Happy New Year! Happy Happy New Year to All!  ¶ 3:09 PM 0 comments

  random thoughts: every little thing he does is magic by MYMP well, there are some things in that song which I like...

I like the melody! =). I like the funky, sweet kind of voice of the singer. And of course I also like some parts of the lyrics. It sort of narrate some interesting story (or the emotions which took place) by whoever composed the song. ^_^ here goes:

Though I tried before to tell him
All the feelings I have for him in my heart
Everytime that I come near him
I just loose my nerve as I've done from the start

(Chorus)
Coz every little thing he does is magic
Every thing he does just turns me on
Even though my life before was tragic
Now I know my love for him goes on

Do I have to tell the story
Of the thousand rainy days since we first met
It's a big enough umbrella
But it's always me who ends up getting wet

(Repeat Chorus)

I resolve to call him up
A thousand times a day
And ask him if he'll marry me
In some old fashioned way
But my silent fears have gripped me
Long before I reached the phone
Long before my tongue has stripped me
Must I always be alone

(Repeat Chorus)

Every little thing
Every little thing he does
Every little thing he does is magic, magic, magic

And of course, the highlighted part is the part i like to sing! (*wink wink*)

^_^.

wow! I can't wait until next week!!! uhm, but i wish it would take ages before school starts again.Har har...

Speaking of school... No more "i will do good next time" promises... They never work for me. Har har again... But anyway =), there are indeed some things to look forward to! =)

P.S. browsed back to my feb 2005 posts, and guess what I found?:

ivy, you're an Indulgent Eater. You, more than others, truly gain satisfaction from eating. And because of this, you sometimes have difficulty slowing down or just saying no. You enjoy eating and what's great about that is you understand how to appreciate certain aspects of food that others do not. You see food as more than just a source of nutrition or energy. For you, dining, or just plain eating, can be a really enjoyable experience. On the downside, however, you might sometimes indulge too much in the satisfaction you get from eating.

by tickle.com test....
heheheh... it remains true until this day (*wink wink*)  ¶ 5:39 PM 0 comments

  not entirely jobless yep! I still have a lot of things to do. But I am glad today because I had time to assemble the big puzzle I had for my birthday! Thank you to all who contributed! Especially to Wayne (and Korinna??? uh oh dunno...sorry) and to everyone else (please inform me) for making such a thoughtful yet tedious looking thing. I was touched considering the effort you put in there... wonderful! here's how the puzzle looks like now:





from the picture I can already see where my face is but while I was putting all the pieces together I can barely identify what the picture is ^_^. That picture was from the water baptism we had in East Coast Park! =) Thanks Wayne for the photo.^_^

and of course, how I felt after the assemby:



although... I'm still wondering (since I forgot) who got the missing pieces... It would be a great Christmas gift if they're given to me ^_^... hehe...

God bless you all and enjoy Christmas!  ¶ 2:10 PM 0 comments

  hmmm.... 1. clean room
2. my cousin's here
3. it's the 24th and i haven't decided where to go
4. breeze is pretty cold
5. i must go out...  ¶ 10:06 AM 0 comments

  family =)
my sisters and my cousins =)... aint they pretty? I really think so. =) hehehe... a bunch of meztizas except me... they are in a "village" near eden in Davao, a cold and nice place...but this place is way higher than Eden. I was in Singapore while they took this photo last year. But I've been there too last summer :)



my mama and auntie's here! in addition there's another pretty cousin here, the rightmost girl in front row. ^_^

soon i'll add the picture of our new pet at home: yuki! hahaah... if i know my sister gave that cute pup the name ^_^ she got the right so, that cute pup came from her bf, my future brother in law! yay! I want to be the maid of honor! Yes, i'll fight blood and flesh to become my sister's maid of honor! nyahahahahaha!

here's the future husband and wife! ain't they cute? I think so again =). I'll also fight flesh and blood for them to be happy! hahahaha...walang kokontra!


I agree with Korinna =) and some day, maybe next year if God allows, i'll celebrate Christmas with my family =). I will if given the chance =).

BTW, macho na daw si kuya! nayaayaya...nagdudumbells daw eh...interesting...nyahahahaha=P  ¶ 10:19 AM 0 comments

  finally...a break! Stage crew isn't so bad to deprive me of life. I had life in stage crew! I had fun with a new bunch of people to hang around with =). And seriously they are the type of teammates I typically wanted in a big project, not only are they committed but they had life! Come to think of it, there are two psychology majors there, and you know how I like psychology. =) So stage crew is entertaining at the same time. BTW, about half of the stage crew people (more than i think) are international students, and the locals are nice too =)... ahhaha...

well here is a bit of pictures we had, when girls cooked for the team =). Actually we are asking the guys to cook for a next time too but they make alibis like girls cook well and the demand for girls to cook again is so high... hahaha... i didn't help much, I just fried the chicken properly ^_^.. anyway here are the pictures finally:
group picture =)


caught offguard


the one in the middle is our "bossing", the happy,smiley boon sern


the second person from the right is Shu Qi, she's our contact point. I tell her my alibis when I can't make it [late or absent] for the stage crew... well I can't recall telling false alibis but maybe I had one or some...hmm... can't remember... all I know is that I tell her all the [petty/small/decent/reasonable] things that I do, i.e. "sorry I dozed off", "i slept late and woke up late", "ooops! just woke up!", "i'm going for a christmas shopping!", "sending off a friend", and a few more =P.


another offguard moment
the girls of stage crew except for 1 person, ying jia (check group photo above, the rightmost girl)


and yes...we are having a Christmas break from now until the 26th ^_^... But still I'm looking forward for the work again on 27th, because by then we will assemble the heavy bulky set we made and start painting the classy carvings! ^_^

Merry Christmas all!

P.S. grades... oh yeah almost forgot, this sem is the worst. CAP pulled down, no As (i knew i excellently screwed up my finals but could have had some good grades though if otherwise... anyway, past is past, I hope not to make the same lousy mistake ever again!)... But in the brighter side, I still have a decent grade. I praise God for not allowing my grades to be pulled down entirely. Apparently I was not the only one who screwed up C++ in the finals :D... hehe  ¶ 12:41 AM 0 comments

  cute... Had dinner with Venka, an Indian junior from A block. Met him at the bus stop, going to eat dinner at pgp. Since the two of us don't have anyone to eat dinner with, I told him that it might be a good idea if we eat together. So we ate.

Nah you nasty minds, it's not what you think it is. To the innocent minds, well it is more like bonding with a fellow stage crew. Someone who also sympathizes since he too knows how much work stage crew entails. Mind you we are working 10 am to 2 am now (with a bit of linient 2 meal breaks). Besides, he's 17 years old in EE too, so technically speaking he is my junior. Perhaps a kid who appears to be my big brother! I'm approximately half his height and half his size!... So there's nothing fishy!

But the cute/funny part is: After eating, well it was a casual thing for Indians to ask their friends if they want a drink (mind you that's free! hahahahah...but I didn't take advantage duh...), so he asked me and obviously I declined the tempting offer (bwahahaha what a cheapskate am I! =P). Then we started walking to the bus stop. When we reached the place, it's already 8:15 pm so A2's gone . So we decided to walk. In the middle of the journey it started raining. And we still walked :P. Then there comes the first bus stop, we stopped for a while. I was of course as usual indecisive whether to wait for the bus or to just go on with the already moderate rain. He said we should go on. Then we went on. Wet. We walked fast at first. Suddenly he slowed down. He said it has been a long time since he got soaked in the rain. I started to think. Come to think of it, he has been in singapore for like 5 months and already missed this nice thing of intentionally getting wet in the rain and is doing it now. I've been here for 2.5 years and I've been missing this thing but never really did it! And finally here comes the chance so I better take it! . Then I hid ate Jolines card under my shirt since I thought of giving it to her but I didn't know she already lives in old KR (--> yeah all the while I was carrying the Christmas card from ate Karen) and decided to get soaked in the rain...

there... we dilly dallied in the rain, got soaked of course while protecting ate Joline's card. It was wonderful to intentionally get wet in the rain. I like rain =)... Doing simple and small things are wonderful but maybe some people are just too complicated to notice =).

Somebody just made me smile today. Thanks Venka! You know more life than I do! hahahah...^_^  ¶ 8:31 PM 0 comments

  a few more days to go and random stuff? two more sleeps and my results would come out!

possible reactions:
1. laugh
2. cry
3. shock
4. sneer
5. go to the toilet... (erm... it's possible ya know!)
6. sleep (choose not to check)
7. do hall work instead! (yay! that means the earlier reactions entails me missing hall work!--> results would come out 3 pm on the 22nd... whaduyanoe? ^_^)

3 more sleeps and it will be noche buena time!
Sadly, I feel betrayed, but what should I expect? They expect something from me, and abandon me in the end... sigh sigh... I'm wondering whether this abandonement is due to selfishness or survival... The latter seems a little acceptable, but the former is uhm... very sad indeed...

---maturity issue (not really that reliable)---
I guess someone's going to mature fast! ^_^ well I'm just looking on the bright side. Wish I could just tell: "look who's maturing now?" to those people who thought they're mature enough. Those people who, given that they think they are mature enough, think that they can judge who is mature or not with respect maybe to their so-called maturity ... But even I myself admit that I haven't reached that maturity (so I know I am immature in my standards) albeit some people think I am matured for my age. It is perhaps a matter of that so called relativism, the thing i'm not really in good terms with... But anyway, what's with this maturity thing I digressed about? Nothing much, it is just that lately I've been hearing people talk a lot about it, makes me wonder whether they have looked into the mirror properly... But even if they have, I still don't think they have the right to judge people in a way that demeans the person. I really don't think they have the right to judge in that way at all. What do they really know about maturity? What's their yard stick for it? And if they have, have they tried measuring themselves against it? If they really are mature, then they shouldn't go around telling people that this and that are immature. It only shows some form of insecurity--> closely linked to immaturity...

I also realize that when people encounter death in whatever form, it can speed up maturity. That's a bit of a theory and a bit of an observation. I think it that way because most people if not all are scared to face death, but once they encounter some form of it, it gives them some chance of another and probably a higher level of reflection about life in general. But again, that would depend on how the person would choose to react. But I leave it to the Lord on how He will direct things. "Traumatic" experiences can also do some hastening, but again, it depends on how the person would choose to react...

Anyway, why am I talking like this? Christmas is drawing near! My mood should be at least a bit festive!!! Can't help it! I have to vent out some things in this blog... Hope to have a better smiley tomorrow!

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Even if I feel abandoned, the Lord never did! He is always there. How undeserving am I of His love! But I am grateful at the fact that He never left me, I just went astray. I admit I have been unfaithful in many ways... But the Lord is ever faithful! I am grateful for that!

I shall hold on...  ¶ 4:16 AM 0 comments

  thank you people I dedicate this post to the great bunch of people (in S'pore) who blessed me in their ways.

I want to thank all my friends in Singapore for the experiences we shared, for the lessons learned, and for just being my friends. (all included! so i wont have to make an endless list of specific people to thank for ^_^. pardon me for that--> I'm just too lazy at the moment... I will just make some special mentions.)

Thank you Joseph for the safe handling of my presents to my family. You don't know how much it meant to me. It's like even if I wont be there then at least my wishes (and love ^_^) for them would reach them on Christmas and that's really enough. I'm really really thankful! Thanks Jose! Thanks for that big heart of yours!

Thanks Karen! For your offer of bringing the stuff from family here next year. =) thanks! It also meant so much. I also thank your dad for entertaining me with his talks, and his early Christmas gift to me. It was a joy, a relief from my busy working days.

Thanks Arthur, Gelo, Nestor and Michael for being such great companions. I truly enjoyed the times with you guys... And oh, of course Ferron (who already went back to the Philippines). Nestor and Michael are going back to the Philippines tomorrow. God bless your trip and do enjoy the holidays! I hope though that Michael's friends, Rachel and Phil will be safe on their vacation...

Hi Cecilia! See you next year. Gee, guess we didn't really hang out together during the break....

Shux! I forgot! By now my friend Marian is back in US! Geeeze! I didn't even see her, although I told her before she left Singapore to the Philippines that when she'd be coming back here for a transit, I would want to meet her. Probably I did not have the time to meet her; I also forgot about it and well, she did not contact me-->maybe she also was in a hurry. Sad... But I hope that we would meet again someday. She is a good conversationalist and also some sociology student who is pretty good in writing essays! She speaks Bisaya too! Going to miss her!

Oh that's all for now...

BTW, thanks Chin! I just received your sms! Love ya girl! God bless!

--- Even though I am unfaithful, God is always faithful. I, a sinner, thank Him for that because I will never know and can't imagine where will I be without Him. ---  ¶ 12:13 AM 0 comments

  holidays In a few days the pgp tennis court will be lonely...

The streets too will be strolled by decrementing number of people as Christmas Day draws near. And it will be lonely... Maybe... But maybe I won't be gravely affected by it; besides i like to stroll in places where there aren't many people albeit preferably with friends. Some people will still be here anyway so I'm not really posting some grievings. In fact, not at all. Hall work keeps me busy and tired everyday, and oh I forgot, sleepless too. And really, I was glad someone was glad and even wanted me to stay here for the holidays; well at least I know someone would protest if I'd go back so I am not going to consider the thought again.

I do not know what to expect for my Christmas Eve here in Singapore, last year's was nice but this year's? There are plans, and they can be exciting. I hope it would be fun! I wont be expecting much though. =)

It's wonderful to see friends visit my room and indeed i had some of them today, unexpectedly. I was glad to see them (Ferron, Michael and NA, and of course Jose!-->he visited earlier hehe) although my room was still suffering from my exam hang over. It was ages ago, but as I see it, exam's effects can be long term! Anyway, back to friends. Ferron is also leaving tomorrow but Jose's flight is earlier. I managed to excuse myself from stage crew work to see off Ferron.^_^. And yeah, an IKEA dayout with Michael and company (??? yet to ask? NA?Arthur? Gelo? Robs?) this weekend... And a friday nightout with Arthur, NA, NA's friends and more; hopefully, I could go out with them and stage crew work won't impede me...

Since I have mentioned stage crew a couple of times already, might as well talk about our work. Yesterday (as in before 12 midnight) it was revealed to us that the stage crew task is way dreamy, way harder than last year's. Well I can see it as dreamy, but our stage engineer and the other heads are a bunch of workaholics, so I believe we can do it . Besides, I like to work when I know I'm not the only one working "hard", I will do what I think I can.^_^ and it is finally confirmed that the hall play's title is " Memories of Red Autumn"... BTW, remember i mentioned 50% of the scenes will be in the bedroom? We will be the ones who'll make the bed from scratch! And guess what? The actor/s and/or actress/es will just be sitting on it!haha... but anyway, on the 27th of december I will know what the whole story is all about, and of course see how they will use the set we worked hard for! I hope they'd justify the effort and the future efforts that we put and will put into the set. exciting! hehe. I have a strong feeling stage crew involves restoration pretty much at the end of hall play, but anyway, I know my new found friends (hope so) would be with me and we will do the task of restoration together in a happy state...^_^

Well uhm... can't remember what other things I should say (if i did forget some)..."But God bless your trip" to all who are leaving Singapore! Enjoy the holiday vacation!  ¶ 1:27 AM 0 comments

  oh my randomness I sort of noticed that I don't write as much like before, maybe because my addiction to blogging wore off... Anyway, now I do feel like making up, and write something uhm... something a bit more than just my daily errands.

Anyway, how's my day? I got myself addicted to this newfound znes game called "Chrono Trigger." It is an RPG (role playing game--> the kind of game i like playing), and has good or at least better graphics compared to the near finished "Dragon Quest III" I've had using gba emulator. I lasted until 9 am! hehehe... I slept because of the need to, not because I want to.
In the afternoon after finding out our next semester's allowance is already out, we went shopping in Bugis! Sad to say, not much sales. In fairness I found out that is quite interesting to shop with guys, although uhm, it is definitely different if I went shopping with girls...as in longer, tiring and uhm confusing sometimes...hahaha! Oh well, it is just interesting to shop with guys (Ferron, Arthur, Michael, NA, and Mike), I just feel shy though if I say I'd want to go to a female store. On the down side, I had a headache 3/4ths the time maybe because I wore my cap while my hair was still wet before we left NUS.

Anyway, enough for that aspect, I still have tons of laundry to iron, and I have been promising myself to do that in ages, but I guess promises I make to myself just end up broken SO I shall cease making them. I would just place them in my optional itenerary for the day... This is definitely the time of the year when I get too lazy to do the necessary stuff...

Speaking of stuff, how about my hall stuff? Me doing stage crew! yey! we are currently building the set from raw materials. The interesting part is, I get to manipulate the hi-tech gadgets (relatively to the philippines) they use for carpentry here, they have electric saw (2 versions, one you move the saw around the wood, the other you adjust the wood with respect to the saw), we use drilling to screw metals or woods, most are electric stuff although they are quite dangerous (which makes it more interesting :p). The only manual things we did were carrying things around, holding things in place, nailing and tightening screws with washers... Next week we will start painting. OOOH! BTW, i haven't told you our set. Well it's some [at least] 10 m by 10 m set, some chinese house of course, not a two-story but it sure is elevated. It has many oriental designs which I would definitely be glad to help out in painting. =) I've seen the solidwork version (a software, something like CAD but i think it is definitely better for visualizing buildings), and at first I find it dreamy but now I find it attainable if we just all don't give up in the middle of it. If you want to see it, go for our hall play! ANd Oh! BTW again, our hall play is something like Romeo and Juliet ala Moulin Rouge in which they say 50% of the scenes is in the bedroom =P. Gee, musical play is quite a fad (or trend?) for hall play nowadays.The title is uhm "Memories of Red Autumn" (???) ooops, pardon me if I'm wrong. I sort of forgot exactly. I know it has memories (or memory) and autumn... =D I just love red (and many other colors),wahahahah... although I MIGHT have heard red somewhere... from my head? not sure...

Anyway, I want to play tennis! I see both badminton and table tennis in it, and it is quite fun. For the newbie and non-elite like me, the tiring part is of course picking up the balls from everywhere... TENNIS IS FUN! hehehe...

well that's about it, someone is chatting with me, and I have left that person's window idle for quite a while now... so JA! until next time!

God bless everyone!  ¶ 12:10 AM 0 comments

  december 7 happy birthday to my younger sista! Kim!!!! although i know she doesn't read my blog... sigh sigh...

anyway... me better go back to work!

and yes Ferron and Karen, let's play tennis again!
yey! hehehe...

"chestnuts roasting in an open fire"

oooh... i so love Christmas! it is the best time of the year alright! =)  ¶ 1:57 PM 0 comments

  personification mark this very day
after idealistic illusions
he got up and left
this pioneers the time
of unbridled freedom
inside a prison

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is this fate?
maybe...
I was just meant to be this way  ¶ 7:20 PM 0 comments

  Koro Cantabile and more I dunno how it is rightly spelled but it means Choir in a Singing Manner. Coolness! That Filipino choir consisted of members from 21 different churches, the group is pretty awesome. One of them is a youth pastor whom I guess Kuya Pheng got some good conversation with. Pretty inspiring.I can't help but melt in euphoria while listening to their wonderful voices, and gosh, how I missed home when they sang some Filipino Christmas Carols! BTW, that group have been to places!

How I miss home especially lately I've realized that Dec 7th is my younger sister's 18th birthday, and perhaps it is now permanently carved in my head...=( If only that realization came earlier, as in during October or early novermber, I could have opted to go home! If only I didn't think of making them miss me just to give justice to the despedida banquet they gave before I left (a severely strange reason to start with), I could have been present for Kim's birthday... Now I'm sick... Sick of my bad decisions... I am so sorry for myself and I feel terrible, sorely terrible... I wish I could hug Kim even at least on her birthday. All I ask for Christmas is for the unlikely to happen. That my TIP seminar be canceled, excused for stage crew work and have a ticket back home on the 6th of December. I am hopeless, helpless for this matter. I shall leave it then to the Lord, let Him decide for me... But honestly, I feel regret of what I have done and missed in the process. What a loss... But looking at the brighter side, I'll be able to be there for Robs, who is until now in the hospital, getting better =). He was in pain the other day because the doctor decided to change the machine that was connected to his tube, but now I guess he already got used to the pain or say, he must have felt better. The hole in his lung by 12 noon today is already 1 cm wide... So, basically he is getting better =). His mom will be arriving tomorrow, 5 am plus... =)

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Lord, help me look at Your goodness more, than the things I do not have at the moment..
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I basically have all the reasons to be happy and be sad. But I dunno... I'm in fact not steady in between those two emotions, I'm like in a vicious and speedy roller coaster ride when it comes to what I feel...

I miss Christmas in the Philippines, but I look forward to serve the Lord in church and do some stage crew work. I miss my younger sister though...  ¶ 7:27 PM 0 comments

  is it december? or is it december?

ha ha ha...
I don't know what to expect. I think this shall be a very short one since I've signed up on things that will terribly occupy me. He he he. I'll be busy. BUZZY... I hope to rest though ^_^.

Had fun playing badminton with Ferron, Josh, Arthur and Brian yesterday. ^_^

missed playing! yay!

hope that Robs will get well pretty soon!  ¶ 12:38 PM 0 comments