lord. I think she was different the first time I met her. She, as I perceive it, grew with respect to faith. Stay strong in Him!
Robinson, haha... ano ba? ewan ewan ewan =P hehe... mabait ang taong ito although minsan di ko na maintindihan ang mga ginagawa nito. Matalino/sharp! Always curious or at least most of the time, asks many questions. It is a good way to learn. Open-minded. Active! Nearly always present siya sa church activities but maybe not really lately. The guy with the pa-cool smiley
(--,) --> kamukha niya noh? Sabi ni mama, may good looks naman siya!=P (oh please I'm bad at assessing who looks good for a guy so I do rely on others kung sino ang guy na may good looks). Anyway, I think he is some firm guy who actually admits he is immature. Rarely do I find someone who admits that they are, kudos Robs! I guess you're really getting there! Keep on growing in the Lord!
Michael Styx... Hahaha... quite a different person since I last heard of him from high school. Indeed, he is less of a naughty person, and his tongue is more or less tamed. Anyway, I do admit I heard bad stuff about him, but I guess I never really did know him back then. Cute naman si Michael eh, and he is such an honest person in a sense that when you ask him to be critical, he says what's on his mind. I also see that he's taming his temper, which is so cool of him ;). He is a just person for me; he is one of those admirable people who looks up to the domestic helpers. He is definitely right. There is nothing wrong with being a maid, people just tend to look down to others who serve them. But really, to be great in the kingdom of God is to be the servant of all, and maids are not far from becoming one. There's honor in being a servant. Funny din ang way of thinking ni Michael, as in interesting. (so I guess 3 na sila, c Arthur, c Dustin, c Michael). Di siya KJ although I did felt bad for him about the cancelled night out. Michael, just be strong and don't give up so easily! You'll surely survive your trials!
Jayson, di ko maxadong kilala ang taong to, pero sa tingin ko okay siyang kasama. Hindi siya KJ, mabait naman at matalino =). Okay din pala kausap!=)
hmm... I'm getting delayed again... cge next time na naman... and surely I will include the family I have in church... haha... ang haba pala ano kapag nagsusulat ka about your friends? ¶ 10:35 AM 0 comments
When I woke up, I found myself here. Thankfully intact. So shall I continue?
Nestor, I have not really known him since it was only during the bridging year that I got to hang out with him. But from then, I could say that he is a fun person, he can sing and he is definitely smart, he loves to talk and he talks well =P, he is neat and loves nature =)--> I do salute people who loves the nature. He is friendly, and he is comfortable to be with! =)
Joline. I do not really know her as in know her totally. I find that she is neat, mahinhin, matulungin, mabait, driven, sweet, smart and conservatively pretty. She has this peaceful beauty, haha, but I cannot really explain... I also like the way she keeps her hair.
Shamoy. Cecilia. Certainly nice to hang out with. Nakakasundo ko rin sa red! ehhe... oh well at least i can remember that I liked red since grade 5 or 6 until even now... But red was a big thing to me from grade 5/6 until bridging. :D. Anyway, back to Shamoy. She has this pleasant and simple beauty that you feel like you are always welcome to approach her (at least for me). She loves food and to enjoy it the most she eats them real slow!=P She's smart, I believe, and also directed--> in a sense that she knows what she wants to do.I.e. She wants to do well in school and so she studies. She's open, and I think currently she is growing in the Lord. I think she was different the first time I met her. She, as I perceive it, grew with respect to faith. Stay strong in Him!
Robinson, haha... ano ba? ewan ewan ewan =P hehe... mabait ang taong ito although minsan di ko na maintindihan ang mga ginagawa nito. Matalino/sharp! Always curious or at least most of the time, asks many questions. It is a good way to learn. Open-minded. Active! Nearly always present siya sa church activities but maybe not really lately. The guy with the pa-cool smiley
(--,) --> kamukha niya noh? Sabi ni mama, may good looks naman siya!=P (oh please I'm bad at assessing who looks good for a guy so I do rely on others kung sino ang guy na may good looks). Anyway, I think he is some firm guy who actually admits he is immature. Rarely do I find someone who admits that they are, kudos Robs! I guess you're really getting there! Keep on growing in the Lord!
Michael Styx... Hahaha... quite a different person since I last heard of him from high school. Indeed, he is less of a naughty person, and his tongue is more or less tamed. Anyway, I do admit I heard bad stuff about him, but I guess I never really did know him back then. Cute naman si Michael eh, and he is such an honest person in a sense that when you ask him to be critical, he says what's on his mind. I also see that he's taming his temper, which is so cool of him ;). He is a just person for me; he is one of those admirable people who looks up to the domestic helpers. He is definitely right. There is nothing wrong with being a maid, people just tend to look down to others who serve them. But really, to be great in the kingdom of God is to be the servant of all, and maids are not far from becoming one. There's honor in being a servant. Funny din ang way of thinking ni Michael, as in interesting. (so I guess 3 na sila, c Arthur, c Dustin, c Michael). Di siya KJ although I did felt bad for him about the cancelled night out. Michael, just be strong and don't give up so easily! You'll surely survive your trials!
Jayson, di ko maxadong kilala ang taong to, pero sa tingin ko okay siyang kasama. Hindi siya KJ, mabait naman at matalino =). Okay din pala kausap!=)
hmm... I'm getting delayed again... cge next time na naman... and surely I will include the family I have in church... haha... ang haba pala ano kapag nagsusulat ka about your friends? ¶ 10:35 AM 0 comments
Tuesday, September 27, 2005
Adjectives... =)
Hello there beautiful and handsome people!
did you have a great day?
Me? I just went to my literally cold lectures and sat there for long 6 hours. But sheesh, what's so utterly exciting about that? absolutely nothing. =)
Anyway, I shall dedicate this post to all the people out there. Something just struck me so do not wonder, I'm suddenly compelled to appreciate the people i have around me. In no particular order... btw, pardon my English.
I shall start with Korinna. She's pretty, she's smart, she's nice, she's understanding, and slim too! Slim, as what probably the rest of the world considers, is beautiful =). I do like her hair now when she had her haircut. =) Lovely, nicely kept hair. =) And also, she knows how to dress; she simply knows what fits her and what makes her look pleasant most of the time.
Joseph! Of course, the guy with the unfailing smile! Kahit alam mong he is trying hard to keep that wide jovial smile of his minsan he never really fails to give you a nice picturesque smile, a good start of the day perhaps! =P. He's tall, dark (!!! cge relative sa mga caucasians =P) and (cge na nga lang, sabi rin naman ng mga Pisay teachers eh) handsome! wootwoot! He's smart too! Kahit sinasabi niyang di siya magaling or whatever, do not believe him! hahaha... basta magaling ang taong yan! Singer pa! Nicely controlled voice =), dahil jan nakarating pa ng Europe...oh ano dyan? heheheheh.
Karen... Grabe, I really(100x) feel comfortable with her! Smart, mabait, friendly, considerate, knows how to have fun, loves to be busy, cool kasi nagkakasundo kami sa maraming bagay (or at least I silently agree with her). And of course somebody with an exotic beauty! Siguro kung pupunta siya sa Europe baka may caucasian na mag-offer sa kanya ng malaking pera to make her his everything! woohoo! hehehehe. Lakas siguro ng charm nito! hehe =)
Wayne, ay yan! I cannot exactly remember what happened during the bridging years, pero haha, quite a lot happened. ^_^ And I guess I understand him more now. He was a test to me and I do hope I passed. He is such a unique friend and brother in the Lord! Before I may get annoyed of his actions, now I just simply smile and tell myself "yep! that's my friend Wayne! and I can never be less proud!"... Tama nagbibinata na pala ito! ahhahahahaha... Okay, so I admt di ko pa ma-imagine sino si Wayne with a girlfriend. =P
Arthur, yey! Sobrang bait, sobrang matulunging tao na nakilala dito!... Natutuwa ako sa kanya, pati na in the way he thinks! He is nice to be with. Tama, I kinda got intrigued on what Korinna said about Arthur... hehehe.^_^ So what if, in some other dimension naging Korinna and Arthur? Hmmmm... pwede! May good looks naman silang dalawa eh, parehong mabait, parehong matalino, ang isa medjo makulit and isa sobrang bait, parehong may tendency na maging tahimik at maingay din. ;).
Dustin! Hehe... If may isang tao na favorite kong kausapin, si Dustin na yun! Even though our ideas clash sometimes, he still stays the same and is willing to discuss more about the topic.I truly appreciate him for that, moreover, parati siyang nagrereply! masaya ako kasi di ako "nachachapa" sa kanya. I also kinda get fond of his way of thinking, i think it's interesting. Sad nga ako ngayon eh, kasi since I started not to get online so often, di ko na siya nakakachat...sad sad... promise! He is my fellow narutard sa NUS. Nakalaro ko na rin sa badminton... haha, I cannot forget the bridging days when me, brice, dustin and xaypanya, minsan with diana, are playing badminton together... kakasad, because we never get the chance to get together and hang out or go out again; if i should have known this, I should have tried to enjoy the bridging days more. Anyway, Dustin may somehow love to go against the general view, but he is totally friendly, walang malice, he is just a fair person, not unreasonably picky with friends, and he talks to everyone!
Brice... Uy, pretty boy! hahaha... natuwa lang ako nung inadmit niya na mas gwapo si Tongni kaysa kanya! =).. Neways, sabi niya mas gusto niya munang magconcentrate sa studies, maya na magkagf; well, he is actually justifying his stand, ang taas kaya ng CAP ng taong to! Natutuwa din ako maging audience sa disagreements nila Dustin kung ano ba talaga ang maganda... In other words, iba ang tastes nila! Minsan naman nagkakasundo kami ni brice kung sino ang maganda minsan hindi rin...hahahaha, kala tuloy ng taong to tomboy ako =P. Girls can appreciate another girl's beauty!... Basta si brice, advise ko mga chicks, mas inclined siya dun sa mga taong magaling magdala ng damit, kikayish and syempre at least maganda! hehehehe. Theoretically dapat wanted to ng mga chicks jan, brice is handsome, mabait, matalino, cool kasama, okay naman kausap, hindi immature, has a nicely built body -->sana wag lang niya pasobrahan, di kasi magandang tingnan. If you ask me, siguro naging crush ko siya for a fleeting time, pero now, I see him as a good friend and nothing more. Pero I do endorse him to all the pretty chicks out there! =P. Hehehe... Anyway kung tatanungin niyo ako kung sino sa mga pinoy ang bagay kay brice? si shamoy! ahhaahha... sa tingin ko kasi magkakasundo sila sa maraming bagay at nung una kong nakabonding si Shamoy, she reminded me of Brice.hehehehe...uyyyyyyy!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Diana! Uy, hahaha, indescribable kasama! pero sobrang fun kapag ang trio: brice, dustin, diana magkasama together! kakamiss! sobra! Si diana, sobrang bait and pasensyosa, matalino din and sa tingin ko sobrang ganda ng babaeng to =). She is a good friend! friendly din siya! minsan blur or hindi niya lang ako nakikita sa sobrang shortie ko? ehehehe... anyway, pandiana! =) ahhaa... Nice nice person.
Reginald... SOOOOOOOBBBBBBRRRRRRAAAAANNNNGGGG BAIT! SOBRA SOBRA SOBRA! He is such a gentleman, isali mo na sin na reginald is synonymous to gentle itself... Nung una ko siyang makausap sobrang inakala ko na kinakausap ko ang isang angel!!! ... Smiley person pa, sobrang nice makasama ang taong to. AS IN! Promise! SALUDO PA AKO SA TAONG ITO! ANG TALINO KAYA! =)... pero really I do like his character...
Ferron! Uy Ferron! hehe... sobrang natutuwa ako kay Ferron, nice kausap! GEEEEEEEEEK pa! Friendly, really nice to hang out with, hindi judgemental (or so I think)! May hearty laughter pa! Nice nice person talaga =). Hindi rin picky sa mga kaibigan (or so I think again =P), mahilig manlibre! (hahahaha LIBRE!) =) Mabait. FUN!
lahat ata ng tao dito mabait ah! ehehehe... =) maybe they are one of the living evidences that man is inherently good or apparently good lang talaga ang pagbring up sa kanila =)....
sigh... kapoy (tired) na ako... continue ko na lang sa next post to. My brain is already tired remembering the traits of those wonderful people! Basta, here's what! I'm thankful because God blessed me with such friends! ¶ 8:43 PM 0 comments
did you have a great day?
Me? I just went to my literally cold lectures and sat there for long 6 hours. But sheesh, what's so utterly exciting about that? absolutely nothing. =)
Anyway, I shall dedicate this post to all the people out there. Something just struck me so do not wonder, I'm suddenly compelled to appreciate the people i have around me. In no particular order... btw, pardon my English.
I shall start with Korinna. She's pretty, she's smart, she's nice, she's understanding, and slim too! Slim, as what probably the rest of the world considers, is beautiful =). I do like her hair now when she had her haircut. =) Lovely, nicely kept hair. =) And also, she knows how to dress; she simply knows what fits her and what makes her look pleasant most of the time.
Joseph! Of course, the guy with the unfailing smile! Kahit alam mong he is trying hard to keep that wide jovial smile of his minsan he never really fails to give you a nice picturesque smile, a good start of the day perhaps! =P. He's tall, dark (!!! cge relative sa mga caucasians =P) and (cge na nga lang, sabi rin naman ng mga Pisay teachers eh) handsome! wootwoot! He's smart too! Kahit sinasabi niyang di siya magaling or whatever, do not believe him! hahaha... basta magaling ang taong yan! Singer pa! Nicely controlled voice =), dahil jan nakarating pa ng Europe...oh ano dyan? heheheheh.
Karen... Grabe, I really(100x) feel comfortable with her! Smart, mabait, friendly, considerate, knows how to have fun, loves to be busy, cool kasi nagkakasundo kami sa maraming bagay (or at least I silently agree with her). And of course somebody with an exotic beauty! Siguro kung pupunta siya sa Europe baka may caucasian na mag-offer sa kanya ng malaking pera to make her his everything! woohoo! hehehehe. Lakas siguro ng charm nito! hehe =)
Wayne, ay yan! I cannot exactly remember what happened during the bridging years, pero haha, quite a lot happened. ^_^ And I guess I understand him more now. He was a test to me and I do hope I passed. He is such a unique friend and brother in the Lord! Before I may get annoyed of his actions, now I just simply smile and tell myself "yep! that's my friend Wayne! and I can never be less proud!"... Tama nagbibinata na pala ito! ahhahahahaha... Okay, so I admt di ko pa ma-imagine sino si Wayne with a girlfriend. =P
Arthur, yey! Sobrang bait, sobrang matulunging tao na nakilala dito!... Natutuwa ako sa kanya, pati na in the way he thinks! He is nice to be with. Tama, I kinda got intrigued on what Korinna said about Arthur... hehehe.^_^ So what if, in some other dimension naging Korinna and Arthur? Hmmmm... pwede! May good looks naman silang dalawa eh, parehong mabait, parehong matalino, ang isa medjo makulit and isa sobrang bait, parehong may tendency na maging tahimik at maingay din. ;).
Dustin! Hehe... If may isang tao na favorite kong kausapin, si Dustin na yun! Even though our ideas clash sometimes, he still stays the same and is willing to discuss more about the topic.I truly appreciate him for that, moreover, parati siyang nagrereply! masaya ako kasi di ako "nachachapa" sa kanya. I also kinda get fond of his way of thinking, i think it's interesting. Sad nga ako ngayon eh, kasi since I started not to get online so often, di ko na siya nakakachat...sad sad... promise! He is my fellow narutard sa NUS. Nakalaro ko na rin sa badminton... haha, I cannot forget the bridging days when me, brice, dustin and xaypanya, minsan with diana, are playing badminton together... kakasad, because we never get the chance to get together and hang out or go out again; if i should have known this, I should have tried to enjoy the bridging days more. Anyway, Dustin may somehow love to go against the general view, but he is totally friendly, walang malice, he is just a fair person, not unreasonably picky with friends, and he talks to everyone!
Brice... Uy, pretty boy! hahaha... natuwa lang ako nung inadmit niya na mas gwapo si Tongni kaysa kanya! =).. Neways, sabi niya mas gusto niya munang magconcentrate sa studies, maya na magkagf; well, he is actually justifying his stand, ang taas kaya ng CAP ng taong to! Natutuwa din ako maging audience sa disagreements nila Dustin kung ano ba talaga ang maganda... In other words, iba ang tastes nila! Minsan naman nagkakasundo kami ni brice kung sino ang maganda minsan hindi rin...hahahaha, kala tuloy ng taong to tomboy ako =P. Girls can appreciate another girl's beauty!... Basta si brice, advise ko mga chicks, mas inclined siya dun sa mga taong magaling magdala ng damit, kikayish and syempre at least maganda! hehehehe. Theoretically dapat wanted to ng mga chicks jan, brice is handsome, mabait, matalino, cool kasama, okay naman kausap, hindi immature, has a nicely built body -->sana wag lang niya pasobrahan, di kasi magandang tingnan. If you ask me, siguro naging crush ko siya for a fleeting time, pero now, I see him as a good friend and nothing more. Pero I do endorse him to all the pretty chicks out there! =P. Hehehe... Anyway kung tatanungin niyo ako kung sino sa mga pinoy ang bagay kay brice? si shamoy! ahhaahha... sa tingin ko kasi magkakasundo sila sa maraming bagay at nung una kong nakabonding si Shamoy, she reminded me of Brice.hehehehe...uyyyyyyy!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Diana! Uy, hahaha, indescribable kasama! pero sobrang fun kapag ang trio: brice, dustin, diana magkasama together! kakamiss! sobra! Si diana, sobrang bait and pasensyosa, matalino din and sa tingin ko sobrang ganda ng babaeng to =). She is a good friend! friendly din siya! minsan blur or hindi niya lang ako nakikita sa sobrang shortie ko? ehehehe... anyway, pandiana! =) ahhaa... Nice nice person.
Reginald... SOOOOOOOBBBBBBRRRRRRAAAAANNNNGGGG BAIT! SOBRA SOBRA SOBRA! He is such a gentleman, isali mo na sin na reginald is synonymous to gentle itself... Nung una ko siyang makausap sobrang inakala ko na kinakausap ko ang isang angel!!! ... Smiley person pa, sobrang nice makasama ang taong to. AS IN! Promise! SALUDO PA AKO SA TAONG ITO! ANG TALINO KAYA! =)... pero really I do like his character...
Ferron! Uy Ferron! hehe... sobrang natutuwa ako kay Ferron, nice kausap! GEEEEEEEEEK pa! Friendly, really nice to hang out with, hindi judgemental (or so I think)! May hearty laughter pa! Nice nice person talaga =). Hindi rin picky sa mga kaibigan (or so I think again =P), mahilig manlibre! (hahahaha LIBRE!) =) Mabait. FUN!
lahat ata ng tao dito mabait ah! ehehehe... =) maybe they are one of the living evidences that man is inherently good or apparently good lang talaga ang pagbring up sa kanila =)....
sigh... kapoy (tired) na ako... continue ko na lang sa next post to. My brain is already tired remembering the traits of those wonderful people! Basta, here's what! I'm thankful because God blessed me with such friends! ¶ 8:43 PM 0 comments
Monday, September 26, 2005
disturbing week
"I was out of my cove for a while and when I returned, I found myself as alienated as possible..."
I have learned quite a lot from our SFS lessons and more especially about Jesus' second coming lesson last Saturday. It certainly taught me more about the meanings of the bible. Sadly, when I was trying to start on my philosophy essay, I read some related articles, browsed sites and eventually found myself reading things written by atheist philosophers, and those who left Christianity. I ended up sad for them and at least a pity for myself because I cannot defend God as good as they are trying to convince themselves and others that He doesn't exist or He is plain wrong. They have used persuasive arguments but not necessarily correct. Like for one, this Julian Baginni writes about what Jesus said in John, "The greatest form of love is to lay down one's life for his friends." And cites some contradicting example that some people, being chauvinistic, would die for their would-be suicide bomber friends because they wanted to protect them and as well as their ideals. Baginni then continues that Jesus would surely reproach them. I think one "flaw" he got was that he failed to read the bible entirely, like for example what's written before the "therefores". He failed to see the whole story, like for example failing to consider who Jesus was talking to, I guess He wasn't talking to people inclined to kill others indiscriminately for their beliefs but rather He was talking to His disciples. These were the people who are already following Jesus, people taught to love others as they love themselves and I guess if there were others totally radical compared to their beliefs they would never dare to assassinate them with or without due mercy.
Then there is this Dave person who left Christianity, I guess probably for failing to understand God and the Word of God although mind you, he has read the bible. (reading doesn't necessarily follow that he has uncovered the mysteries of the bible or he has understood what the bible is really trying to convey).He read the bible and found for himself contradictions and false prophecies. He believes that all prophecies in the old testaments are meant to come true by the new testament, which again reminds me that some prophecies in the old testament are just unfolding now... Is this another temporal coincidence like what Baginni loves to use in his arguments? Phrophecies in the end of age are written in the old testament, like Daniel and Isaiah and other books, and certainly the new testament, the time when Jesus came, was certainly not the end of age so I think it was a bad action to conclude that phrophecies in the old testaments should all come true by the new testaments. If it is not so, then the world has probably ended even before Jesus was crucified or even born.
Sigh... I do feel smaller and smaller everyday as now that I'm given the chance to read some philosophers' point of view in life and what they say about Christianity... I'd say Christianity is becoming a fad that I guess these people have criticized what consisted quite the many, who Pastor Butch labeled as distorted Christian models. They even cited Christians who doesn't believe the bible... But then again they are the so-called false Christians, although they label themselves Christians for they believe that they are and thus, I guess, tainting what-it-takes-to-be-a-Christian image to the rest of the world. Consistently with what Pastor Butch tried to emphasize last Sunday, real Christians are but a few... If you ask me if I'm one, I'd say I've been trying to become one but I guess I'm just not totally there yet, the Holy Spirit is helping me. I'm flawed but I hope I will not become one of those distorted models that discourages more philosophers about Christianity, and not appear as a false Christian since as for myself, I believe I am a Christian... Why I say to the philosophers because they tend to write articles that might even discourage those who have not know God for themselves... "But then again, the sheeps certainly know the familiar voice of the sheperd when they are being called."
I respect the beliefs of other people, and I do try to understand them but I guess I would have to pass certain lines I've set for myself just to obey God. This is hard for me, and in fact, I am lamenting now. This painfully goes against the principles I've acquired when I lived not knowing God as much as I know Him now... This is hard... REALLY HARD! sad... ouch... It's causing me pain now even with just the thought of it--> going sort of against, not the physical way nor the lambasting way I hope, those who aren't aware of Christ... I guess and hope, this is for my relief, that this should be more on me making my stand for Christ in front of my non-Christian friends...
More sadness... I can't make my essay (it is due in 2 days time and I have not started yet or came up with a draft!) and I did not S/U the module! I'm more and more confused as I read more about the stand of these philosophers about what success is... I'm also wondering what answers they'd give if I'd ask them this question: "do you think, so far, you have lived a successful life?" Gee... I wish I could interview them face to face somehow... I also wish that Prof Holbo would grade my blog posts instead of that seemingly gruesome paper (since I'm hopelessly lost in its philosophy).
Lord I do need your help... I need prayers too...
Me smaller still... I'm but a fleeting mist that disappers as the sun progresses in the sky... ¶ 6:05 AM 0 comments
I have learned quite a lot from our SFS lessons and more especially about Jesus' second coming lesson last Saturday. It certainly taught me more about the meanings of the bible. Sadly, when I was trying to start on my philosophy essay, I read some related articles, browsed sites and eventually found myself reading things written by atheist philosophers, and those who left Christianity. I ended up sad for them and at least a pity for myself because I cannot defend God as good as they are trying to convince themselves and others that He doesn't exist or He is plain wrong. They have used persuasive arguments but not necessarily correct. Like for one, this Julian Baginni writes about what Jesus said in John, "The greatest form of love is to lay down one's life for his friends." And cites some contradicting example that some people, being chauvinistic, would die for their would-be suicide bomber friends because they wanted to protect them and as well as their ideals. Baginni then continues that Jesus would surely reproach them. I think one "flaw" he got was that he failed to read the bible entirely, like for example what's written before the "therefores". He failed to see the whole story, like for example failing to consider who Jesus was talking to, I guess He wasn't talking to people inclined to kill others indiscriminately for their beliefs but rather He was talking to His disciples. These were the people who are already following Jesus, people taught to love others as they love themselves and I guess if there were others totally radical compared to their beliefs they would never dare to assassinate them with or without due mercy.
Then there is this Dave person who left Christianity, I guess probably for failing to understand God and the Word of God although mind you, he has read the bible. (reading doesn't necessarily follow that he has uncovered the mysteries of the bible or he has understood what the bible is really trying to convey).He read the bible and found for himself contradictions and false prophecies. He believes that all prophecies in the old testaments are meant to come true by the new testament, which again reminds me that some prophecies in the old testament are just unfolding now... Is this another temporal coincidence like what Baginni loves to use in his arguments? Phrophecies in the end of age are written in the old testament, like Daniel and Isaiah and other books, and certainly the new testament, the time when Jesus came, was certainly not the end of age so I think it was a bad action to conclude that phrophecies in the old testaments should all come true by the new testaments. If it is not so, then the world has probably ended even before Jesus was crucified or even born.
Sigh... I do feel smaller and smaller everyday as now that I'm given the chance to read some philosophers' point of view in life and what they say about Christianity... I'd say Christianity is becoming a fad that I guess these people have criticized what consisted quite the many, who Pastor Butch labeled as distorted Christian models. They even cited Christians who doesn't believe the bible... But then again they are the so-called false Christians, although they label themselves Christians for they believe that they are and thus, I guess, tainting what-it-takes-to-be-a-Christian image to the rest of the world. Consistently with what Pastor Butch tried to emphasize last Sunday, real Christians are but a few... If you ask me if I'm one, I'd say I've been trying to become one but I guess I'm just not totally there yet, the Holy Spirit is helping me. I'm flawed but I hope I will not become one of those distorted models that discourages more philosophers about Christianity, and not appear as a false Christian since as for myself, I believe I am a Christian... Why I say to the philosophers because they tend to write articles that might even discourage those who have not know God for themselves... "But then again, the sheeps certainly know the familiar voice of the sheperd when they are being called."
I respect the beliefs of other people, and I do try to understand them but I guess I would have to pass certain lines I've set for myself just to obey God. This is hard for me, and in fact, I am lamenting now. This painfully goes against the principles I've acquired when I lived not knowing God as much as I know Him now... This is hard... REALLY HARD! sad... ouch... It's causing me pain now even with just the thought of it--> going sort of against, not the physical way nor the lambasting way I hope, those who aren't aware of Christ... I guess and hope, this is for my relief, that this should be more on me making my stand for Christ in front of my non-Christian friends...
More sadness... I can't make my essay (it is due in 2 days time and I have not started yet or came up with a draft!) and I did not S/U the module! I'm more and more confused as I read more about the stand of these philosophers about what success is... I'm also wondering what answers they'd give if I'd ask them this question: "do you think, so far, you have lived a successful life?" Gee... I wish I could interview them face to face somehow... I also wish that Prof Holbo would grade my blog posts instead of that seemingly gruesome paper (since I'm hopelessly lost in its philosophy).
Lord I do need your help... I need prayers too...
Me smaller still... I'm but a fleeting mist that disappers as the sun progresses in the sky... ¶ 6:05 AM 0 comments
Sunday, September 25, 2005
osu!
right...
I thought so too that the world, as a physical entity was a pretty creation and I do enjoy it. But the world, on the other hand, is rotten. Yes, surprisingly everyone have their rotten aspects. People may laugh and scoff at others but we, I assume, know that our intentions and thoughts are an open book to the Lord. Yes, we may do those things; we may, unknowingly, prosecute others in slander or in insults or in putting them down even just in our thoughts, but the Lord knows and maybe Satan rejoices...
Why do people love to be better than others?... Many women loved to be envied by other women. They strut their so-called desirable bodies in sidewalks, showing off what they got. Feeling that they are better creatures since the world regards them as beautiful with all those appendages and modifications. But the bodies die anyway. The Lord is coming... and I guess, though I kind of not accept the idea of it before, maybe during my life time. It is not surprising, the world, like I said at the start is rotten. The Earth is decaying in a pretty speedy phase. What's the point of trying to be better then? If we compare, let us compare ourselves to a perfect standard, Jesus. Critique ourselves. Not others, and don't ever think of thinking that others are worse off than you or you are better than them. When we will all plead our case in the court of the Lord, we are truly guilty but in God's grace we are freed from the indictment and possibly from the punishment as well...
I know some people might think of my post as something for show off... But if you know me, you'd learn that I hate showing off and I despise being thought as one so back off that Satan trying to make you think that I'm one. I just post the things that the Holy Spirit taught me and hoping that others may get something/know/reaffirm what they know/reinforce/remind something too, and in their own with the Holy Spirit in them get something new, can of course start a discussion with me. I do want to be in a group investigating God using the method of what people call sharing... Neither am I strutting my body or whatever here nor showing off my knowledge/wisdom to the readers, so I'll say this once: "cut the crap out!" . If you really think I am, then you might be one too since I have heard that sometimes we tend to criticize people but there is a possibility that such criticism apply on us. Confused? I.e. when you think this person is boastful, then there is a possibility that you are unaware that you are boastful too; a clash in personality sometimes leads people to criticize and put down the others even though they are just thoughts imprisoned within. But like I said, our thoughts are an open book to the Lord. Mark the words possibility and sometimes; this is not absolute, so stop your thoughts from mocking this post. I do not have my own wisdom and the Lord just gave me the revelations that I so do desire to share so that people may know/be aware/reminded; . And I know I can have mistakes especially in my personal judgments.
But then what is the point of revealing my case to the people? Defending myself in the court of this rotten world through this post? There is none that makes sense... I know I'd be guilty anyway... This pleading of mine doesn't make sense...
Anyway, before I shall end this post. I'd like to share a thing I heard from a friend, who actually influenced me in many ways... She said " what is the point of climbing if we are climbing on the wrong wall?" This refers to the people going after success or trying to climb up in the social status of this world and even to people who wants to know more about God. This applies to all actually. The wall talks about the reasons/intentions why we climb, i.e. selfish gains, ambitions, the love for God, meeting expectations, etc. Obviously, God is the right wall; and through Him we can go anywhere as long as it pleases Him.... ¶ 9:33 AM 0 comments
I thought so too that the world, as a physical entity was a pretty creation and I do enjoy it. But the world, on the other hand, is rotten. Yes, surprisingly everyone have their rotten aspects. People may laugh and scoff at others but we, I assume, know that our intentions and thoughts are an open book to the Lord. Yes, we may do those things; we may, unknowingly, prosecute others in slander or in insults or in putting them down even just in our thoughts, but the Lord knows and maybe Satan rejoices...
Why do people love to be better than others?... Many women loved to be envied by other women. They strut their so-called desirable bodies in sidewalks, showing off what they got. Feeling that they are better creatures since the world regards them as beautiful with all those appendages and modifications. But the bodies die anyway. The Lord is coming... and I guess, though I kind of not accept the idea of it before, maybe during my life time. It is not surprising, the world, like I said at the start is rotten. The Earth is decaying in a pretty speedy phase. What's the point of trying to be better then? If we compare, let us compare ourselves to a perfect standard, Jesus. Critique ourselves. Not others, and don't ever think of thinking that others are worse off than you or you are better than them. When we will all plead our case in the court of the Lord, we are truly guilty but in God's grace we are freed from the indictment and possibly from the punishment as well...
I know some people might think of my post as something for show off... But if you know me, you'd learn that I hate showing off and I despise being thought as one so back off that Satan trying to make you think that I'm one. I just post the things that the Holy Spirit taught me and hoping that others may get something/know/reaffirm what they know/reinforce/remind something too, and in their own with the Holy Spirit in them get something new, can of course start a discussion with me. I do want to be in a group investigating God using the method of what people call sharing... Neither am I strutting my body or whatever here nor showing off my knowledge/wisdom to the readers, so I'll say this once: "cut the crap out!" . If you really think I am, then you might be one too since I have heard that sometimes we tend to criticize people but there is a possibility that such criticism apply on us. Confused? I.e. when you think this person is boastful, then there is a possibility that you are unaware that you are boastful too; a clash in personality sometimes leads people to criticize and put down the others even though they are just thoughts imprisoned within. But like I said, our thoughts are an open book to the Lord. Mark the words possibility and sometimes; this is not absolute, so stop your thoughts from mocking this post. I do not have my own wisdom and the Lord just gave me the revelations that I so do desire to share so that people may know/be aware/reminded; . And I know I can have mistakes especially in my personal judgments.
But then what is the point of revealing my case to the people? Defending myself in the court of this rotten world through this post? There is none that makes sense... I know I'd be guilty anyway... This pleading of mine doesn't make sense...
Anyway, before I shall end this post. I'd like to share a thing I heard from a friend, who actually influenced me in many ways... She said " what is the point of climbing if we are climbing on the wrong wall?" This refers to the people going after success or trying to climb up in the social status of this world and even to people who wants to know more about God. This applies to all actually. The wall talks about the reasons/intentions why we climb, i.e. selfish gains, ambitions, the love for God, meeting expectations, etc. Obviously, God is the right wall; and through Him we can go anywhere as long as it pleases Him.... ¶ 9:33 AM 0 comments
Friday, September 23, 2005
...
I know Lord you hated idol worship... And those who do will be put to shame one day...
Those idols cannot see, cannot hear and cannot walk, how can they become gods? Of course, through the demons that dominate this world, they make miracles. And to Your disappointment, those idols have taken away the people whom You lovingly formed. But Your wrath will be poured out one day. Lord, those idols are way less than a passing breeze and so are their miracles, there is no one like You... May those idols disappear forever in Your sight, oh Omniscient One... ¶ 7:06 PM 0 comments
Those idols cannot see, cannot hear and cannot walk, how can they become gods? Of course, through the demons that dominate this world, they make miracles. And to Your disappointment, those idols have taken away the people whom You lovingly formed. But Your wrath will be poured out one day. Lord, those idols are way less than a passing breeze and so are their miracles, there is no one like You... May those idols disappear forever in Your sight, oh Omniscient One... ¶ 7:06 PM 0 comments
Wednesday, September 21, 2005
downtime
and still i end up chasing...
struggling as always...
beaten to a pulp by yielding endlessly to temptations...
this is unacceptable... ¶ 12:34 AM 0 comments
struggling as always...
beaten to a pulp by yielding endlessly to temptations...
this is unacceptable... ¶ 12:34 AM 0 comments
Monday, September 19, 2005
basta
I'd rather live believing in God and find out when I die that He doesn't exist rather than living not believing that He exists, and in the end find out that He does...
I believe He does.
I believe that we all get ressurected at the same time and I believe that not all believers who died before are in heaven but rather in paradise; however, I'm not even sure if there are some believers who already went to heaven!
What point is it when Jesus said he will prepare a room for us and take us there when He returns while we are saying that believers who died before are already there? Are you telling me that Jesus had many comings already? And for what point is it being under the spell of death that Jesus went to heaven instead of this (I consider) another place called paradise (which is under "earth", and definitely not heaven), when in fact He went to heaven after he got resurrected? Is the pattern like this: death, heaven, earth and then heaven? It doesn't make sense... If Jesus did submit himself to death's power then what is the glory when he went to heaven right after his body died? (Im not questioning the power and authority of God but for me, having this other place called "paradise" makes more sense rather than people saying that believers who died have already gone to heaven. If you read the bible there are a lot of inconsistensies... But if you consider the existence of this paradise, it does make a lot more sense. For example, it explains Samuel coming up from the ground when he was "summoned" by the witch which Saul consulted to. It also explains the glory of Jesus more clearly to me. It also explained why Lazarus and the rich man can see each other and are just separated by this great chasm. Besides, why would people wait for the Lord to come ? Isn't it that that is the time when He will bring us home to heaven with Him? What is the point of waiting then when the souls of the dead believers are already in heaven?...). I think there is this other realm that is not heaven, but neither hell... Not purgatory... Purgatory sounds grim to me... But it is just this separate place... In any case, I strongly believe that we, the believers, will get resurrected and go home together as one family/church/bride one day...
Things might not be clearly stated in the bible (i.e. who the 24 elders really are--> yeah, so I do have my doubts) since only necessary things are revealed to humans, but I believe we will find more of these details one day... ¶ 2:22 AM 0 comments
I believe He does.
I believe that we all get ressurected at the same time and I believe that not all believers who died before are in heaven but rather in paradise; however, I'm not even sure if there are some believers who already went to heaven!
What point is it when Jesus said he will prepare a room for us and take us there when He returns while we are saying that believers who died before are already there? Are you telling me that Jesus had many comings already? And for what point is it being under the spell of death that Jesus went to heaven instead of this (I consider) another place called paradise (which is under "earth", and definitely not heaven), when in fact He went to heaven after he got resurrected? Is the pattern like this: death, heaven, earth and then heaven? It doesn't make sense... If Jesus did submit himself to death's power then what is the glory when he went to heaven right after his body died? (Im not questioning the power and authority of God but for me, having this other place called "paradise" makes more sense rather than people saying that believers who died have already gone to heaven. If you read the bible there are a lot of inconsistensies... But if you consider the existence of this paradise, it does make a lot more sense. For example, it explains Samuel coming up from the ground when he was "summoned" by the witch which Saul consulted to. It also explains the glory of Jesus more clearly to me. It also explained why Lazarus and the rich man can see each other and are just separated by this great chasm. Besides, why would people wait for the Lord to come ? Isn't it that that is the time when He will bring us home to heaven with Him? What is the point of waiting then when the souls of the dead believers are already in heaven?...). I think there is this other realm that is not heaven, but neither hell... Not purgatory... Purgatory sounds grim to me... But it is just this separate place... In any case, I strongly believe that we, the believers, will get resurrected and go home together as one family/church/bride one day...
Things might not be clearly stated in the bible (i.e. who the 24 elders really are--> yeah, so I do have my doubts) since only necessary things are revealed to humans, but I believe we will find more of these details one day... ¶ 2:22 AM 0 comments
Friday, September 16, 2005
hnh...
Why is it that people expect me to have a boyfriend? What's up with them? Why do they keep assuming things? Just because I hang out with guys doesn't mean that they're my partner! I'm just hanging out with my friends! I hang out with guys similar to how I hang out with my girl friends! To state the obvious:they are my friends! Hello? Why put too much color? It doesn't look nice anymore...
Besides, I'm different. Just because everybody else has boyfriends doesn't mean everybody has boyfriends. Just because everybody else likes to have boyfriends doesn't follow that everybody likes to have boyfriends. My gosh, how one sided can a person's thought be? Try opening up and stop being too narrow-minded! This is a big big world with billions of people! Just because we are in this small island doesn't mean we are stuck at living in our own small world with one-way highways all the time. We are not the center of the universe. Think again. There are a lot of possibilities and my case is never unlikely...
---premature post! --
i shouldn't be blogging but it seems like i've spent the whole night surfing, so why not blog and express the frustration (read above paragraphs) that i've been keeping for a time. however, i need a spank for this irresponsibility! -->surfing the internet for anime info
it seems like i adored too much anime... i was looking for card-captor sakura ending. i was once an avid fan but apparently I never finished watching it because i left for singapore. why do i adore animes such as this? i guess i've said this a lot of times, but i'll repeat it here again: i love the stories. they make sense and are sometimes better than real-life series ^_^... ¶ 11:13 PM 0 comments
Besides, I'm different. Just because everybody else has boyfriends doesn't mean everybody has boyfriends. Just because everybody else likes to have boyfriends doesn't follow that everybody likes to have boyfriends. My gosh, how one sided can a person's thought be? Try opening up and stop being too narrow-minded! This is a big big world with billions of people! Just because we are in this small island doesn't mean we are stuck at living in our own small world with one-way highways all the time. We are not the center of the universe. Think again. There are a lot of possibilities and my case is never unlikely...
---premature post! --
i shouldn't be blogging but it seems like i've spent the whole night surfing, so why not blog and express the frustration (read above paragraphs) that i've been keeping for a time. however, i need a spank for this irresponsibility! -->surfing the internet for anime info
it seems like i adored too much anime... i was looking for card-captor sakura ending. i was once an avid fan but apparently I never finished watching it because i left for singapore. why do i adore animes such as this? i guess i've said this a lot of times, but i'll repeat it here again: i love the stories. they make sense and are sometimes better than real-life series ^_^... ¶ 11:13 PM 0 comments
Wednesday, September 14, 2005
discovery
I'm a terrible person when I can't solve my tutorials, most especially when I'm stuck at the first question.
During those times, I post the sad posts. I tend to mess up my room. I tend to binge as well, esp. chocolates. I am disoriented and bent on being irritable. Upset too! =P (but not all my "sad" posts are due to those)
Acads make me sad! =P
hahaha... It's really a trend that I usually overlook.
BTW, I shall abstain from posting this time around... ¶ 1:19 AM 0 comments
During those times, I post the sad posts. I tend to mess up my room. I tend to binge as well, esp. chocolates. I am disoriented and bent on being irritable. Upset too! =P (but not all my "sad" posts are due to those)
Acads make me sad! =P
hahaha... It's really a trend that I usually overlook.
BTW, I shall abstain from posting this time around... ¶ 1:19 AM 0 comments
Tuesday, September 13, 2005
Re: Filipinos
I am elated! A discussion has started! Read Korrina's reply to my post... I wanted to reply even though it would cost me to be absent for my 9 am lecture! (it is webcasted anyway) ^_^
I just don't know why exactly I am elated but I like to continue the discussion without personal involvement (as in relational kind of thing too)... We can consider this as some toastmasters kind of thing that even after this debate/argumentation (not the vocal and offensive one of course), no harm is done, but only views are exchanged...
Okay, from what she said, trapos so desire the post of becoming the president probably because of their lust for power. That is against my carelessly formulated claim that President of the Philippines is the most undesireable post in the world. But then again, while I was writing, I was considering myself whether I would want to be in Gloria's position. In other terms, to whom I was referring to was vague from my sentence and I shall clarify it now. The post: President of the Philippines is verily undesired by me and probably, if you ask the Plato or Socrates, the virtuous and the just people (a.k.a. good). You may say, how come there are just and virtuous leaders then? Plato would probably answer you back that they go for the posts either for living (earning money for their households/personal consumption), for honor or the threat of punishment. Punishment can be anything you might think of, but one is the threat of being ruled by evil/bad people; if you'd think you're wise, you'd rather not see fools playing around in those offices but I guess,and also according to him, wise people would rather give way for those wiser than them. But lo and behold, I do not consider myself wise, for I know not many things. And really, I do not know things that do make sense other than serving the Lord, but as my stubborn nature declares, I do nonsensical things anyway.
If God uses whiners, then so be it. But for me, I don't want to be used and become those whiners. I take this from David's example when Saul was still the king. David never desired to kill his king, I may not be David but I do not want to lambast the president because if not for those who voted for her then for the respect of the post itself, the presidency. I do not desire to defame its power. Just like what David did, he respected the king because he is still king and he knows that God will deal with king Saul but not through him. He was kept from sinning. I think the Lord shuns my tongue against Gloria because firstly, He doesn't want me to be the one to destroy the current leader. I know it would not please Him if I do it given that He just allows me to do so, but rather not doing for reasons stated previously (i.e. God placed her there, and I respect the post) would please Him. This may be similar to how Saul's life was handed over to David, either to kill Saul and/or to save David's life--> but I believe more on the latter purpose to be stronger. If David killed Saul to save his life then he blemished his hands with the blood of God's annointed one, but like what he did, he showed compassion and did not desire to harm him, king Saul felt sorry for what he did and allowed David to go safely away from him, which actually saved David's life... But then again, neither am I David nor I am as great as he is... I just observed that and just as how he did it, I want to follow. I do not want to complain to the leader but probably to myself for bringing such a burden, for making the leader becoming the leader during the deciding times. But these things are out of hand and all I can say now is but a low shrill, for not many shall be with me on this. Why does suspicion go back to the elections when the news are getting heated up? That I do not know... It's like going back to birth after all life's afflictions are getting so hard to handle... I, so far, do not know how to deal with this. If anyone knows, please do tell me and defend your claims as well so I may believe you...
You may say I'm not acting on this kind of oppression, as people may call it. I do not know how obscure it has been, but in fact, I already acted! This is my action: not to act in the way that I know (and believe) would not please Him or , not considering God, to act not in the way most people would. Acting against your faith/belief is sinning.
And so that's it... End of my discussion so far... ¶ 8:45 AM 0 comments
I just don't know why exactly I am elated but I like to continue the discussion without personal involvement (as in relational kind of thing too)... We can consider this as some toastmasters kind of thing that even after this debate/argumentation (not the vocal and offensive one of course), no harm is done, but only views are exchanged...
Okay, from what she said, trapos so desire the post of becoming the president probably because of their lust for power. That is against my carelessly formulated claim that President of the Philippines is the most undesireable post in the world. But then again, while I was writing, I was considering myself whether I would want to be in Gloria's position. In other terms, to whom I was referring to was vague from my sentence and I shall clarify it now. The post: President of the Philippines is verily undesired by me and probably, if you ask the Plato or Socrates, the virtuous and the just people (a.k.a. good). You may say, how come there are just and virtuous leaders then? Plato would probably answer you back that they go for the posts either for living (earning money for their households/personal consumption), for honor or the threat of punishment. Punishment can be anything you might think of, but one is the threat of being ruled by evil/bad people; if you'd think you're wise, you'd rather not see fools playing around in those offices but I guess,and also according to him, wise people would rather give way for those wiser than them. But lo and behold, I do not consider myself wise, for I know not many things. And really, I do not know things that do make sense other than serving the Lord, but as my stubborn nature declares, I do nonsensical things anyway.
If God uses whiners, then so be it. But for me, I don't want to be used and become those whiners. I take this from David's example when Saul was still the king. David never desired to kill his king, I may not be David but I do not want to lambast the president because if not for those who voted for her then for the respect of the post itself, the presidency. I do not desire to defame its power. Just like what David did, he respected the king because he is still king and he knows that God will deal with king Saul but not through him. He was kept from sinning. I think the Lord shuns my tongue against Gloria because firstly, He doesn't want me to be the one to destroy the current leader. I know it would not please Him if I do it given that He just allows me to do so, but rather not doing for reasons stated previously (i.e. God placed her there, and I respect the post) would please Him. This may be similar to how Saul's life was handed over to David, either to kill Saul and/or to save David's life--> but I believe more on the latter purpose to be stronger. If David killed Saul to save his life then he blemished his hands with the blood of God's annointed one, but like what he did, he showed compassion and did not desire to harm him, king Saul felt sorry for what he did and allowed David to go safely away from him, which actually saved David's life... But then again, neither am I David nor I am as great as he is... I just observed that and just as how he did it, I want to follow. I do not want to complain to the leader but probably to myself for bringing such a burden, for making the leader becoming the leader during the deciding times. But these things are out of hand and all I can say now is but a low shrill, for not many shall be with me on this. Why does suspicion go back to the elections when the news are getting heated up? That I do not know... It's like going back to birth after all life's afflictions are getting so hard to handle... I, so far, do not know how to deal with this. If anyone knows, please do tell me and defend your claims as well so I may believe you...
You may say I'm not acting on this kind of oppression, as people may call it. I do not know how obscure it has been, but in fact, I already acted! This is my action: not to act in the way that I know (and believe) would not please Him or , not considering God, to act not in the way most people would. Acting against your faith/belief is sinning.
And so that's it... End of my discussion so far... ¶ 8:45 AM 0 comments
Monday, September 12, 2005
Filipinos
In relation to my previous posts... Not only are the locals around and Ivy are stubborn... I guess I may count the Filipinos as well...
I observed that Filipinos are idealistic, and are even outspoken but lack definite action to achieve their ideals. They lack unity in terms of ideals as well. They are given enough liberty to do all that they want to, and are constantly seduced by the elusive power of people power. Filipinos LOVE to complain. They are also bent on pin-pointing the blame to their leaders, scrutinizing them to their very skin. They just can't stab themselves looking through the very blood that runs through them and testing how impure they are. They, like me, can be so stubborn that judgement without a good deal of knowledge of what's actually happening is but a normal description of what we could probably read on the headlines or maybe editorials...
I pity the leaders in the Philippines for they have to bear with all those sorts of painful scrutinies and all those sorts of people, including probably the likes of stubborn people (me?). I believe that they are humans too. Imperfect. They cannot please everybody. They are also constantly under the spell of temptations. Corruption? It was never new in the world and in the Philippines, people are just more sensitive about it nowadays, or say aware, utterly watchful and critical. I believe Gloria wants to escape all those terrible things that's been happening as well as flee from how her very being is blemished upon every negative feedback that reaches her office. If I were in her shoes, I might do every possible thing to escape such challenging yet horrendous situation, even the craziest solutions I would also consider.
I may probably say that the most unwanted position of office in the world is the President of the Philippines (if you ask Plato or Socrates, they'd agree with me... but correction however, this only applies for people who (according to those philosophers again) are just and virtuous a.k.a. good individuals). I currently do not aspire to be one. It seems so much. I may be labeled as filthy thief even if I'd like to believe that I am not.
I do not have the right to judge her, P. Gloria. She is facing factors that I cannot imagine at the moment. We all have reasons for our actions, so all the more are the appointed leaders who take caution in every move... Also (a lil off the line), it is written in the bible that God chose all the leaders, or all those He put in power especially over His people. Gloria may be proven to have cheated, but why is it that God allowed such a time to pass and have her formally declared as the president? He could have just exposed her by then if He didn't will her to be the president right? God has reasons but we probably don't know it yet. And so we are mesmerized by the all the possibilities why the leader has become the leader. We, being too concerned of the bad ones just act. Due to this, we sometimes become unreliable as well, and maybe unreasonable in our judgement...
I feel sorry for Gloria. I think she has received too much. If errors are on her then let God deal with her, severely if you like, and let us not be the ones to condemn her or persecute her, but if suspicions were found to be true, we condemn/persecute the action. Let us be clean of hands and innocent of slander (including the possibilities of doing so), our Lord doesn't want that from His very children. If we do condemn Gloria, I guess we are no different from those who actually persecute Christians, narrow-minded (some), doesn't know/trust God, and definitely doesn't obey the commands of Jesus... If we can help her, then we should. If it can be proven that she is nothing but an unjust leader who just wants power and money, then I bet God would deal with her according to what she deserves. God gives better judgement than we humans, who have already fallen short especially in terms of judgement. If she is bad, let us try to become a good lot of people. If she is good, then we should definitely try to become better individuals... My opinion only... But really, it is written, if someone slaps you on your right cheek, offer your left cheek as well...
... but then again, it is one of the difficult teachings that we ought to learn...
But furthermore, if you can pray for your enemies, why not for your people's leaders? You may even consider them your enemies... But do pray for them... ¶ 9:16 PM 1 comments
I observed that Filipinos are idealistic, and are even outspoken but lack definite action to achieve their ideals. They lack unity in terms of ideals as well. They are given enough liberty to do all that they want to, and are constantly seduced by the elusive power of people power. Filipinos LOVE to complain. They are also bent on pin-pointing the blame to their leaders, scrutinizing them to their very skin. They just can't stab themselves looking through the very blood that runs through them and testing how impure they are. They, like me, can be so stubborn that judgement without a good deal of knowledge of what's actually happening is but a normal description of what we could probably read on the headlines or maybe editorials...
I pity the leaders in the Philippines for they have to bear with all those sorts of painful scrutinies and all those sorts of people, including probably the likes of stubborn people (me?). I believe that they are humans too. Imperfect. They cannot please everybody. They are also constantly under the spell of temptations. Corruption? It was never new in the world and in the Philippines, people are just more sensitive about it nowadays, or say aware, utterly watchful and critical. I believe Gloria wants to escape all those terrible things that's been happening as well as flee from how her very being is blemished upon every negative feedback that reaches her office. If I were in her shoes, I might do every possible thing to escape such challenging yet horrendous situation, even the craziest solutions I would also consider.
I may probably say that the most unwanted position of office in the world is the President of the Philippines (if you ask Plato or Socrates, they'd agree with me... but correction however, this only applies for people who (according to those philosophers again) are just and virtuous a.k.a. good individuals). I currently do not aspire to be one. It seems so much. I may be labeled as filthy thief even if I'd like to believe that I am not.
I do not have the right to judge her, P. Gloria. She is facing factors that I cannot imagine at the moment. We all have reasons for our actions, so all the more are the appointed leaders who take caution in every move... Also (a lil off the line), it is written in the bible that God chose all the leaders, or all those He put in power especially over His people. Gloria may be proven to have cheated, but why is it that God allowed such a time to pass and have her formally declared as the president? He could have just exposed her by then if He didn't will her to be the president right? God has reasons but we probably don't know it yet. And so we are mesmerized by the all the possibilities why the leader has become the leader. We, being too concerned of the bad ones just act. Due to this, we sometimes become unreliable as well, and maybe unreasonable in our judgement...
I feel sorry for Gloria. I think she has received too much. If errors are on her then let God deal with her, severely if you like, and let us not be the ones to condemn her or persecute her, but if suspicions were found to be true, we condemn/persecute the action. Let us be clean of hands and innocent of slander (including the possibilities of doing so), our Lord doesn't want that from His very children. If we do condemn Gloria, I guess we are no different from those who actually persecute Christians, narrow-minded (some), doesn't know/trust God, and definitely doesn't obey the commands of Jesus... If we can help her, then we should. If it can be proven that she is nothing but an unjust leader who just wants power and money, then I bet God would deal with her according to what she deserves. God gives better judgement than we humans, who have already fallen short especially in terms of judgement. If she is bad, let us try to become a good lot of people. If she is good, then we should definitely try to become better individuals... My opinion only... But really, it is written, if someone slaps you on your right cheek, offer your left cheek as well...
... but then again, it is one of the difficult teachings that we ought to learn...
But furthermore, if you can pray for your enemies, why not for your people's leaders? You may even consider them your enemies... But do pray for them... ¶ 9:16 PM 1 comments
so I am not alone?
Kor and I had a little chitchat when we were heading back home together.
Well she talked about the posts I had scrutinizing the Singaporeans for their worldly point of view and she brought up Maybeline as a Singaporean. Well, she got a point to say that Maybeline isn't like what I think most Singaporeans are but really I wasn't thinking of Maybeline when I wrote those posts, more on like the locals I'm around with, 5-7 days a week...
I love Maybeline as my sister in the Lord as well as everybody else in the youth. (I love those who love my God, I hope...) I cannot possibly say that about her... Far be it from me!
Anyway, other than that, we also talked about a point about what the guest speaker during the church service admitted about Singaporeans as a whole. They were spoiled brats. They know that. But then I retorted, if they know they are spoiled brats, how come they're not doing anything about it? It is as if they like it and would tell the world that they love being one. But that simply is a truly twisted view of things with respect to the truth of the bible. Can it be possible that they just live in a twisted society? THAT I DOUBT, I do not see Singapore as one. Maybe they, most of the people, are just stubborn in that aspect... That also means that I shouldn't get too disgusted with my own stubbornness since I am surrounded with a pool of stubborn people... Hmmm... Yeah... It's like you know it's wrong (or maybe they really don't know that being spoiled is utterly hopeless and wrong*-see below for more of this), you don't want it but you do it anyway... That is the sinful nature living in me and I guess with the rest of the people I'm talking about. I do want the Lord to deal with me on this... I believe however that He is working on me and especially on this, in patience with full understanding with love and with care.^_^
It's not a good news to know that there are but multitudes of stubborn people in the world, including me. But then I shouldn't be too mean with myself, I am His creation after all! So that means I should give myself some good credits every time I scrutinize myself with full cynicism...
* hopeless and wrong... It can be read in Proverbs that if you want everything (similar to spoiled brats, wanting and demanding for everything they like), you are hopeless since if you get everything you'd still want more (unsatisfied, but do disprove me if you've met someone with all the material possessions in the world and is ready to die because he/she is satisfied and cares nothing else in the world because he/she got what he/she needed in life) but then what are those more? There's nothing left right?
- You'd probably think you're cool when you have all those techies? ^_^ If you ask the animals they would probably laugh seeing you with those pieces of metal hanging from your body and you, banging your head like you've gone nuts or say talking to those pieces of metals. They'd probably think they are more decent and even better off thinking that they are free from those tangles... It's nice to enjoy what the world can offer (God allows that and it is one of those what life can offer) but never let them go to your head, never depend on them and worse, never let your worth be based on them. You'll be as cheap as possible, really... ¶ 1:18 AM 0 comments
Well she talked about the posts I had scrutinizing the Singaporeans for their worldly point of view and she brought up Maybeline as a Singaporean. Well, she got a point to say that Maybeline isn't like what I think most Singaporeans are but really I wasn't thinking of Maybeline when I wrote those posts, more on like the locals I'm around with, 5-7 days a week...
I love Maybeline as my sister in the Lord as well as everybody else in the youth. (I love those who love my God, I hope...) I cannot possibly say that about her... Far be it from me!
Anyway, other than that, we also talked about a point about what the guest speaker during the church service admitted about Singaporeans as a whole. They were spoiled brats. They know that. But then I retorted, if they know they are spoiled brats, how come they're not doing anything about it? It is as if they like it and would tell the world that they love being one. But that simply is a truly twisted view of things with respect to the truth of the bible. Can it be possible that they just live in a twisted society? THAT I DOUBT, I do not see Singapore as one. Maybe they, most of the people, are just stubborn in that aspect... That also means that I shouldn't get too disgusted with my own stubbornness since I am surrounded with a pool of stubborn people... Hmmm... Yeah... It's like you know it's wrong (or maybe they really don't know that being spoiled is utterly hopeless and wrong*-see below for more of this), you don't want it but you do it anyway... That is the sinful nature living in me and I guess with the rest of the people I'm talking about. I do want the Lord to deal with me on this... I believe however that He is working on me and especially on this, in patience with full understanding with love and with care.^_^
It's not a good news to know that there are but multitudes of stubborn people in the world, including me. But then I shouldn't be too mean with myself, I am His creation after all! So that means I should give myself some good credits every time I scrutinize myself with full cynicism...
* hopeless and wrong... It can be read in Proverbs that if you want everything (similar to spoiled brats, wanting and demanding for everything they like), you are hopeless since if you get everything you'd still want more (unsatisfied, but do disprove me if you've met someone with all the material possessions in the world and is ready to die because he/she is satisfied and cares nothing else in the world because he/she got what he/she needed in life) but then what are those more? There's nothing left right?
- You'd probably think you're cool when you have all those techies? ^_^ If you ask the animals they would probably laugh seeing you with those pieces of metal hanging from your body and you, banging your head like you've gone nuts or say talking to those pieces of metals. They'd probably think they are more decent and even better off thinking that they are free from those tangles... It's nice to enjoy what the world can offer (God allows that and it is one of those what life can offer) but never let them go to your head, never depend on them and worse, never let your worth be based on them. You'll be as cheap as possible, really... ¶ 1:18 AM 0 comments
Saturday, September 10, 2005
my eating disorder...
before that, check this
it's a britney-addict, and electronics-geek webpage... i find it quite remarkable...hahaha... electronic topics with britney pictures everywhere. It should be inspiring for britney fans :P
okay back to topic...
Bingeing eating disorder...
I certainly have most of the symptoms, except for a few (one of which is I guess obesity but I'm heading for that). Anyway, here are the symptoms:
SIGNS & SYMPTOMS OF BINGE EATING DISORDER
• Frequent episodes of eating large quantities of food in short periods of time often secretly, without regard to feelings of "hunger" or "fullness" and without really tasting the food. (yeah...especially when I'm emotionally upset these days... hahahaha... As in seriously I couldn't tell whether I'm full or not, I just keep putting food on my mouth hoping that the next piece would do... )
• Feels out of control and unable to stop eating during binges.
• May eat alone, rapidly and secretly, or may snack and nibble all day long. ( alone or not... I eat... )
• Feels guilty and ashamed of binge eating. ( well... sort of sometimes when I feel like going for a diet... )
• Has a history of diet failures. (hahaha... not a long one though, during my elem and hi-skul years I didn't have this disorder...probably university stress led me to find comfort in bingeing... )
• Tends to be depressed and obese.
• Feelings of shame, disgust, or guilt after a binge.
• People who have binge eating disorder do not regularly vomit, overexercise, or abuse laxatives.
SELF-HELP TIPS FOR BULIMIA NERVOSA & BINGE EATING DISORDER
• Don't let yourself get hungry, angry, lonely, tired, or bored. All these states are powerful binge triggers. (I guess so too... )
• Stay busy (I think I am) and avoid unstructured time (I wish I could work on this). Empty time is too easily filled with binge food.
• Make sure that you touch base with loved ones and friends everyday.
• Take control of your life. Make choices thoughtfully and deliberately. Make your living situation safe and comfortable.
• Every day do something fun, something relaxing, something energizing.
• Keep tabs on your feelings. Several times a day ask yourself how you feel. If you get off track, do whatever the situation requires to get back to your comfort zone. (hmmmm... )
*bows*
=P ¶ 4:47 PM 0 comments
it's a britney-addict, and electronics-geek webpage... i find it quite remarkable...hahaha... electronic topics with britney pictures everywhere. It should be inspiring for britney fans :P
okay back to topic...
Bingeing eating disorder...
I certainly have most of the symptoms, except for a few (one of which is I guess obesity but I'm heading for that). Anyway, here are the symptoms:
SIGNS & SYMPTOMS OF BINGE EATING DISORDER
• Frequent episodes of eating large quantities of food in short periods of time often secretly, without regard to feelings of "hunger" or "fullness" and without really tasting the food. (yeah...especially when I'm emotionally upset these days... hahahaha... As in seriously I couldn't tell whether I'm full or not, I just keep putting food on my mouth hoping that the next piece would do... )
• Feels out of control and unable to stop eating during binges.
• May eat alone, rapidly and secretly, or may snack and nibble all day long. ( alone or not... I eat... )
• Feels guilty and ashamed of binge eating. ( well... sort of sometimes when I feel like going for a diet... )
• Has a history of diet failures. (hahaha... not a long one though, during my elem and hi-skul years I didn't have this disorder...probably university stress led me to find comfort in bingeing... )
• Tends to be depressed and obese.
• Feelings of shame, disgust, or guilt after a binge.
• People who have binge eating disorder do not regularly vomit, overexercise, or abuse laxatives.
SELF-HELP TIPS FOR BULIMIA NERVOSA & BINGE EATING DISORDER
• Don't let yourself get hungry, angry, lonely, tired, or bored. All these states are powerful binge triggers. (I guess so too... )
• Stay busy (I think I am) and avoid unstructured time (I wish I could work on this). Empty time is too easily filled with binge food.
• Make sure that you touch base with loved ones and friends everyday.
• Take control of your life. Make choices thoughtfully and deliberately. Make your living situation safe and comfortable.
• Every day do something fun, something relaxing, something energizing.
• Keep tabs on your feelings. Several times a day ask yourself how you feel. If you get off track, do whatever the situation requires to get back to your comfort zone. (hmmmm... )
*bows*
=P ¶ 4:47 PM 0 comments
why?
...
Sometimes i'm just bothered with the very word itself... Haha... And of course, its meaning.
I'd like to quote Karen's nick here: "The only thing messier than my life is my room..." Mind you my room was never been as messy and distorted...
Quite funny to note that my room is messy when I myself am messed up, distorted or lost/blur. And yes, for the past week, whole week to be exact, my room was never as messy as it was.
I'm a person who unintentionally waste my time on worthless things... As in more worthless than sleeping/earning money/ studying for good grades... (FYI, I totally agree with Solomon that anything under the sun is meaningless or say worthless in terms of eternity...)... But mine in particular is not just more worthless but actually a trademark of utmost stupidity and stubbornness... haize.... ¶ 3:16 AM 0 comments
Sometimes i'm just bothered with the very word itself... Haha... And of course, its meaning.
I'd like to quote Karen's nick here: "The only thing messier than my life is my room..." Mind you my room was never been as messy and distorted...
Quite funny to note that my room is messy when I myself am messed up, distorted or lost/blur. And yes, for the past week, whole week to be exact, my room was never as messy as it was.
I'm a person who unintentionally waste my time on worthless things... As in more worthless than sleeping/earning money/ studying for good grades... (FYI, I totally agree with Solomon that anything under the sun is meaningless or say worthless in terms of eternity...)... But mine in particular is not just more worthless but actually a trademark of utmost stupidity and stubbornness... haize.... ¶ 3:16 AM 0 comments
Wednesday, September 07, 2005
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this is sad! People still advertise on my comments! :P... sigh... I thot changing my settings will help... I never knew people are even using blogs for their businesses... =(
¶ 3:03 PM 0 comments
this is kinda new...
We Christians can actually judge church members, but God judges everyone (including everyone else). The scripture says: "Chase away any of your own people who are evil."
"Don't have anything to deal with immoral followers."
This is allowed because it has been written many times as well that we, brothers and sisters in the Lord, should encourage one another, correct one another, etc and grow together in the Lord. =)
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This is for me and everyone else who are in the same trouble as me:
from the bible (1 Cor 6:7-14, CEV):
Some of you sau,"We can do anyhting we want to." But I tell you that not everything is good for us. So I refuse to let anything have power over me. You also say,"Food is meant for our bodies, and our bodies are meant for food." But I tell you that God will destroy them both. We are not supposed to do indecent things with our bodies. God will raise us from death by the same power that He used when He raised our Lord to life.
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oooh...
(1 Cor 6:18,CEV)--"Don't be immoral in matters of sex. That is sin against your own body that no other sin is."
ganun pala?
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more...
"When the Lord chooses slaves, they become His free people. When He chooses free people, they become slaves of Christ."
hmmm... nicely done...
cont" God paid a high price for you. So don't become slaves of anyone else." (i.e. food, sexual immorality, sins, etc)
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and more catchy verses! (last na to..hehe)
"It won't make any difference how much good you are getting from this world or how much you like it. This world as we know is passing away" (1Cor 7:31, CEV).... ¶ 9:31 AM 0 comments
"Don't have anything to deal with immoral followers."
This is allowed because it has been written many times as well that we, brothers and sisters in the Lord, should encourage one another, correct one another, etc and grow together in the Lord. =)
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This is for me and everyone else who are in the same trouble as me:
from the bible (1 Cor 6:7-14, CEV):
Some of you sau,"We can do anyhting we want to." But I tell you that not everything is good for us. So I refuse to let anything have power over me. You also say,"Food is meant for our bodies, and our bodies are meant for food." But I tell you that God will destroy them both. We are not supposed to do indecent things with our bodies. God will raise us from death by the same power that He used when He raised our Lord to life.
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oooh...
(1 Cor 6:18,CEV)--"Don't be immoral in matters of sex. That is sin against your own body that no other sin is."
ganun pala?
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more...
"When the Lord chooses slaves, they become His free people. When He chooses free people, they become slaves of Christ."
hmmm... nicely done...
cont" God paid a high price for you. So don't become slaves of anyone else." (i.e. food, sexual immorality, sins, etc)
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and more catchy verses! (last na to..hehe)
"It won't make any difference how much good you are getting from this world or how much you like it. This world as we know is passing away" (1Cor 7:31, CEV).... ¶ 9:31 AM 0 comments
hehe
no more ads in my comments! i can't believe that those desperate people take advantage over the anonymous post for comments first to "flatter" the blogger then basically to advertise their businesses...
i am currently: spooked! ¶ 8:56 AM 0 comments
i am currently: spooked! ¶ 8:56 AM 0 comments
Tuesday, September 06, 2005
observation
Loud people don't like other loud people...
It will be the battle of the tongue. A battle from physical features to flaws in character. I don't really understand why this is the case but this is what I notice. Even if a person do appear "bad" why do people dwell so much on the seemingly unpleasant characteristics?... LIKE AS IF they're not guilty of having some...
Who are we to judge others? Remember the story when the Jews wanted to test Jesus by asking Him what to do with a woman who committed adultery? According to the law, she should be stoned to death. But Jesus said (in similar sense) that: "if there's anyone of you who haven't sinned, let him throw the first stone"... So the woman was spared... We are all meant to be stoned, we all sinned... We don't have any right to judge others because we are also just like them. We haven't even judged ourselves in our very own critical standards that we measure others with! What stupidity is this?
I just realized that I'm annoyed with this... ¶ 7:25 PM 0 comments
It will be the battle of the tongue. A battle from physical features to flaws in character. I don't really understand why this is the case but this is what I notice. Even if a person do appear "bad" why do people dwell so much on the seemingly unpleasant characteristics?... LIKE AS IF they're not guilty of having some...
Who are we to judge others? Remember the story when the Jews wanted to test Jesus by asking Him what to do with a woman who committed adultery? According to the law, she should be stoned to death. But Jesus said (in similar sense) that: "if there's anyone of you who haven't sinned, let him throw the first stone"... So the woman was spared... We are all meant to be stoned, we all sinned... We don't have any right to judge others because we are also just like them. We haven't even judged ourselves in our very own critical standards that we measure others with! What stupidity is this?
I just realized that I'm annoyed with this... ¶ 7:25 PM 0 comments
Monday, September 05, 2005
I personally don't like arguing but I wanted to be a lawyer
How paradoxical! Could something be done with it?
I practised reasoning in argumentation when I was a little kid while arguing with my a-year-younger sister. It was I guess a six-year course or more. I was able to persuade her that everything was her mistake and she had to apologize from me. I defended myself and pleaded innocent in the ongoing petty fight that we had. Knowing myself guilty in a way, I got myself free from the trouble of blame probably because I was capable enough to reason myself out. But eventually I stopped. I was unacceptable to myself, I was too weak to accept my mistakes that I became too defensive in everything... (I apologize for the first-person usage)... Stronger beings are the ones who knows how to accept their mistakes, feeling sorry for what they did and sincerely saying sorry to those they offended/harmed. But I WAS just not... sigh... But people can and do change! =)
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I had my official evangelistic experience today and all were rejections. It wasn't me who approached people, it was Huiling, my new DG leader, but I was with her to get the idea of how they start to evangelize. As I could observe, the people were so focused with their studies and to them nothing seems more important than worldly success, but personally I know there should have been a time before or maybe a time will come when they would ask about the point of everything they are doing. "So what if she (all were females) reaches the top? What fulfillment would she get? She may get all the worldly possessions but are they going to give her eternal life? What would happen next if she gets everything she initially wanted? What if success was just with her? Will she always be happy? Contented? Or will she ever be? Why does she wants to be successful, has she imagined herself living a successful career for 10 years? What could she be doing? Everything in the world fades away anyway... So what's the point of her existence? Is her life but a silly joke without a point?" At present, they have such strong grounds, but brittle foundations. Once they're broken and couldn't find anyone who can mend them, they'll always be broken and lost.
If they believe that everyone has a purpose, would "becoming as a useless being to be thrown in fire one day because of stubbornness" or maybe "becoming a warning to everyone who chose not know the truth about the Lord" an acceptable purpose to them ?... Okay, I'm becoming really crude here... I'd be like those persistent survey makers along Orchard road where almost everyone would be eager to avoid... But anyway, my point is, there is a need for them to know, or else they'll be missing the point of their existence. I know how it feels to be at a loss since I was also once so focused in worldly success that suddenly I halted and searched myself why I'm doing things.. After doing so, I found my reasons unacceptable and I stopped doing worthless struggles....Luckily, my Sheperd found me, I'm placed back to where I should be... There are many other lost sheeps... How long could they all be found?
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P.S. My dear ATE CLA IS BACK! SAFE AND SOUND! THANKS TO HIM ! =) ¶ 4:36 PM 0 comments
I practised reasoning in argumentation when I was a little kid while arguing with my a-year-younger sister. It was I guess a six-year course or more. I was able to persuade her that everything was her mistake and she had to apologize from me. I defended myself and pleaded innocent in the ongoing petty fight that we had. Knowing myself guilty in a way, I got myself free from the trouble of blame probably because I was capable enough to reason myself out. But eventually I stopped. I was unacceptable to myself, I was too weak to accept my mistakes that I became too defensive in everything... (I apologize for the first-person usage)... Stronger beings are the ones who knows how to accept their mistakes, feeling sorry for what they did and sincerely saying sorry to those they offended/harmed. But I WAS just not... sigh... But people can and do change! =)
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I had my official evangelistic experience today and all were rejections. It wasn't me who approached people, it was Huiling, my new DG leader, but I was with her to get the idea of how they start to evangelize. As I could observe, the people were so focused with their studies and to them nothing seems more important than worldly success, but personally I know there should have been a time before or maybe a time will come when they would ask about the point of everything they are doing. "So what if she (all were females) reaches the top? What fulfillment would she get? She may get all the worldly possessions but are they going to give her eternal life? What would happen next if she gets everything she initially wanted? What if success was just with her? Will she always be happy? Contented? Or will she ever be? Why does she wants to be successful, has she imagined herself living a successful career for 10 years? What could she be doing? Everything in the world fades away anyway... So what's the point of her existence? Is her life but a silly joke without a point?" At present, they have such strong grounds, but brittle foundations. Once they're broken and couldn't find anyone who can mend them, they'll always be broken and lost.
If they believe that everyone has a purpose, would "becoming as a useless being to be thrown in fire one day because of stubbornness" or maybe "becoming a warning to everyone who chose not know the truth about the Lord" an acceptable purpose to them ?... Okay, I'm becoming really crude here... I'd be like those persistent survey makers along Orchard road where almost everyone would be eager to avoid... But anyway, my point is, there is a need for them to know, or else they'll be missing the point of their existence. I know how it feels to be at a loss since I was also once so focused in worldly success that suddenly I halted and searched myself why I'm doing things.. After doing so, I found my reasons unacceptable and I stopped doing worthless struggles....Luckily, my Sheperd found me, I'm placed back to where I should be... There are many other lost sheeps... How long could they all be found?
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P.S. My dear ATE CLA IS BACK! SAFE AND SOUND! THANKS TO HIM ! =) ¶ 4:36 PM 0 comments
PH1101E: Reason and Persuasion
Is a highly disturbing and controversial module for me (and I am taking it! Hehehe). It speaks of relativism and of people who lived before Jesus. It discusses about their techniques of leading “blind” people to their devious traps in conversations. It talks about making sense, looking for reasons…
How far can man go? To me it seems like this module is but a discussion of how open-ended a man’s reasons could be, even though they may disprove a claim of another man. They cannot prove something that involves dialectical disputes to be absolutely true. But since this module loves to revolve around those seemingly hard to settle issues and their trying to count God out (that is if they are Christians) or not involving God (if they are atheist) or just using the man-made gods, I find that they are wasting their time babbling things they think do make sense. But they don’t…Really.
When you look at the Greek gods, they act so human. So stained, so not fit to be called gods… When you look at the humans who turned to gods according to other humans themselves, they’re but dead bodies lying wasted away on their tombs… exception is when you look at Jesus… You cannot find His remains anywhere since He is in fact alive. I believe He is alive and I am certain that it is the truth. I believe His teachings are perfect and I believe they are the truth as well… But then PH1101E goes butting in, reasoning that the things I claim are biased and will try to disprove how far-fetched I am from reality. They can and probably would also say that right and wrong are relative… so killing could possibly be right and lies are always excusable… See how rotten could things get? I guess they just fail to simply see what reality is, that is, it is easier to be evil than to be good in this fallen world. They’re just trying to defend the evils that we all are inclined to doing.
I pity Socrates for not finding out clarity while he was still alive. If Socrates had lived and known Jesus, I guess he would have been different. He would definitely be able to defend himself against Meletus’ prosecution and live several more decades afterwards since he would have found the One who could answer his questions and turn his bewilderment all back to him. He would be someone who would be more than at par with him. Someone who can actually stop Socrates or Plato from going around in circles and find himself satisfied with the answers given to him…Poor fellow, he who was actually wise enough to know that he knows nothing, Socrates…
Anyway, it’s just the fifth week of school so I guess I’ll know more about those Greek philosophers and more of the module’s objective after quite a number of weeks more… For now, I’ll just listen and watch them reason…
But I believe He is the absolute truth, and I guess only a few out of billions/trillions probably who existed… Whatever others may think about this claim, I strongly believe still that one day we will all know the truth about Him. ¶ 5:26 AM 1 comments
How far can man go? To me it seems like this module is but a discussion of how open-ended a man’s reasons could be, even though they may disprove a claim of another man. They cannot prove something that involves dialectical disputes to be absolutely true. But since this module loves to revolve around those seemingly hard to settle issues and their trying to count God out (that is if they are Christians) or not involving God (if they are atheist) or just using the man-made gods, I find that they are wasting their time babbling things they think do make sense. But they don’t…Really.
When you look at the Greek gods, they act so human. So stained, so not fit to be called gods… When you look at the humans who turned to gods according to other humans themselves, they’re but dead bodies lying wasted away on their tombs… exception is when you look at Jesus… You cannot find His remains anywhere since He is in fact alive. I believe He is alive and I am certain that it is the truth. I believe His teachings are perfect and I believe they are the truth as well… But then PH1101E goes butting in, reasoning that the things I claim are biased and will try to disprove how far-fetched I am from reality. They can and probably would also say that right and wrong are relative… so killing could possibly be right and lies are always excusable… See how rotten could things get? I guess they just fail to simply see what reality is, that is, it is easier to be evil than to be good in this fallen world. They’re just trying to defend the evils that we all are inclined to doing.
I pity Socrates for not finding out clarity while he was still alive. If Socrates had lived and known Jesus, I guess he would have been different. He would definitely be able to defend himself against Meletus’ prosecution and live several more decades afterwards since he would have found the One who could answer his questions and turn his bewilderment all back to him. He would be someone who would be more than at par with him. Someone who can actually stop Socrates or Plato from going around in circles and find himself satisfied with the answers given to him…Poor fellow, he who was actually wise enough to know that he knows nothing, Socrates…
Anyway, it’s just the fifth week of school so I guess I’ll know more about those Greek philosophers and more of the module’s objective after quite a number of weeks more… For now, I’ll just listen and watch them reason…
But I believe He is the absolute truth, and I guess only a few out of billions/trillions probably who existed… Whatever others may think about this claim, I strongly believe still that one day we will all know the truth about Him. ¶ 5:26 AM 1 comments
Sunday, September 04, 2005
haiz...
I can't believe Pastor Quibuloy is the one who claimed to be the son of God... He's a pretty famous preacher, and he is a Dabawenyo ...Gee, I just saw his big school beside Davao International Airport before I left... I thought he was just this successful pastor who was able to persuade his followers to share their wealth with him and make those big buildings for the greater glory of God... But now, it was more than just that... Indeed he is being used by God to fulfill what was written in the Bible. He is one of those who will come out and proclaim that he is the Mesiah. He may even perform miracles to deceive people... And wars shall come afterwards... and horrendous disasters too (actually they already came and still are coming), signalling the second coming...
Honestly, I don't want to see third world war on my lifetime. I don't want the second coming as well since it signifies more suffering for Christians. More sacrifices and even painful prosecutions. Scary... But I think if that's what the Lord wills to happen, there is nothing that man can do but to pray and trust in His unfailing love.
I do not know how tough the future of Christians in this world will be... I really do not know and I don't want to think about the worst. I believe that the Lord has been preparing all of us for something major, probably something that would cost us much... But really, I still don't want to think about that. I want to live in the present and enjoy this time of peace although I think danger is building up somewhere... stirring... But I want to spare myself of that trouble for now... I hope...
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.... i don't like this stubborn moments when I don't study... I'm not being productive at all... When will I be able to really study???.... ¶ 2:27 AM 0 comments
Honestly, I don't want to see third world war on my lifetime. I don't want the second coming as well since it signifies more suffering for Christians. More sacrifices and even painful prosecutions. Scary... But I think if that's what the Lord wills to happen, there is nothing that man can do but to pray and trust in His unfailing love.
I do not know how tough the future of Christians in this world will be... I really do not know and I don't want to think about the worst. I believe that the Lord has been preparing all of us for something major, probably something that would cost us much... But really, I still don't want to think about that. I want to live in the present and enjoy this time of peace although I think danger is building up somewhere... stirring... But I want to spare myself of that trouble for now... I hope...
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.... i don't like this stubborn moments when I don't study... I'm not being productive at all... When will I be able to really study???.... ¶ 2:27 AM 0 comments
Thursday, September 01, 2005
3rd post
same things do happen over and over again...
it is hard to understand why some mistakes keep on repeating!
it would be the person's fault right?
shame is filling up every space everytime a person feels like he/she us doing wrong, failing to meet other people's expectations...
yes, a lot of people fall off there, a lot of people are unaware victims...
sad... this is the sinking feeling that doesn't go off easily...
but there is no such thing as impossible for the Lord...
He will listen if His people seek with all their hearts...
Yes, the Lord will attend to their needs.
He simply asks His saints to turn to Him everytime...
Simply everytime... ¶ 10:33 PM 0 comments
it is hard to understand why some mistakes keep on repeating!
it would be the person's fault right?
shame is filling up every space everytime a person feels like he/she us doing wrong, failing to meet other people's expectations...
yes, a lot of people fall off there, a lot of people are unaware victims...
sad... this is the sinking feeling that doesn't go off easily...
but there is no such thing as impossible for the Lord...
He will listen if His people seek with all their hearts...
Yes, the Lord will attend to their needs.
He simply asks His saints to turn to Him everytime...
Simply everytime... ¶ 10:33 PM 0 comments
me and me again
I admire the leadership of IRC Main Committee Chair (he's firm and yet he is open, and all the other leader characteristics which I have come to appreciate several years ago... and which I also want to acquire! ehhehehehe)... He is impressive and it has been a long while since I last met people like him... Probably there are a lot of people like him in NUS but I was just not able to see because I'm hanging out in the wrong place..heehee i.e. my temptation-fillled room!
I despise my inability to make good decisions (i.e. instead of finishing my lab or starting my tutorial assignments for the next day, I went out shopping in Clementi and spent a lot even though I know Im on my way to getting BROKE... Guys would never understand why... Even I don't, I just did it!) Such a bummer I am! Oh no not that! The perfect description should be: STUBBORN!
And my English is largely deteriorating... "How could all fits in one place?" ----bwahahaha!
What IRONY! I joined the ICare thingy to help others speak better English while I myself am having a hard time correcting my crooked grammar! *_* bleeeh....
¶ 3:57 PM 0 comments
I despise my inability to make good decisions (i.e. instead of finishing my lab or starting my tutorial assignments for the next day, I went out shopping in Clementi and spent a lot even though I know Im on my way to getting BROKE... Guys would never understand why... Even I don't, I just did it!) Such a bummer I am! Oh no not that! The perfect description should be: STUBBORN!
And my English is largely deteriorating... "How could all fits in one place?" ----bwahahaha!
What IRONY! I joined the ICare thingy to help others speak better English while I myself am having a hard time correcting my crooked grammar! *_* bleeeh....
BTW, I also came across this calendar that features the twelve (were they Chinese?)animals thingy, and of course, I went looking for my year (tiger grrrrrr)... So... I checked, this year is quite good but then it indicated that there will be a month when romance is at a high for me. BUT, how in the world would they know that? That definitely would not apply to all tiger peeps, doesn't it? Anyway, the thing is not actually my "lucky" months but rather what was written about the tiger peeps for this year. It struct me hard. It said: STOP BEING SO SELF-CENTERED! ... tadaaa! this blog is so self-centered... I'll try with all my awareness to reduce that self-centered attribute of my blog.... I'LL USE THIRD PERSON! heheheheheheheh =P
Oh well... Oh Lord... I badly need you...¶ 3:57 PM 0 comments
Tame the tongue
I got an excerpt from the bible which concerns a lot about the preachers and about the tongue. Since my title is about the tongue, what will be pasted will concern it. Anyway, about being the church leaders, not everyong can become one, and if so, you shall be judged with higher standards by the Lord since you have been entrusted with his people... So back to the tongue issue, here it is:
"Look at the ships also; though they are so great and are driven by strong winds, they are guided by a very small rudder wherever the will of the pilot directs. So the tongue is a little member and boasts of great things. How great a forest is set ablaze by a small fire! And the tongue is a fire. "
"The tongue is an unrighteous world among our members, staining the whole body, setting on fire the cycle of nature, and set on fire by hell. For every kind of beast and bird, of reptile and sea creature, can be tamed and has been tamed by humankind, but no human being can tame the tongue--a restless evil, full of deadly poison. With it we bless the Lord and Father, and with it we curse men, who are made in the likeness of God. From the same mouth come blessing and cursing. My brethren, this ought not to be so. Does a spring pour forth from the same opening fresh water and brackish? Can a fig tree, my brethren, yield olives, or a grapevine figs? No more can salt water yield fresh." (Mark 15)
I'm beat... But I want to honor Him still even though my worldly nature drives me nuts sometimes... Shux, I am overwhelmed with much work! I definitely need the Lord's guidance! I need prayers too... I cannot do all these things alone...
God speed! May you do the things that pleases Him today! ¶ 3:57 AM 0 comments
"Look at the ships also; though they are so great and are driven by strong winds, they are guided by a very small rudder wherever the will of the pilot directs. So the tongue is a little member and boasts of great things. How great a forest is set ablaze by a small fire! And the tongue is a fire. "
"The tongue is an unrighteous world among our members, staining the whole body, setting on fire the cycle of nature, and set on fire by hell. For every kind of beast and bird, of reptile and sea creature, can be tamed and has been tamed by humankind, but no human being can tame the tongue--a restless evil, full of deadly poison. With it we bless the Lord and Father, and with it we curse men, who are made in the likeness of God. From the same mouth come blessing and cursing. My brethren, this ought not to be so. Does a spring pour forth from the same opening fresh water and brackish? Can a fig tree, my brethren, yield olives, or a grapevine figs? No more can salt water yield fresh." (Mark 15)
I'm beat... But I want to honor Him still even though my worldly nature drives me nuts sometimes... Shux, I am overwhelmed with much work! I definitely need the Lord's guidance! I need prayers too... I cannot do all these things alone...
God speed! May you do the things that pleases Him today! ¶ 3:57 AM 0 comments
