state For the nth time around, I so wanted to give up. I just admire those people who just don't give up, kudos to ate Karen particularly...

Anyway, I also don't feel like writing or studying or working. For some reason I feel laid back, I want to take things lightly. I want a break. Apparently, I am getting the opposite and I therefore complain to my blog that I have so many work and had done nothing in fact. A big sluggard.

Seems like this semester is going to be like crazy. I just hope I wont loose my bearings in the middle of everything. I just hope I won't give up. I just hope I will still be intact in the end. I just hope and pray that my hopes won't get shattered. I leave it up to Him. I am only human, but I will attempt.

Some things sort of annoy me maybe because I'm just not what I am supposed to be (or so I think) or maybe because I'm just upset with what I am doing. I don't know. I am confused with many things and also with the complexities of human nature. It is quite disturbing and I am, in particular, very much disturbed with many things. I hope things will get untangled in time. I just pray it would happen sooner or later. I don't know many things but I hope to understand some things, especially the things that are stopping me now...  ¶ 11:23 PM