Monday, September 05, 2005
I personally don't like arguing but I wanted to be a lawyer
How paradoxical! Could something be done with it?
I practised reasoning in argumentation when I was a little kid while arguing with my a-year-younger sister. It was I guess a six-year course or more. I was able to persuade her that everything was her mistake and she had to apologize from me. I defended myself and pleaded innocent in the ongoing petty fight that we had. Knowing myself guilty in a way, I got myself free from the trouble of blame probably because I was capable enough to reason myself out. But eventually I stopped. I was unacceptable to myself, I was too weak to accept my mistakes that I became too defensive in everything... (I apologize for the first-person usage)... Stronger beings are the ones who knows how to accept their mistakes, feeling sorry for what they did and sincerely saying sorry to those they offended/harmed. But I WAS just not... sigh... But people can and do change! =)
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I had my official evangelistic experience today and all were rejections. It wasn't me who approached people, it was Huiling, my new DG leader, but I was with her to get the idea of how they start to evangelize. As I could observe, the people were so focused with their studies and to them nothing seems more important than worldly success, but personally I know there should have been a time before or maybe a time will come when they would ask about the point of everything they are doing. "So what if she (all were females) reaches the top? What fulfillment would she get? She may get all the worldly possessions but are they going to give her eternal life? What would happen next if she gets everything she initially wanted? What if success was just with her? Will she always be happy? Contented? Or will she ever be? Why does she wants to be successful, has she imagined herself living a successful career for 10 years? What could she be doing? Everything in the world fades away anyway... So what's the point of her existence? Is her life but a silly joke without a point?" At present, they have such strong grounds, but brittle foundations. Once they're broken and couldn't find anyone who can mend them, they'll always be broken and lost.
If they believe that everyone has a purpose, would "becoming as a useless being to be thrown in fire one day because of stubbornness" or maybe "becoming a warning to everyone who chose not know the truth about the Lord" an acceptable purpose to them ?... Okay, I'm becoming really crude here... I'd be like those persistent survey makers along Orchard road where almost everyone would be eager to avoid... But anyway, my point is, there is a need for them to know, or else they'll be missing the point of their existence. I know how it feels to be at a loss since I was also once so focused in worldly success that suddenly I halted and searched myself why I'm doing things.. After doing so, I found my reasons unacceptable and I stopped doing worthless struggles....Luckily, my Sheperd found me, I'm placed back to where I should be... There are many other lost sheeps... How long could they all be found?
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P.S. My dear ATE CLA IS BACK! SAFE AND SOUND! THANKS TO HIM ! =) ¶ 4:36 PM
I practised reasoning in argumentation when I was a little kid while arguing with my a-year-younger sister. It was I guess a six-year course or more. I was able to persuade her that everything was her mistake and she had to apologize from me. I defended myself and pleaded innocent in the ongoing petty fight that we had. Knowing myself guilty in a way, I got myself free from the trouble of blame probably because I was capable enough to reason myself out. But eventually I stopped. I was unacceptable to myself, I was too weak to accept my mistakes that I became too defensive in everything... (I apologize for the first-person usage)... Stronger beings are the ones who knows how to accept their mistakes, feeling sorry for what they did and sincerely saying sorry to those they offended/harmed. But I WAS just not... sigh... But people can and do change! =)
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I had my official evangelistic experience today and all were rejections. It wasn't me who approached people, it was Huiling, my new DG leader, but I was with her to get the idea of how they start to evangelize. As I could observe, the people were so focused with their studies and to them nothing seems more important than worldly success, but personally I know there should have been a time before or maybe a time will come when they would ask about the point of everything they are doing. "So what if she (all were females) reaches the top? What fulfillment would she get? She may get all the worldly possessions but are they going to give her eternal life? What would happen next if she gets everything she initially wanted? What if success was just with her? Will she always be happy? Contented? Or will she ever be? Why does she wants to be successful, has she imagined herself living a successful career for 10 years? What could she be doing? Everything in the world fades away anyway... So what's the point of her existence? Is her life but a silly joke without a point?" At present, they have such strong grounds, but brittle foundations. Once they're broken and couldn't find anyone who can mend them, they'll always be broken and lost.
If they believe that everyone has a purpose, would "becoming as a useless being to be thrown in fire one day because of stubbornness" or maybe "becoming a warning to everyone who chose not know the truth about the Lord" an acceptable purpose to them ?... Okay, I'm becoming really crude here... I'd be like those persistent survey makers along Orchard road where almost everyone would be eager to avoid... But anyway, my point is, there is a need for them to know, or else they'll be missing the point of their existence. I know how it feels to be at a loss since I was also once so focused in worldly success that suddenly I halted and searched myself why I'm doing things.. After doing so, I found my reasons unacceptable and I stopped doing worthless struggles....Luckily, my Sheperd found me, I'm placed back to where I should be... There are many other lost sheeps... How long could they all be found?
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P.S. My dear ATE CLA IS BACK! SAFE AND SOUND! THANKS TO HIM ! =) ¶ 4:36 PM
