Monday, January 23, 2006
certified bench warmer
CERTIFIED BENCH WARMER...bow
No matter how i look at my situation, I am one. Well, it is not that I'm very upset by becoming one, it's just that I am definitely useless in a group im dedicating my time with... ISS.
It is evidently becoming a one-woman team. Well at least a unanimously appointed head (can also be self-appointed) has been spearheading the events, and I am but the least subcomm member . I have always wanted to be an events subcomm member, but by the will of the project director, it has been abolished and the events turned into a group of five people all involved in the main committee meetings. I am not upset with Divya or am I disappointed with her, rather I think she is a well-accomplished bioengineering student who has a loud voice and a loud and maybe responsible character. She speaks rather well and tends to dominate the discussions while I am more of a bench warmer who tends to butt in only when I feel that there's really something wrong (which i guess happens only 1 in a gazillionth) with a disturbed language syntax. Anyway, I wanted to resign but it is silly to start up this sort of commotion when the ISS date is drawing near. It would be nothing but a nuisance protest amidst the busy preparations. So here I am, wasting most of my time in a "useless" manner and I am sad over it. I could have spend more time with the youth if not missing one meeting, finished the church service, started my tutorials, went to my lectures (missed them because I end up tired the night before). Basically, I could have done other things (like participate in the Filipino presentation, I so wanted to but I couldn't thanks to my "role") where I perceive myself useful and taking an active part.
My role in ISS is rendered useless and now I have volunteered myself to act during the event, and to my uhm errrnesss they appointed me as their last resort! But anyway, up to them... Maybe I'll just wallow myself and my time in this temporal uselessness and find other means not to do bad with my academics (I so hope I could!!!). I would rather be a bench warmer than a headache. Anyway, those bench warmers in IHGs offer support to their teammates during the game and at least in their trainings they take part in playing against their main players to improve them but my part is just heating up the wooden bench maybe up to 30 degrees plus Celsius from room temperature within hours... That's all. ¶ 2:29 PM
No matter how i look at my situation, I am one. Well, it is not that I'm very upset by becoming one, it's just that I am definitely useless in a group im dedicating my time with... ISS.
It is evidently becoming a one-woman team. Well at least a unanimously appointed head (can also be self-appointed) has been spearheading the events, and I am but the least subcomm member . I have always wanted to be an events subcomm member, but by the will of the project director, it has been abolished and the events turned into a group of five people all involved in the main committee meetings. I am not upset with Divya or am I disappointed with her, rather I think she is a well-accomplished bioengineering student who has a loud voice and a loud and maybe responsible character. She speaks rather well and tends to dominate the discussions while I am more of a bench warmer who tends to butt in only when I feel that there's really something wrong (which i guess happens only 1 in a gazillionth) with a disturbed language syntax. Anyway, I wanted to resign but it is silly to start up this sort of commotion when the ISS date is drawing near. It would be nothing but a nuisance protest amidst the busy preparations. So here I am, wasting most of my time in a "useless" manner and I am sad over it. I could have spend more time with the youth if not missing one meeting, finished the church service, started my tutorials, went to my lectures (missed them because I end up tired the night before). Basically, I could have done other things (like participate in the Filipino presentation, I so wanted to but I couldn't thanks to my "role") where I perceive myself useful and taking an active part.
My role in ISS is rendered useless and now I have volunteered myself to act during the event, and to my uhm errrnesss they appointed me as their last resort! But anyway, up to them... Maybe I'll just wallow myself and my time in this temporal uselessness and find other means not to do bad with my academics (I so hope I could!!!). I would rather be a bench warmer than a headache. Anyway, those bench warmers in IHGs offer support to their teammates during the game and at least in their trainings they take part in playing against their main players to improve them but my part is just heating up the wooden bench maybe up to 30 degrees plus Celsius from room temperature within hours... That's all. ¶ 2:29 PM
