Friday, June 23, 2006
eating words and etc
if there was one person i know who is anti-romantic relationship, that person would be me.
but here i am, sitting in front of my computer recalling many other words I've eaten.
i wanted to be an independent and successful woman. (me before). this is because of a traumatic event before which led me to have such paradigm. leaving that aside and reflecting about all my actions, i have been stubborn and irresponsible... I also have not realized how bitter eating words is.
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there's someone out there who never had the time to email me at least a word telling that that someone is doing fine. i felt that it was irresponsible and it disappointed me big time. as for me, even if it's my sister's wedding and I am sensitive enough to know and remember that I must send some message to someone I would take a time off to do that, at least some 30 minutes stealthly disappearing and appearing again..somehow. IT'S NOT THAT YOU DON'T HAVE TIME, YOU JUST DON'T WANT/BOTHER TO MAKE TIME. Everyone can make time for anything. what im telling is: this is similar to like telling your family that you are going to have a night out with your friends even if u are already out with them just to inform them that you are ok. say...a courtesy call or somewhat like that.
but wtheck, i could not possibly expect that from everyone.
but i do not like the idea of persevering either; i am way too impatient for that.
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but here i am, sitting in front of my computer recalling many other words I've eaten.
i wanted to be an independent and successful woman. (me before). this is because of a traumatic event before which led me to have such paradigm. leaving that aside and reflecting about all my actions, i have been stubborn and irresponsible... I also have not realized how bitter eating words is.
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there's someone out there who never had the time to email me at least a word telling that that someone is doing fine. i felt that it was irresponsible and it disappointed me big time. as for me, even if it's my sister's wedding and I am sensitive enough to know and remember that I must send some message to someone I would take a time off to do that, at least some 30 minutes stealthly disappearing and appearing again..somehow. IT'S NOT THAT YOU DON'T HAVE TIME, YOU JUST DON'T WANT/BOTHER TO MAKE TIME. Everyone can make time for anything. what im telling is: this is similar to like telling your family that you are going to have a night out with your friends even if u are already out with them just to inform them that you are ok. say...a courtesy call or somewhat like that.
but wtheck, i could not possibly expect that from everyone.
but i do not like the idea of persevering either; i am way too impatient for that.
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