Thursday, February 09, 2006
digging my diskette archive
digging my diskette archive...
most are already spoilt.
but I found some treasure! my Pisay essay! will post it here...
btw, pardon my grammar... that was like 3 years ago? maybee I'm still as lousy but nevermind... It just reminds me of many things... ^_^
Ivy Gregorina A. Molina
4-Electron
HOW PISAY CHANGED MY LIFE
I can still remember myself four years back; I reckon I was slouchy, shy, nervous, and definitely a crybaby. Why a crybaby? Because I used to be a perfectionist, always thinking ahead and expecting a lot of things, when I fail to do so, I run to my mom and cr... Well, I don’t want to mention it again, I feel like I was so weak those days, and that weakness screwed me up to some block that prevents me from reaching farther. Second year was the time my friends and I talked a lot about going out of school, we were all so willing to do so but the only thing that stops us from going out is money. We chose this path of Pisay, we can’t go back, and we have no choice but to stand with our decision and move on. We also discussed about getting kicked out, well, that is the thing I cannot bear to become, it’s so dishonorable, and it can do nothing but tell the world that I’m a sore loser and a weakling. Suicide? An option I cannot welcome, as what I learned from our values education teacher (Mrs. Rejuso and Mr. Orrellanida), it’s an eternal sin (guess I have really learned something!). Third year was the start of actually moving on and accepting everything that comes, the dawn of laziness and despair. I did not mean that third year was never good, it was as good as it is; the real problem was with us, we were discouraged about a lot of things, not that motivated to reach up to our personal expectations (based on my personal point of view), and not even doing our best in every way. I was sad because we gave a lot of problems to our adviser and much more when we reached the fourth and last year of our Pisay life. We were not the best that we could be, the flaw was with us, and we feel really sorry for our adviser for all the troubles and problems that we gave him. (Too much negative isn’t it? But the thought of this article does not end there; it’s just a prologue ☺.)
Standing right now in the end of high school life, I knew I missed out something; I missed out the process on how I became me, strong, happy, sometimes a laughing gas, active, confident at some extent and calm. Totally different from what I was before, that was then I realized how Pisay molded me entirely…
My classmates made me stronger, they provided me social challenges that made me stronger emotionally, they made me independent of them but not left alone, they made me understand that being too dependent on friends leaves you looking broke and helpless. To help a friend, is not actually helping them out but to teach them on how to help themselves. However, my classmates also provided me pressures that sometimes lead me to cry because of hurt, I used to take discussions seriously so whenever jokes are spoken out about me, I get mad. The teachers advised and suggested me ways to change my life to cope up with social pressures like teasing and name-calling, Ma’am de Guia took a great role in doing so, she told me to just go with the flow in conversations so that those who tease and name-call me would get tired of their boring job. It was hard at first, but later I turned out to be a joker, a corny one though because of too much going with the flow and diverting the mood of the atmosphere. I also learned how to be happy despite of hardships, Monday mornings usually remind me of that, and I also realized that time spent with sadness is losing the time to do something to resolve the problem and be happy. In connection to being happy, I learned how to laugh in front of my problems, how to laugh my heart out, and I recognized that happiness is not just medicine, it is life.
I am active and confident, my classmates and teachers played a big role in developing that, first they showed me that like them I am also human capable of mistakes, as well as improvements, and then, they made me develop my talents willfully. They appreciated my work if it’s really excellent and they suggest ways to improve if it’s not that good enough. I considered every bit of advise, chose what I can do, experiment on new ways, and change for the better, I don’t take things hard because sometimes it hurts my will. From the confidence taught by my friends (teachers and classmates), I became active knowing that no one is going to stop me from doing things I wanted to do within the bounds of school rules and regulations. I like to do a lot of things in a short time given a strong will, and I can never survive a situation where I sit all day watching things pass by in front of me.
My four years of stay trained me to be calm; panicking is just a waste of time, it makes me lose my momentum of work, and builds too much pressure emotionally. Thinking that too much pressure causes heart attacks, I stopped and made myself relaxed, doing things without pain in the heart . From then on, I worked smoothly, unrushed, and happier than how I used to work before. The only thing that was not taken away from me is my seriousness but Pisay made me mix up my seriousness with jolliness, believe it or not, I’m partly sanguine and partly a peaceful melancholic as a person; two opposite personalities mixed as one. Based on my own point of view, having opposite traits can be an advantage because it can make me cope up differently from opposite situations, I can learn to be happy in some case and in another, I become really serious.
When I look at my grade school picture, I see a different version of me, when I look at my graduation picture for our yearbook, I actually see myself, totally different from what I was. Pisay played a big role in my life, I am really grateful for everything; I may have started this article with negative things, but I’m taking them all back, I don’t mean that what I have said were never true but rather what I’ve said already cancelled off the gratefulness that I feel. It’s so great that whatever bad thing happened to me in Pisay is now just a minor event of my entire Pisay life. Those things were no big deal; they were only significant to some extent because I have learned important lessons from them, besides that, there is NOTHING MORE.
How did Pisay really change my life?
I was renewed…
----end----
heee ¶ 4:50 PM
most are already spoilt.
but I found some treasure! my Pisay essay! will post it here...
btw, pardon my grammar... that was like 3 years ago? maybee I'm still as lousy but nevermind... It just reminds me of many things... ^_^
Ivy Gregorina A. Molina
4-Electron
HOW PISAY CHANGED MY LIFE
I can still remember myself four years back; I reckon I was slouchy, shy, nervous, and definitely a crybaby. Why a crybaby? Because I used to be a perfectionist, always thinking ahead and expecting a lot of things, when I fail to do so, I run to my mom and cr... Well, I don’t want to mention it again, I feel like I was so weak those days, and that weakness screwed me up to some block that prevents me from reaching farther. Second year was the time my friends and I talked a lot about going out of school, we were all so willing to do so but the only thing that stops us from going out is money. We chose this path of Pisay, we can’t go back, and we have no choice but to stand with our decision and move on. We also discussed about getting kicked out, well, that is the thing I cannot bear to become, it’s so dishonorable, and it can do nothing but tell the world that I’m a sore loser and a weakling. Suicide? An option I cannot welcome, as what I learned from our values education teacher (Mrs. Rejuso and Mr. Orrellanida), it’s an eternal sin (guess I have really learned something!). Third year was the start of actually moving on and accepting everything that comes, the dawn of laziness and despair. I did not mean that third year was never good, it was as good as it is; the real problem was with us, we were discouraged about a lot of things, not that motivated to reach up to our personal expectations (based on my personal point of view), and not even doing our best in every way. I was sad because we gave a lot of problems to our adviser and much more when we reached the fourth and last year of our Pisay life. We were not the best that we could be, the flaw was with us, and we feel really sorry for our adviser for all the troubles and problems that we gave him. (Too much negative isn’t it? But the thought of this article does not end there; it’s just a prologue ☺.)
Standing right now in the end of high school life, I knew I missed out something; I missed out the process on how I became me, strong, happy, sometimes a laughing gas, active, confident at some extent and calm. Totally different from what I was before, that was then I realized how Pisay molded me entirely…
My classmates made me stronger, they provided me social challenges that made me stronger emotionally, they made me independent of them but not left alone, they made me understand that being too dependent on friends leaves you looking broke and helpless. To help a friend, is not actually helping them out but to teach them on how to help themselves. However, my classmates also provided me pressures that sometimes lead me to cry because of hurt, I used to take discussions seriously so whenever jokes are spoken out about me, I get mad. The teachers advised and suggested me ways to change my life to cope up with social pressures like teasing and name-calling, Ma’am de Guia took a great role in doing so, she told me to just go with the flow in conversations so that those who tease and name-call me would get tired of their boring job. It was hard at first, but later I turned out to be a joker, a corny one though because of too much going with the flow and diverting the mood of the atmosphere. I also learned how to be happy despite of hardships, Monday mornings usually remind me of that, and I also realized that time spent with sadness is losing the time to do something to resolve the problem and be happy. In connection to being happy, I learned how to laugh in front of my problems, how to laugh my heart out, and I recognized that happiness is not just medicine, it is life.
I am active and confident, my classmates and teachers played a big role in developing that, first they showed me that like them I am also human capable of mistakes, as well as improvements, and then, they made me develop my talents willfully. They appreciated my work if it’s really excellent and they suggest ways to improve if it’s not that good enough. I considered every bit of advise, chose what I can do, experiment on new ways, and change for the better, I don’t take things hard because sometimes it hurts my will. From the confidence taught by my friends (teachers and classmates), I became active knowing that no one is going to stop me from doing things I wanted to do within the bounds of school rules and regulations. I like to do a lot of things in a short time given a strong will, and I can never survive a situation where I sit all day watching things pass by in front of me.
My four years of stay trained me to be calm; panicking is just a waste of time, it makes me lose my momentum of work, and builds too much pressure emotionally. Thinking that too much pressure causes heart attacks, I stopped and made myself relaxed, doing things without pain in the heart . From then on, I worked smoothly, unrushed, and happier than how I used to work before. The only thing that was not taken away from me is my seriousness but Pisay made me mix up my seriousness with jolliness, believe it or not, I’m partly sanguine and partly a peaceful melancholic as a person; two opposite personalities mixed as one. Based on my own point of view, having opposite traits can be an advantage because it can make me cope up differently from opposite situations, I can learn to be happy in some case and in another, I become really serious.
When I look at my grade school picture, I see a different version of me, when I look at my graduation picture for our yearbook, I actually see myself, totally different from what I was. Pisay played a big role in my life, I am really grateful for everything; I may have started this article with negative things, but I’m taking them all back, I don’t mean that what I have said were never true but rather what I’ve said already cancelled off the gratefulness that I feel. It’s so great that whatever bad thing happened to me in Pisay is now just a minor event of my entire Pisay life. Those things were no big deal; they were only significant to some extent because I have learned important lessons from them, besides that, there is NOTHING MORE.
How did Pisay really change my life?
I was renewed…
----end----
heee ¶ 4:50 PM
