Wednesday, December 21, 2005
a few more days to go and random stuff?
two more sleeps and my results would come out!
possible reactions:
1. laugh
2. cry
3. shock
4. sneer
5. go to the toilet... (erm... it's possible ya know!)
6. sleep (choose not to check)
7. do hall work instead! (yay! that means the earlier reactions entails me missing hall work!--> results would come out 3 pm on the 22nd... whaduyanoe? ^_^)
3 more sleeps and it will be noche buena time!
Sadly, I feel betrayed, but what should I expect? They expect something from me, and abandon me in the end... sigh sigh... I'm wondering whether this abandonement is due to selfishness or survival... The latter seems a little acceptable, but the former is uhm... very sad indeed...
---maturity issue (not really that reliable)---
I guess someone's going to mature fast! ^_^ well I'm just looking on the bright side. Wish I could just tell: "look who's maturing now?" to those people who thought they're mature enough. Those people who, given that they think they are mature enough, think that they can judge who is mature or not with respect maybe to their so-called maturity ... But even I myself admit that I haven't reached that maturity (so I know I am immature in my standards) albeit some people think I am matured for my age. It is perhaps a matter of that so called relativism, the thing i'm not really in good terms with... But anyway, what's with this maturity thing I digressed about? Nothing much, it is just that lately I've been hearing people talk a lot about it, makes me wonder whether they have looked into the mirror properly... But even if they have, I still don't think they have the right to judge people in a way that demeans the person. I really don't think they have the right to judge in that way at all. What do they really know about maturity? What's their yard stick for it? And if they have, have they tried measuring themselves against it? If they really are mature, then they shouldn't go around telling people that this and that are immature. It only shows some form of insecurity--> closely linked to immaturity...
I also realize that when people encounter death in whatever form, it can speed up maturity. That's a bit of a theory and a bit of an observation. I think it that way because most people if not all are scared to face death, but once they encounter some form of it, it gives them some chance of another and probably a higher level of reflection about life in general. But again, that would depend on how the person would choose to react. But I leave it to the Lord on how He will direct things. "Traumatic" experiences can also do some hastening, but again, it depends on how the person would choose to react...
Anyway, why am I talking like this? Christmas is drawing near! My mood should be at least a bit festive!!! Can't help it! I have to vent out some things in this blog... Hope to have a better smiley tomorrow!
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Even if I feel abandoned, the Lord never did! He is always there. How undeserving am I of His love! But I am grateful at the fact that He never left me, I just went astray. I admit I have been unfaithful in many ways... But the Lord is ever faithful! I am grateful for that!
I shall hold on... ¶ 4:16 AM
possible reactions:
1. laugh
2. cry
3. shock
4. sneer
5. go to the toilet... (erm... it's possible ya know!)
6. sleep (choose not to check)
7. do hall work instead! (yay! that means the earlier reactions entails me missing hall work!--> results would come out 3 pm on the 22nd... whaduyanoe? ^_^)
3 more sleeps and it will be noche buena time!
Sadly, I feel betrayed, but what should I expect? They expect something from me, and abandon me in the end... sigh sigh... I'm wondering whether this abandonement is due to selfishness or survival... The latter seems a little acceptable, but the former is uhm... very sad indeed...
---maturity issue (not really that reliable)---
I guess someone's going to mature fast! ^_^ well I'm just looking on the bright side. Wish I could just tell: "look who's maturing now?" to those people who thought they're mature enough. Those people who, given that they think they are mature enough, think that they can judge who is mature or not with respect maybe to their so-called maturity ... But even I myself admit that I haven't reached that maturity (so I know I am immature in my standards) albeit some people think I am matured for my age. It is perhaps a matter of that so called relativism, the thing i'm not really in good terms with... But anyway, what's with this maturity thing I digressed about? Nothing much, it is just that lately I've been hearing people talk a lot about it, makes me wonder whether they have looked into the mirror properly... But even if they have, I still don't think they have the right to judge people in a way that demeans the person. I really don't think they have the right to judge in that way at all. What do they really know about maturity? What's their yard stick for it? And if they have, have they tried measuring themselves against it? If they really are mature, then they shouldn't go around telling people that this and that are immature. It only shows some form of insecurity--> closely linked to immaturity...
I also realize that when people encounter death in whatever form, it can speed up maturity. That's a bit of a theory and a bit of an observation. I think it that way because most people if not all are scared to face death, but once they encounter some form of it, it gives them some chance of another and probably a higher level of reflection about life in general. But again, that would depend on how the person would choose to react. But I leave it to the Lord on how He will direct things. "Traumatic" experiences can also do some hastening, but again, it depends on how the person would choose to react...
Anyway, why am I talking like this? Christmas is drawing near! My mood should be at least a bit festive!!! Can't help it! I have to vent out some things in this blog... Hope to have a better smiley tomorrow!
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Even if I feel abandoned, the Lord never did! He is always there. How undeserving am I of His love! But I am grateful at the fact that He never left me, I just went astray. I admit I have been unfaithful in many ways... But the Lord is ever faithful! I am grateful for that!
I shall hold on... ¶ 4:16 AM
