Tuesday, February 21, 2006
can somebody slap me?
I've been downright lazy... I don't want to do anything... But I got to be reminded that I still have 2 midterms after the sembreak and a term paper to submit!
I have missed gazzilions of lectures. And a whole lot of things to do!
It is not yet over!
NOT YET...
p.s. everyone is struggling so it seems... no, not just in academics but in the many aspects of life in general. all i can say to those with me, this is how it is to live here. And really, it is more fulfilling to be alive, mixed with all emotions... And no, you are not the only one. People have passed what you are going through, you might need help, don't hesitate and let your pride get in the way, just ask...
p.s.s.
i've read my past year and even 2004's blog entries... i just realized how different I write now. If you ask me, i think I was more sensible back then than now, when all I write is about nothing really, but mere emotions mixing up with life. In the past, I write with fervor. I really write how I feel, not much with holding back... It is possible that I am worn out, but I guess I should blame that to myself. Or is it because I already have someone to talk to and I have less thoughts to blog since I've already chatted my concerns with that person? Maybe... He is a good conversationalist. really... But I guess I should give space for myself as well that is not directly linked to him, this blog I should say (he doesn't even read this! ha! good one. and by now I know he forgot the address =P.. guys generally forget details like this =D ). But then again, i also just realized that it is hard to talk seriously with people... Sometimes if not most of the time you have to initiate.. People don't open up as much. But really, how can friends bond with just shallow topics everytime? How can one find real people when they don't talk about real things that happen in one another's life? How can people live with superficiality all the time? I think it is hard. But I am quite surprised to find new friends and when they speak of life, I was wonderfully amused of their maturity. They made it appear that sometimes mature people mask themselves in a comical character, it is not because they take life too lightly but because they realized that it is indeed better to see more smiling faces around =D. I saw real friends in them... really... people you can rely on, people you can talk real things with, and would even dare to sentimentally speak of things that are very sensible... Things that you can't even imagine a seemingly happy-go-lucky person would talk and do for a friend. Pretty amusing indeed. People who may seem to loaf around can be more mature than those who appear matured. ^_^ actually, I observed that some of those who try to appear matured got a lot of insecurities inside that they don't want others to deem them shallow if they try to loaf around like the former... No... they don't even know they are insecure. Just talk to them and you'd realize their principles revolve around some insecurities! ¶ 10:34 AM
I have missed gazzilions of lectures. And a whole lot of things to do!
It is not yet over!
NOT YET...
p.s. everyone is struggling so it seems... no, not just in academics but in the many aspects of life in general. all i can say to those with me, this is how it is to live here. And really, it is more fulfilling to be alive, mixed with all emotions... And no, you are not the only one. People have passed what you are going through, you might need help, don't hesitate and let your pride get in the way, just ask...
p.s.s.
i've read my past year and even 2004's blog entries... i just realized how different I write now. If you ask me, i think I was more sensible back then than now, when all I write is about nothing really, but mere emotions mixing up with life. In the past, I write with fervor. I really write how I feel, not much with holding back... It is possible that I am worn out, but I guess I should blame that to myself. Or is it because I already have someone to talk to and I have less thoughts to blog since I've already chatted my concerns with that person? Maybe... He is a good conversationalist. really... But I guess I should give space for myself as well that is not directly linked to him, this blog I should say (he doesn't even read this! ha! good one. and by now I know he forgot the address =P.. guys generally forget details like this =D ). But then again, i also just realized that it is hard to talk seriously with people... Sometimes if not most of the time you have to initiate.. People don't open up as much. But really, how can friends bond with just shallow topics everytime? How can one find real people when they don't talk about real things that happen in one another's life? How can people live with superficiality all the time? I think it is hard. But I am quite surprised to find new friends and when they speak of life, I was wonderfully amused of their maturity. They made it appear that sometimes mature people mask themselves in a comical character, it is not because they take life too lightly but because they realized that it is indeed better to see more smiling faces around =D. I saw real friends in them... really... people you can rely on, people you can talk real things with, and would even dare to sentimentally speak of things that are very sensible... Things that you can't even imagine a seemingly happy-go-lucky person would talk and do for a friend. Pretty amusing indeed. People who may seem to loaf around can be more mature than those who appear matured. ^_^ actually, I observed that some of those who try to appear matured got a lot of insecurities inside that they don't want others to deem them shallow if they try to loaf around like the former... No... they don't even know they are insecure. Just talk to them and you'd realize their principles revolve around some insecurities! ¶ 10:34 AM
