Wednesday, February 09, 2005
wala lang...
There are so many things to appreciate life for. For one, I appreciate this opportunity of writing down my thoughts in this kind of blog. I may not know who reads this or if anyone reads this at all, but the important thing is that I have this as an outlet of some things I just can't openly discuss or discuss at all in any personal conversation. This is more like talking to myself and to anyone who might be interested in reading whatever is going on in my mind.
I appreciate life for all her ups and downs. Emotions involved in such situations do affect my way of thinking and mood at any point; however, one thing remains the same, they all make up life not an easy task but an exciting, mysterious, and over-all wonderful gift. Currently, I may be at this empty state and I believe only God knows exactly why, but I am certain that it wont stay forever this way. Not a chance at all. =). Maybe ups and downs are more often described as spices of life because some taste overly sweet, others utterly bitter, while the rest are of some sort, and that when individually eaten in one sitting is disgustingly inappropriate. We neither put one kind of spice in one dish, nor put too much and all of them in a recipe. For different dishes, different combinations of concentrations are needed like for different people, different experiences unfold, different ups and downs, albeit similarities do exist, and some even are intertwined.
God is a great cook, but He gave us this free-will of how we would want end up. Although it may sound confusing, that He is the cook and yet it seems like we still have a choice on the outcome of our lives, one thing I am certain of, God has a bigger picture of everything, He knows when to intervene and when to allow our insistence. He simply knows what He is doing and when... But then again life can't be simply describe by something we do in the kitchen. Life is far more mysterious and even complicated than just that, and my limited knowledge can just safely without further confusion say that.
I perfectly know I'm not a life expert, for I also got my own life to "unravel", but these are just things I can fairly share about my view of life. Although somebody once told me not to try to understand the reasons behind everything because we will never will (just trust in the Lord in everything), I'll still try to get hold of something. I still attempt to get an acceptable reason for the sake of going on peacefully, because as somebody far from perfect, I have the tendency of falling away from putting up that full trust (hopefully, I'll get there with stability). Reasons like: God has a reason for this, maybe He wants me to learn something, and (a more direct one) He doesn't want me to do this, suffice although there can be more specific and worldly oriented ones... I guess it's for the sake of reflection, as part of my learning process. Anyway, this is just merely some form of disclaimer...
Sigh...
I recently observed my selfish reactions to certain unprecedented events. I do them without realizing that they were direly selfish; although those reactions may not harm anyone, they are entirely selfish (but I believe different from being utterly self-centered). I still sigh about them though... Luckily, one thing so lovable yet hateful in life is always there: change...
wups!... An hour just passed since I started writing this entry... Better wrap up =)
Wrap up!
hehe...
God bless!
Carpe Diem
P.S. We watched Feng Shui the other night (in Cathay Orchard), and I just realized that the character played by Kris Aquino should by right die; die not in some tiger whatever (because she was born in the year of the tiger--> watch the movie and you'll know why), more on like the consequence of breaking the bagua wrongly...
P.S.S. Feng Shui is a well done horror movie! haha... I screamed a lot!... More like a thriller movie =). Sundeep, a Mauritian (not sure of spelling), even agreed that the movie was good. Kudos to the Filipinos =)
P.S.S.S. One nice way to recover from all the scary faces in that movie is to consider that those people who played the ghostly roles are still alive and doing other stuff in show business. They were well-paid for their scary performance and they themselves were not scared of what they just did. It's only fair that we don't include the fear they incurred in our lifestyles. Besides, the faces from the movie were unreal ^_^. ¶ 9:43 PM
I appreciate life for all her ups and downs. Emotions involved in such situations do affect my way of thinking and mood at any point; however, one thing remains the same, they all make up life not an easy task but an exciting, mysterious, and over-all wonderful gift. Currently, I may be at this empty state and I believe only God knows exactly why, but I am certain that it wont stay forever this way. Not a chance at all. =). Maybe ups and downs are more often described as spices of life because some taste overly sweet, others utterly bitter, while the rest are of some sort, and that when individually eaten in one sitting is disgustingly inappropriate. We neither put one kind of spice in one dish, nor put too much and all of them in a recipe. For different dishes, different combinations of concentrations are needed like for different people, different experiences unfold, different ups and downs, albeit similarities do exist, and some even are intertwined.
God is a great cook, but He gave us this free-will of how we would want end up. Although it may sound confusing, that He is the cook and yet it seems like we still have a choice on the outcome of our lives, one thing I am certain of, God has a bigger picture of everything, He knows when to intervene and when to allow our insistence. He simply knows what He is doing and when... But then again life can't be simply describe by something we do in the kitchen. Life is far more mysterious and even complicated than just that, and my limited knowledge can just safely without further confusion say that.
I perfectly know I'm not a life expert, for I also got my own life to "unravel", but these are just things I can fairly share about my view of life. Although somebody once told me not to try to understand the reasons behind everything because we will never will (just trust in the Lord in everything), I'll still try to get hold of something. I still attempt to get an acceptable reason for the sake of going on peacefully, because as somebody far from perfect, I have the tendency of falling away from putting up that full trust (hopefully, I'll get there with stability). Reasons like: God has a reason for this, maybe He wants me to learn something, and (a more direct one) He doesn't want me to do this, suffice although there can be more specific and worldly oriented ones... I guess it's for the sake of reflection, as part of my learning process. Anyway, this is just merely some form of disclaimer...
Sigh...
I recently observed my selfish reactions to certain unprecedented events. I do them without realizing that they were direly selfish; although those reactions may not harm anyone, they are entirely selfish (but I believe different from being utterly self-centered). I still sigh about them though... Luckily, one thing so lovable yet hateful in life is always there: change...
wups!... An hour just passed since I started writing this entry... Better wrap up =)
Wrap up!
hehe...
God bless!
Carpe Diem
P.S. We watched Feng Shui the other night (in Cathay Orchard), and I just realized that the character played by Kris Aquino should by right die; die not in some tiger whatever (because she was born in the year of the tiger--> watch the movie and you'll know why), more on like the consequence of breaking the bagua wrongly...
P.S.S. Feng Shui is a well done horror movie! haha... I screamed a lot!... More like a thriller movie =). Sundeep, a Mauritian (not sure of spelling), even agreed that the movie was good. Kudos to the Filipinos =)
P.S.S.S. One nice way to recover from all the scary faces in that movie is to consider that those people who played the ghostly roles are still alive and doing other stuff in show business. They were well-paid for their scary performance and they themselves were not scared of what they just did. It's only fair that we don't include the fear they incurred in our lifestyles. Besides, the faces from the movie were unreal ^_^. ¶ 9:43 PM
