summer fall freakin...

i am utterly disappointed with myself...

yes, I see myself stagnant at home. We can't just leave home because of mom's condition although she already hired a new helper (honestly, we disliked helpers and in fact it was quite a disappointment for me to hear the news... anyway, so far, it's quite ok... since i', beginning to feel lazy...)... what's really worse is that i cannot go to Bohol with my sister. I will have to wait for my big bro and go there with him and then go back to davao alone... Heck, I'm freakin tired of travelling long distances alone... But neways, i got no choice... I would just have to buckle up again and face it... I know He won't leave me alone although I fear I'm facing this declining growth again... Sigh... I don't like this... not at all... Mom must undergo 6 months of chemotherapy... Rumors say that after chemo, you'd be utterly weak, sometimes you vomit etc... Chemo targets fast growing cells (one of them are carcinoma cells, hair, white blood cells (?????) etc)... So other than getting bald you have to be isolated from all the dirt in the world...heh...

Sad life... as in...

Worse, because of all these things, I'm getting fat...haha....

Even worse, dang.. why does past had to haunt me again? why does it had to leave me empty and evaded? Why do these hormones overdo everything?

Sigh... I just hope others are okay... At least I only have to worry 'bout my family... =)... haize....

Adios!  ¶ 2:35 PM