the fourth day.... i have wasted yet another day... 4 out of 5 days of my midterm break all went to the drain. I did not study for my midterm test next week neither did I opened my GEM book to kick start my 2000-word essay which comprises much of the over-all grade. Yawn... Now I am left to complain what's with this bloody wasting of time I'm doing... Blaming myself and all but not doing anything to snap me out of this laziness... sigh... I don't know. Maybe it's all because Im too complacent or just got rubbed off with all the pressures of which I now deem normal and don't even scare me a bit. I wish I was like Kor who does things better when under pressure. The mere fact that the pressures don't affect me as much as before only means that I am a bit hopeless to wake up from this laid back perception...

But really... I am still mighty proud of my God who gives me undeserved grace until now.

I want to stop my nonsense. Now... All I need is to get back all the time I've wasted, but that again is another nonsense. I should go on. I don't want to wait another day for a good start, but it seems like I would do just as that. Think about it. I'm such a lazy lazy student. Incomparably lazy compared to all the Filipinos in NUS. and maybe in Singapore universities!
I should be bloody ashamed of myself.... But Im pathetically not.... not one bit...
reminds me of Shikamaru in Naruto anime... But the big difference is that he got an IQ of 200 while maybe I got a meager 50! =D... haha... he's too smart for anything, I'm too lazy and stubborn for anything!

maybe I should go marry a billionaire! =D

lol... no...not now... now that im officially attached =P.  ¶ 4:43 PM