Wednesday, December 01, 2004
B.L.U.R me
haha... I don't know... I just find myself getting blur, that's all...
NUS proved to me how dumb I am... Well, let's just twist it this way, everyone's intelligent and the paper's too hard... =P
I would want to enjoy the holidays, but how? maybe working will do some trick... reminds me though about how my mom wished me to enjoy this vacation as much as I can... and reminds me again that I should consider what she said because when the year ends, another dumbfounding semester will try to push me down... or up if things get better =)
oh well, im a bit anxious... about venturing new grounds... I'm 18 but believe it or not, I don't know what I have to do or do i really have to do something?... I have promised myself to be more responsible... But how? I'm just a newbie in this professional world so I got no idea how to manage myself well. I don't know what I have to learn... Although maybe I could use some of my not-really professional acting skills to act like I'm good but such a deception could only end up fooling me... Or so i think... or maybe I just fear this change of lifestyle, or am I nervously excited?
I don't know if i tend to hold on things as much as I can... But I am... From trash to opportunities... I don't like risking or wasting... even in computer games, I don't want to lose even a soldier alone in the middle of a battle somewhere in the digital world... Is it because librans are just fairly indecisive that they hold on to every good side of every option??? it's somehow an irritating realization that indeed I'm one indecisive girl... I don't believe in Zodiac Signs but I'm observing this match in descriptions, which I do not deny to be real... I do not know how God planned this universe, but it sure is overwhelming yet sometimes confusing to a small mind! I do not know! I know nothing!
Medals, trophies and certificates are just fraud documents telling that you were once a brilliant person who knows quite a lot. In the end, however, you'll realize you know nothing. For if you did, you wouldn't be accepting those awards because in the end again they won't really amount to something (maybe just some cosmetic display in your resume and maybe in your house). Well, that's how things are for me...
oh well... another well not-so-pointless post with an irrelevant title =P
tata!
hope everybody will have a nice safe trip back home!
¶ 12:35 AM
NUS proved to me how dumb I am... Well, let's just twist it this way, everyone's intelligent and the paper's too hard... =P
I would want to enjoy the holidays, but how? maybe working will do some trick... reminds me though about how my mom wished me to enjoy this vacation as much as I can... and reminds me again that I should consider what she said because when the year ends, another dumbfounding semester will try to push me down... or up if things get better =)
oh well, im a bit anxious... about venturing new grounds... I'm 18 but believe it or not, I don't know what I have to do or do i really have to do something?... I have promised myself to be more responsible... But how? I'm just a newbie in this professional world so I got no idea how to manage myself well. I don't know what I have to learn... Although maybe I could use some of my not-really professional acting skills to act like I'm good but such a deception could only end up fooling me... Or so i think... or maybe I just fear this change of lifestyle, or am I nervously excited?
I don't know if i tend to hold on things as much as I can... But I am... From trash to opportunities... I don't like risking or wasting... even in computer games, I don't want to lose even a soldier alone in the middle of a battle somewhere in the digital world... Is it because librans are just fairly indecisive that they hold on to every good side of every option??? it's somehow an irritating realization that indeed I'm one indecisive girl... I don't believe in Zodiac Signs but I'm observing this match in descriptions, which I do not deny to be real... I do not know how God planned this universe, but it sure is overwhelming yet sometimes confusing to a small mind! I do not know! I know nothing!
Medals, trophies and certificates are just fraud documents telling that you were once a brilliant person who knows quite a lot. In the end, however, you'll realize you know nothing. For if you did, you wouldn't be accepting those awards because in the end again they won't really amount to something (maybe just some cosmetic display in your resume and maybe in your house). Well, that's how things are for me...
oh well... another well not-so-pointless post with an irrelevant title =P
tata!
hope everybody will have a nice safe trip back home!
¶ 12:35 AM
