here are my arguments
i gave a thought to what Brice just said in the dining hall
he said something like:
when you have a low grade don't even bother asking other people's grades or else you'll feel bad. when you have a high grade you can ask people and then feel good about yourself...
I disagree... in a way you could sense self-centeredness in that claim. I'm not saying that Brice is, but the intentions can be and most likely are... Because the argument revolves around how good or bad you'd feel afterwards.
Why do I disagree? In the first place, low grades are burdens. They have to be shared to lessen their yoke on your neck. and if you think that others might belittle you, then that's simple, belittle them too if you are vengeful because they are the type of people who measures your worth to one-sided academics, and they're not really true friends at all. They are also the type who tends to go for things that would make them feel or think that they are better than others. I do not like people who thinks like that, i believe that everybody is equal in this world; one may be good in one aspect but others are better in another aspect. I take the egalitarian point of view, and which somehow gives some proof to zodiac claims... I'm a libran, a typical undecisive yet somebody who trully believes in equality, and somehow I have this strong belief that many librans share this type of view (and based on my observations as well). I'm not the astrology believer or whatever, I believe in God, but I find it interesting that zodiac signs do describe people in reality. They have a match, and I might ask Jesus about they're realness when I'll meet Him... I may tend to believe in descriptions of the type of people now, but they can never describe the personality, and I scoff at those that tell the future or whatever. I strongly believe that God controls everything, albeit He said in the bible something like, He will give the people to their hearts desires, i.e. if they believe this way and that He may just as well allow those things to happen and twist them for His purposes, but if you believe that everything is in God's control and you trust Him for whatever that may come, then so be it. And the latter I believe is the better way to go. Okay so back to my grades argument. It is important to face reality and share them to people you can confide on. At least the next time grade talks come out in the open again, you wouldn't have to divert the topic or avoid the people and even do the most socially breaching thing in the world, WALK OUT. It is important that you know roughly the scores of others esp. in this competitive university so that you could gauge the minimum things you could do to catch up and get a passing grade. It is foolish to go about living blindly thinking everything is okay and then later you'll realize you are asked to be deported. And it is also foolish that being competitive is bad, if you think so, you're like telling the whole of Singapore that they're bad. But hey, look where is Singapore now? Isn't she endorsing competition everywhere? Check the markets, check the businesses, check everywhere and you'll see competition marked everywhere. Competition is good when you have the proper mindset about how to go about it. But don't overdo asking others, just know roughly what you need to know to start doing things.
and yeah, besides, no secrets will be kept hidden forever. When you keep them you are bound by them, if you face them and even share to the people concerned you are set free... yes, the truth will always set you free no matter how much you don't like telling them in the first place.
and about having a high score... maybe i just think differently, I am more bent on asking other people's score when I have a low grade rather than a high grade. I shut up when I think I perceive that I have a high grade because I might make others feel bad, and really, when they feel bad about themselves I feel bad in the process. Then the point of obtaining fulfillment from high grades simply erodes away just like that. I'd rather brag my low score if in the process i could cheer up low self-esteemed people.
Yey. thoughts gone out... back to my official inauguration of ivy finally trying to get back on track... HELP ME LORD!