Saturday, October 30, 2004
it's time to move
i've been a slacker for this sem... Yesterday, I did the most slacking thing to do. I slept the whole day! Missing two lectures and maths tutorials that I never even completed to answer. I even decided to really go for that tutorial because I can't answer a bunch of questions but then I ended up utterly tired and immobile, as in dizzy... There's no point of showing up because my mind wouldn't be working anyway...
by the time i woke up, I wasn't the silly me 8 hours earlier or even 12 or 24... I don't know...
maybe the best word to describe me right now is disoriented...
sad... sniff....sniff...
why do people make it hard for me to do what God wants me to do?
why am I making it hard for myself?
i know God's working in me... But i'm like this because I'm in my spiritual low... or a bit low...
even though the enemy prowls around waiting for this moment to lure me to sinning a lot, I will not relent because God is always there at my aid for strength and guidance..
and yeah... I'm a bit happy because I finally found the biblical proof of what I've been upholding as a "Christian principle"... It's in Hebrews 10:23 " Let us hold enswervingly to the hope we profess, for he who promised is faithful"... yes, i've been a Christian for long now, and what made me last is because I follow that verse all along... I'm holding on to the Lord's promise that he will claim us back one day and we will live in His paradise forever... A paradise that could never be imagined here on earth... I'm holding on to the promise that we will be taken away from this fallen world... I'm holding on and I still want to hold on... Lord make and help me...
¶ 7:51 PM
by the time i woke up, I wasn't the silly me 8 hours earlier or even 12 or 24... I don't know...
maybe the best word to describe me right now is disoriented...
sad... sniff....sniff...
why do people make it hard for me to do what God wants me to do?
why am I making it hard for myself?
i know God's working in me... But i'm like this because I'm in my spiritual low... or a bit low...
even though the enemy prowls around waiting for this moment to lure me to sinning a lot, I will not relent because God is always there at my aid for strength and guidance..
and yeah... I'm a bit happy because I finally found the biblical proof of what I've been upholding as a "Christian principle"... It's in Hebrews 10:23 " Let us hold enswervingly to the hope we profess, for he who promised is faithful"... yes, i've been a Christian for long now, and what made me last is because I follow that verse all along... I'm holding on to the Lord's promise that he will claim us back one day and we will live in His paradise forever... A paradise that could never be imagined here on earth... I'm holding on to the promise that we will be taken away from this fallen world... I'm holding on and I still want to hold on... Lord make and help me...
¶ 7:51 PM
