let me i never cried over loneliness in my whole life...
but i have placed myself into a situation where
loneliness have introduced itself as a killer
crying no longer cleanses my soul
but every drop pierces the flesh of my heart

i am cursed myself
but i should have cursed the situation im in
before i waddled in this muddy plain
i should have cursed the time when i missed crying
i should have cursed the time when i longed for boundaries
i should have cursed the time i ever stepped in!

but there is nothing i can do now
but tell this old bestfriend of mine all my sorrows
my dear blog... lifeless and emotionless you may be
i can trade all the world in me
just to have something like this blog

....
now that my hate is fading away...
i hope it would go and never return
my heart is weary of too much emotions
i yearn for numbness and moving on
in this fierce jouney of life, of love and of living.  ¶ 8:36 PM