Sunday, December 26, 2004
before the change begins
okay, an hour from now, my first semester result will be out and I'm expecting a whirlwind of shocks... bad ones i believe... haha... ridiculous to call them shocks when I'm expecting them. Anyway, just leave them as that.
well, at least I'd like to blog my emotions before i would possibly break down. Currently I'm fine. More on the happy mood, and not a tinge of sadness but more on like a tinge of anxiety. I'm actually planning to sleep until 5 sumthin before i gear myself up again for my part time thingy. Im a bit disappointed for missing 4 straight volleball trainings; therefore, most likely losing my big chance of playing for the first six, which i endearingly wanted. Oh well, time to let go unless of course if it is really God's will to let me play. Sometimes, i just can't help it, or maybe my will is just too weak lately that the things i want to happen just can't be done. I don't know, but hey live on!
and to Karen, if you are reading this. About the KL trip, there were times na parang nagtatampo ako or something, it does not involve anything about you and your Dad or the trip, coz that time I was physically disabled... Or at least I could safely say that some physical pain had been torturing me and sometimes I can't help but change my facial expression and mood coz I'm trying to bear the pain... Sowee! pero i feel okay na. Apparently, that pain started that day we went off, and ended the day after, hours later when you left for the Phil... Malas noh? pero hehe, i didn't mind, I enjoyed KL naman eh. It was freedom. =P
Oh well, what else do i have to say? I'm not the type of person who loves to narrate what really happened to myself for the past 24 hours or maybe weeks. All i could say is that all along i made mistakes, i daydreamed! (uh oh not again! all the while i thought i got over daydreaming... yun pala inde pa), i missed the people i love, i walked a lot, ate like a pig (?)--> life's simple pleasures..heheh...., and what else? shop? hehe i did and i feel guilty for spending too much... hahaha... oh well, at least i was able to buy presents for my family. =)...
oh... im listening to Christmas melodies ryt at the moment. haha.. senti? niyaks! playing ryt now is " I'll be home for Christmas... even if only in my dreams!"--> waaaaaaaaaa!!!!
hehehe... natamaan ako dun ah! hihihihi....
oh well, that's it for now...
i shared my thoughts... I'll blog my emotions after i am aware of my potentially horrendous grades... But i won't be posting them! bwahahahahah!
God bless you all!
Advance Happy New Year!
P.S.
thanks BIG TIME to ate Cla and her family for adopting me for Christmas. I enjoyed singing (haha... Filipinos love to sing!), and eating and spending my favorite time of the year with a bunch of wonderful people. It was amazing and I was largely blessed (and yeah, don't forget the great food!--> i love the lasagna, turkey, ham, salad... cge na lahat na! hahahaha). God is amazing, Jesus is superb! love ya!
¶ 5:00 PM
well, at least I'd like to blog my emotions before i would possibly break down. Currently I'm fine. More on the happy mood, and not a tinge of sadness but more on like a tinge of anxiety. I'm actually planning to sleep until 5 sumthin before i gear myself up again for my part time thingy. Im a bit disappointed for missing 4 straight volleball trainings; therefore, most likely losing my big chance of playing for the first six, which i endearingly wanted. Oh well, time to let go unless of course if it is really God's will to let me play. Sometimes, i just can't help it, or maybe my will is just too weak lately that the things i want to happen just can't be done. I don't know, but hey live on!
and to Karen, if you are reading this. About the KL trip, there were times na parang nagtatampo ako or something, it does not involve anything about you and your Dad or the trip, coz that time I was physically disabled... Or at least I could safely say that some physical pain had been torturing me and sometimes I can't help but change my facial expression and mood coz I'm trying to bear the pain... Sowee! pero i feel okay na. Apparently, that pain started that day we went off, and ended the day after, hours later when you left for the Phil... Malas noh? pero hehe, i didn't mind, I enjoyed KL naman eh. It was freedom. =P
Oh well, what else do i have to say? I'm not the type of person who loves to narrate what really happened to myself for the past 24 hours or maybe weeks. All i could say is that all along i made mistakes, i daydreamed! (uh oh not again! all the while i thought i got over daydreaming... yun pala inde pa), i missed the people i love, i walked a lot, ate like a pig (?)--> life's simple pleasures..heheh...., and what else? shop? hehe i did and i feel guilty for spending too much... hahaha... oh well, at least i was able to buy presents for my family. =)...
oh... im listening to Christmas melodies ryt at the moment. haha.. senti? niyaks! playing ryt now is " I'll be home for Christmas... even if only in my dreams!"--> waaaaaaaaaa!!!!
hehehe... natamaan ako dun ah! hihihihi....
oh well, that's it for now...
i shared my thoughts... I'll blog my emotions after i am aware of my potentially horrendous grades... But i won't be posting them! bwahahahahah!
God bless you all!
Advance Happy New Year!
P.S.
thanks BIG TIME to ate Cla and her family for adopting me for Christmas. I enjoyed singing (haha... Filipinos love to sing!), and eating and spending my favorite time of the year with a bunch of wonderful people. It was amazing and I was largely blessed (and yeah, don't forget the great food!--> i love the lasagna, turkey, ham, salad... cge na lahat na! hahahaha). God is amazing, Jesus is superb! love ya!
¶ 5:00 PM
