change? yeah...

I think the change speaks louder than my post =)...

I'm just utilizing the convinience of readily made and available templates to suite my needs. I'm compelled to do this because I kinda get tired of my old title...

I guess when you link me, it's better to leave it as "ivy's changing world" ^_^...haha =P

okie...

i woke up late, so i failed to get my breakfast, another money wasted but this won't happen if I'm in PGP. I'm absent for my marketing class and later I will have my last lab for electrical... shoot me but i just realized i only have 2 weeks left for study and i haven't studied yet! =( argh... it's giving me more reasons to go to PGP... BTW, until now I have not accepted the KR offer. I'm still considering PGP, because in a way I'm TIRED AND SICK of being forced to do something... AND I really had enough of really bossy and in a way inconsiderate people; I really had enough of them...

reassessing myself at the moment... I may be the ultimate slacker... But I thank God for being there no matter what... and for everyone to know, what made my heart sink for the past two days (and I apologize for the forced smiles, and good if you didn't notice..because I just can't smile with a gay heart...), my mom is sick. Terrible? Think this way... You're father is long gone so you only have her left. You're 3 thousand miles away and have to wait another month before you could get back... For a month, how would you feel then? Knowing that decisions have to be made, although she decided to finally have the surgery, can you just accept the risk made? You don't have a choice... And in this helplessness the best help I could get is from God. To pray and to trust in Him. He's actually the one giving me the strength to smile . But I feel the need to trust Him more. I don't deserve His grace but because it is grace, I have it. It's easy to enjoy the world but it seems like when more important matters that really matter more albeit we most of the time take for granted, we wake up from the comfort of our dreams and face reality.

my mom is sick
i have not studied yet
i'm weak willed lately
i just don't trust God enough
i need to give-up myself more
and give-in to the world less

but I lift them up to Him...

tears will hopefully be no more, but rather I must choose to look up on Him more... So help me God...

okie... enough of that. I have to bathe and then print notes and continue the remaining things that I could continue (i didn't start the day right...)

God bless!
Carpe Diem!


-digression-
perverted doesn't necessarily mean bastos... generally perverted is something that is different, twisted, diverting from the original meaning... how could i forget that?


"wealth is futile for it can never save; and if wealth takes away what is pure and true, might as well rid of it or it may get rid of you"  ¶ 10:24 AM