*whistling* not interesting post I checked my friendster account after quite a time and a touching testimonial greeted me. A testimonial from my little sister. She said she's missing me a lot now.

Sad...

I tend to focus with what I'm doing in Singapore now, ECAs, school, church life and yes even love life... Ok, maybe I'm gutsy enough to say this finally, oo may love life nga ako... so? But I'll talk about it in a while...oh yeah, this is with regards to my previous post btw... So yeah... hmmm... But amidst all the busyness I sort of forgot about my family back home. My mom called me last week, but really I don't know what's in me that I sort of didn't took the pleasure of chatting with her after ages. I guess I was just too preoccupied. She also sent me some adobo courtesy of my cousin but then it was stupid of me not to tell my cousin that there was an adobo in my package. To my heart's remorse, it reached me spoilt. I broke down after going back to my cove not because there's no more my mama's version of adobo but because I realized how much I missed her. Maybe all the while it was lingering in my heart that it's becoming a normal feeling which I have learned to overlook but when I noticed it last Saturday I just broke down... hahaa funny... girls cry a lot =P but then it has been quite a while since I cried...*LOL.. how could I be so open? but anyways...* So about my little sister, she misses me lot na... Me too... so much... I so love my little sister, I have always wanted to be with her when she turned into a lady and protect her from all her suitors...nyahahaha... but I guess ya all know where I was during that time... but *again* really, i just want to be her sister and love her as much as I could... ^_^ besides she's my only younger sibling so it is only expected of me to do good but I just lost it... I guess this scholarship has some price to pay and it's quite a lot. To start off, I got separated with my great home buddies in Manila, sort of lost contact with my wonderful high school friends, lost contact with my childhood bestfriend, didn't see my little sister turning 18, experiencing my big brother's more matured character, my older sister promoted and my mama smiling again... I wonder if my mama really fully recovered from her cancer, it writhes my heart with just even thinking of the what-ifs... To continue my list, I didn't see Yuki, and I never got to have a good hug from Creamy (another doggie who died from a recent virus spreading in our area at home), I never hugged my Pia when she died (really... I so love that cutie...). Lost the continuity of giving good care to my fishes, i think a lot of them had died! #_# Missing my cousins also... hmmm... I guess I should cut my list until here it's getting long!

But the good part... Independence... Not that I so wanted it, I have been granted of some great freedom at home so I guess it's just independence from being too emotional about getting parted from my loved ones... Geez...

BTW, Im a slacker now. Not driven to study, academic excellence is no longer my big thing now. I do not know exactly why but I have some ideas... Hope to find it on time in the Lord's mercy. I do not get awed by wealthy people since ages ago, and for quite a while now I am not awed with academic achievements (mataas nga ang IQ but then the EQ? hmmm even I'm not matured! *accdg to my perceived standard --> overall maturity ha* never met a matured student too else I will be a big fan of that person!*LOL* I guess we all are just growing up! =))

Best part? I got to learn more about my faith. I met wonderful people from church and school. I got to know why I am saved. I got to know my frailty and I bet I'll know more and more later. I've seen God's hand working in my life and then more of my stubbornness. The overall existence is pretty interesting although I do not want to look for all/most of the answers, in time I know the Lord will impress on me things that will satisfy my curiosity. One thing, they may insist of relativism, pero bahala sila they may think I am crazy but here is what, I believe my God is absolute and that is the truth that will stand and will show in the end. Yes indeed tama si Pastor Butch, the battle has been won and we have to fight from victory as what Kor posted. More like fighting the psychological battle of impirical reasons, arguments, relativism and even with those who insist that God is dead *accdg to some articles I've read*. Joke naman oh... But oh well, may the Lord sustain us!

Good part again? met some guy... He is Indian =)... haha... I've said to myself before not to look at people in their appearances but in their characters... LOL... If I were the person 3 or 4 years ago, I might even consider him readily dumped but I think he is cute anyway just that back then I wouldn't consider too dark a person... =D. But I think it is fun to see people in their characters, you just get to know them beyond how you see them =)... Really it is interestingly fun =) You are also granted excemption from such great attraction to a drop dead gorgeous opposite sex. Looks is an insentive, not a criteria. Haha... Anyway, back to uhm my "boy", for some reason he caught my eye...haha... interesting persona? yeah... For one, he admits he is dead selfish but ya know what? He appears to be someone who thinks of others first if you get to hang out with him ( this is even before it all started ). So then, my status? I'm single. We are going out. =) I really like him a lot or should I call it the L word? hahahaha... he loves me daw =D... ang funny pa, nung earlier days he was resistant to getting emotionally involved or for things to get deeper...but oh well, I guess malakas lang talaga ang dating ng mga Pinay sa lahi nila! nyahahahahahaa!*hysterically laughing a.k.a. the witch laugh*

ang labo ng post na to... English to Taglish and then Sad to Joking... ano ba talaga ate?  ¶ 11:55 PM