Sunday, December 04, 2005
Koro Cantabile and more
I dunno how it is rightly spelled but it means Choir in a Singing Manner. Coolness! That Filipino choir consisted of members from 21 different churches, the group is pretty awesome. One of them is a youth pastor whom I guess Kuya Pheng got some good conversation with. Pretty inspiring.I can't help but melt in euphoria while listening to their wonderful voices, and gosh, how I missed home when they sang some Filipino Christmas Carols! BTW, that group have been to places!
How I miss home especially lately I've realized that Dec 7th is my younger sister's 18th birthday, and perhaps it is now permanently carved in my head...=( If only that realization came earlier, as in during October or early novermber, I could have opted to go home! If only I didn't think of making them miss me just to give justice to the despedida banquet they gave before I left (a severely strange reason to start with), I could have been present for Kim's birthday... Now I'm sick... Sick of my bad decisions... I am so sorry for myself and I feel terrible, sorely terrible... I wish I could hug Kim even at least on her birthday. All I ask for Christmas is for the unlikely to happen. That my TIP seminar be canceled, excused for stage crew work and have a ticket back home on the 6th of December. I am hopeless, helpless for this matter. I shall leave it then to the Lord, let Him decide for me... But honestly, I feel regret of what I have done and missed in the process. What a loss... But looking at the brighter side, I'll be able to be there for Robs, who is until now in the hospital, getting better =). He was in pain the other day because the doctor decided to change the machine that was connected to his tube, but now I guess he already got used to the pain or say, he must have felt better. The hole in his lung by 12 noon today is already 1 cm wide... So, basically he is getting better =). His mom will be arriving tomorrow, 5 am plus... =)
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Lord, help me look at Your goodness more, than the things I do not have at the moment..
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I basically have all the reasons to be happy and be sad. But I dunno... I'm in fact not steady in between those two emotions, I'm like in a vicious and speedy roller coaster ride when it comes to what I feel...
I miss Christmas in the Philippines, but I look forward to serve the Lord in church and do some stage crew work. I miss my younger sister though... ¶ 7:27 PM
How I miss home especially lately I've realized that Dec 7th is my younger sister's 18th birthday, and perhaps it is now permanently carved in my head...=( If only that realization came earlier, as in during October or early novermber, I could have opted to go home! If only I didn't think of making them miss me just to give justice to the despedida banquet they gave before I left (a severely strange reason to start with), I could have been present for Kim's birthday... Now I'm sick... Sick of my bad decisions... I am so sorry for myself and I feel terrible, sorely terrible... I wish I could hug Kim even at least on her birthday. All I ask for Christmas is for the unlikely to happen. That my TIP seminar be canceled, excused for stage crew work and have a ticket back home on the 6th of December. I am hopeless, helpless for this matter. I shall leave it then to the Lord, let Him decide for me... But honestly, I feel regret of what I have done and missed in the process. What a loss... But looking at the brighter side, I'll be able to be there for Robs, who is until now in the hospital, getting better =). He was in pain the other day because the doctor decided to change the machine that was connected to his tube, but now I guess he already got used to the pain or say, he must have felt better. The hole in his lung by 12 noon today is already 1 cm wide... So, basically he is getting better =). His mom will be arriving tomorrow, 5 am plus... =)
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Lord, help me look at Your goodness more, than the things I do not have at the moment..
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I basically have all the reasons to be happy and be sad. But I dunno... I'm in fact not steady in between those two emotions, I'm like in a vicious and speedy roller coaster ride when it comes to what I feel...
I miss Christmas in the Philippines, but I look forward to serve the Lord in church and do some stage crew work. I miss my younger sister though... ¶ 7:27 PM
