Sunday, April 24, 2005
i didn't go...
for my youth group neither for the meeting in the sister's house
after being drained mentally for two days and sleeping my night away (my alarm failed me or i guess it's the otherwise that happened since i failed to set it properly), I should have gone there instead. But who knows, maybe I needed the rest too. Although, I'm quite sad to choose not to. Anyway, God understands. It's part of my human limitations.
I just had my physics finals 10 hours ago. The Lord encouraged me to face it. I was really scared beforehand because if i fail my finals, then I would surely fail the module. I didn't do my best though, I just rambled all the stuff there and got lost in some items but I'm hoping for the best, to pass and keep my scholarship. But I guess I'm judging too soon. I still got four more papers to struggle with. Maths, Electrical for my engin core modules, and my SS and Marketing both require hundreds and hundreds of pages of reading. I'm really troubled how to go about them. But yes, in the Lord's time, everything will be alright. and yes, I will hope in the Lord. These things may not make sense now, but to Him, they all play a part in His plans. =)
and to Chin, I do not know if she reads this, I'd like to say, I'm proud of you! hehe... whatever happened, we will always be here. We are all unworthy of His love, that's why it is grace that keeps us alive. Also, the love of parents for their children are irrevocable and noble and true^_^, but then even if there may be instances (one out of gazzillions!) that it fails [we are blessed that it is not in your case or mine], His love for us never will and so is His faithfulness.
Reminds me of the time my ate told me to just cry everything out ^_^. Just cry when you have to, but don't meddle too much on the problem. Learn from it and move on. I actually cry when my family forgives me for my misgivings. Indeed,their love is much much greater than everything I have done altogether. However, I'm the type of person who doesn't like to cry in public, as much as possible, I hold my tears back. I'm also the type who doesn't cry when somebody else is. I fear I might repress the person even more because I cried...haha... i just realized that it can be comforting as well ^_^. Sometimes when I break out. I break out. I cry anyway. Girls cry in public, boys rarely do that. ^_^. But I'm impressed by males who can bravely show their emotions because they (i therefore speculate) don't care about the image they project in public. Culture tells them not to cry. But really, what are your tear glands for? They are not there for display or some form of waste secretion, sometimes when you really can't take it, just let it all out. You will feel better afterwards (no wonder girls do it! haha)...
anyways, i managed to turn on my webcam after the longest time. My pix software is broken so I used yahoo messenger instead to take pix! hehe... i'm kinda narcissistic in a way... BUT BUT i cannot bring my webcam around and take picture of others so I only have myself, my stuff and my room to take photos with! but if only I have a cam, i would love to take pictures of my friends and of the world! really! haha... but anyway again, priorities and priorities. Digicam and cellphones with cam are just vanities. Marketing people just make them appear to be a need . Haha I actually learned something from my marketing module ^_^. Well, actually according to my first lecture notes, marketers capitalize on needs and invest on wants. They also try turning wants to needs through promotions... Therefore, be warned! do not be deceived by what the ads say as important. They are just trying to earn some bucks ^_^ but really, know your realistic and actual priorities, there and then you'll realize what you really need. ^_^
here are some samples of my pix during the severe mugging period (after waking up realizing that I should have gone to one of the meetings I mentioned earlier):
hmmm... i slept for five hours! it's like the whole time i could have spent in the meetings...
reminisce the past...remember those effigy days?
i like this one... i look bewildered ^_^ by something
[different day photo, sometime like several weeks ago]
I'm really wondering why models don't smile that much... I tried to imitate them, but... HAHAHAHA HAHAHAHAHA HAHAHHAHAA HAHHAHAHAHHA HAHAHAHAHAHAHA
stop dreamin baby! =P
haha...
God bless! ¶ 12:04 AM
after being drained mentally for two days and sleeping my night away (my alarm failed me or i guess it's the otherwise that happened since i failed to set it properly), I should have gone there instead. But who knows, maybe I needed the rest too. Although, I'm quite sad to choose not to. Anyway, God understands. It's part of my human limitations.
I just had my physics finals 10 hours ago. The Lord encouraged me to face it. I was really scared beforehand because if i fail my finals, then I would surely fail the module. I didn't do my best though, I just rambled all the stuff there and got lost in some items but I'm hoping for the best, to pass and keep my scholarship. But I guess I'm judging too soon. I still got four more papers to struggle with. Maths, Electrical for my engin core modules, and my SS and Marketing both require hundreds and hundreds of pages of reading. I'm really troubled how to go about them. But yes, in the Lord's time, everything will be alright. and yes, I will hope in the Lord. These things may not make sense now, but to Him, they all play a part in His plans. =)
and to Chin, I do not know if she reads this, I'd like to say, I'm proud of you! hehe... whatever happened, we will always be here. We are all unworthy of His love, that's why it is grace that keeps us alive. Also, the love of parents for their children are irrevocable and noble and true^_^, but then even if there may be instances (one out of gazzillions!) that it fails [we are blessed that it is not in your case or mine], His love for us never will and so is His faithfulness.
Reminds me of the time my ate told me to just cry everything out ^_^. Just cry when you have to, but don't meddle too much on the problem. Learn from it and move on. I actually cry when my family forgives me for my misgivings. Indeed,their love is much much greater than everything I have done altogether. However, I'm the type of person who doesn't like to cry in public, as much as possible, I hold my tears back. I'm also the type who doesn't cry when somebody else is. I fear I might repress the person even more because I cried...haha... i just realized that it can be comforting as well ^_^. Sometimes when I break out. I break out. I cry anyway. Girls cry in public, boys rarely do that. ^_^. But I'm impressed by males who can bravely show their emotions because they (i therefore speculate) don't care about the image they project in public. Culture tells them not to cry. But really, what are your tear glands for? They are not there for display or some form of waste secretion, sometimes when you really can't take it, just let it all out. You will feel better afterwards (no wonder girls do it! haha)...
anyways, i managed to turn on my webcam after the longest time. My pix software is broken so I used yahoo messenger instead to take pix! hehe... i'm kinda narcissistic in a way... BUT BUT i cannot bring my webcam around and take picture of others so I only have myself, my stuff and my room to take photos with! but if only I have a cam, i would love to take pictures of my friends and of the world! really! haha... but anyway again, priorities and priorities. Digicam and cellphones with cam are just vanities. Marketing people just make them appear to be a need . Haha I actually learned something from my marketing module ^_^. Well, actually according to my first lecture notes, marketers capitalize on needs and invest on wants. They also try turning wants to needs through promotions... Therefore, be warned! do not be deceived by what the ads say as important. They are just trying to earn some bucks ^_^ but really, know your realistic and actual priorities, there and then you'll realize what you really need. ^_^
here are some samples of my pix during the severe mugging period (after waking up realizing that I should have gone to one of the meetings I mentioned earlier):
hmmm... i slept for five hours! it's like the whole time i could have spent in the meetings...
reminisce the past...remember those effigy days?
i like this one... i look bewildered ^_^ by something
[different day photo, sometime like several weeks ago]
I'm really wondering why models don't smile that much... I tried to imitate them, but... HAHAHAHA HAHAHAHAHA HAHAHHAHAA HAHHAHAHAHHA HAHAHAHAHAHAHA
stop dreamin baby! =P
haha...
God bless! ¶ 12:04 AM
