forgotten i heard about something that is worse than any bad things a mortal could experience.
indeed, this is worse than death, this is worse than falling ill and this is worse than getting bad grades.. it is being forgotten by everybody else in the world.

it might be true.
i gave some thought about it.
it is true.

not that I am forgotten myself (look at my tagboard) =P.

but yeah, I have forgotten about my dreams.
I am the one who forgot. I am not sorry about those dreams though rather I am sorry for myself. Without it, where else can i go?

Im just drifting in this endless, bottomless ocean and God knows how much I need to find what I'm looking for.. or to realize that what I am looking and waiting for is nothing.

I do not have a dream. I bet that's a great loss.

I hope and pray that one day I find my share again. My share of dreams and determination to reach them. Maybe they won't come if I wait here in my dark and empty cove but my heart wonders where I could start digging to find that treasure.

I do not want to waste my life only searching for what I lost. Iye.
I want to spend my life doing that thing that I am searching for, doing what I am here for. But the ambiguity of the things around me just confuses me further and vagueness of what ought to be done just discourages me.

As for now, I just need to find a way to get out of this place.
I need a boat or at least a direction where I could swim to in the hope of finding the island where people are in the process of reaching their dreams.

.....................
1. i do not dream to be rich
2. i do not dream to be the best
3. i do not dream to be the smartest

but maybe i want to do something that's worth my time here.
something.  ¶ 5:52 PM